I got up 1 or 2 Hours before we had to be ready to go. This was the day of the Laser Tag game with Soph.
After I forced myself to get out of my Bed I walked over to Sophie sleeping in the other Room. She's quite a heavy and long sleeper. I woke her up,  so we would have enough time to really wake up and get ready just to be greeted by a really upset face as soon as she saw me. She looked at me with those sleepy eyes, almost in anger, and asked why I was gone in the middle of the night and told me that it really upset her that I left.
I didn't know how to properly react but to just lay myself down next to her and apologize. Why would she be so angry at me in the first place? Did she really want me to stay with her all cuddled up on the Couch? And if so, why? I thought she didn't like girls? We started talking about deep stuff again and I don't really know how and why but I ended up like overdramatically proposing to her just for fun purposes but she looked at me dead serious and said something like: "Yeah, of course, I would? Why not?"
Due to all of this new information and all the stuff, she told me about during this weekend I was severely confused. She always INSISTED on being as straight as a mf Ruler and there we were having all of these gay moments together and I didn't know what to believe in anymore. It didn't bother me tho, in fact, I really liked it. After some more talks about interesting things, we ended up discussing whether she was cute or not again. And I kid you not when I say this "Yes you are", "No, I'm not" thing actually went on for like 10 Minutes. While talking I caught her looking at my lips quite excessively from time to time which just confused me even more. After some time I really started thinking about kissing her to make her unable to speak up against my Arguments and of course because she was staring at my lips that obviously but again I wasn't able to know what was going on in her Mind and I didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable. Sometimes, when I think back to that moment I catch myself asking what would have happened...
After our little discussion, we both went to that comfortable silence for a minute and I was actually in the perfect Position to kiss her. My Heart
yelled at me to do it while my mind was just confused. But as you know, I am a heart over the head person so I actually told myself just to do it.
For a brief moment, I actually had her Face in one of my hands and we both held eye contact...
But guess what.
The Doorbell Rang. It was Jake, being 30 Minutes early, as always. You might tell how frustrating that was. And this really won't be the only time one of the boys ruins my chances, it really won't...