The fear that surrounds me,

The darkness I feel,

The terror unfolding,

The nightmares so real,

No man can stomach the terror one feels,

When facing a friend who has just given up;

It enters the mind like a poisonous fog,

And keeps one from sleep, like a devilish magog.

Where do these thoughts come from?

Why do they come?

How can I stop them,

From making friends use a gun?

Why must you enter?

Why must you be?

Why can't you leave them?

Please, just... leave them be.

I know that we hurt you,

I get that, its true,

But that doesn't mean you,

should do this to us, too.

I love you,

I miss you,

I wish you were here,

But the choices you make,

Mean that you we must fear,

Long ago you were friendly,

And we all called you brother,

Yet now you abhor us,

Why even bother?

Yet, for all you do to us,

No matter the cause,

Please leave my friends out of it,

Let them out of your claws,

As for my friend,

Who caused me this hurt,

Know that I'm with you,

Though I may seem inert,

And,

Despite all this pain,

Despite this great sorrow,

That we'll feel again,

Maybe even tomorrow;

I trust in you,

Hope for you,

Need you so much,

Please don't take yourself,

From my life,

Just because,

Of some pain;

If you'll just  tell me how,

I'll help you.

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(A/N) Suicide. Don't do it. A ton of people say that it hurts others more than it hurts you, and they're right! I don't give a crap whether you think you can take the pain of life or not; you have no right to put someone through that! Before you attempt such a deed, answer me this: Can you Imagine the pain of having your heart ripped from your body? Or slowly suffocating to death? Or, how about the sense of helpless terror you get when you know something terrible is going to happen to someone you love, and you have no possible way of stopping it? That is what the rest of us go through!

Can you imagine how much of a hell that is!?! Can you even conceive of just how much you hurt someone by attempting suicide?! Whatever your reason is, you had better make storming certain its a good one before you even consider the idea of it, much less make the attempt.

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I'm sorry for the rant, but a friend of mine nearly committed suicide today; it hasn't been a pretty aftermath. She's fine, now, but there's a reason people describe it as a living nightmare. Now, I know I'll probably get hate for 'daring' to say that there is never a reason for suicide, but that is my belief. If you think otherwise, feel free to tell me how I'm wrong, and why, in the comment section. I, after going through this three times now, frankly don't give a crap.

Your demented and exhausted poet,

-Shadefinder