~A week after the crash~

Phil's POV

"Phil!" My mum's voice echoes from the kitchen below. I hear footsteps coming up the stairs, followed by my door opening. "Dinner is ready." I nod my head, but don't hear her leave. "Still no reply?"

I blink back tears as I stare down at the last text I sent Y/N, which was almost a week ago now.

"She's fine, Phil. She's probably just busy, that's all."

I nod, but it doesn't make anything better. Y/N is never too busy for me.

I turn my phone off and chuck it onto the bed, then go downstairs for dinner.

~27th, March 2006~

"Hello, I'm Phil..."

I try my best to introduce myself without thinking about Y/N.

Of course, I don't succeed and as soon as I say goodbye, stop recording and upload the video, I curl up under my covers and cry into my pillow until my pillow is soaked and I feel as if I've run out of tears.

~20th October, 2009~

I stare at the boy sitting next to me with whiskers drawn on his face with a Sharpie, just like me.

In the short amount of time I've known him, I've learned a lot about him. I've also come to realise how much he reminds me of  Y/N.

"You okay?"

I snap out of thought, and turn to face him.

"Yeah, Dan, I'm fine. Let's just get on with the video."

~23rd July, 2012~

Excitement runs through me as I enter my new flat.

I'm in London. Which means I might meet Y/N.

Dan is complaining about having no WIFI. I honestly don't know how he's going to survive without watching that Youtuber he's always talking about.

"Ugh," Dan groans. "ThatWeirdo is supposed to be releasing a new song today!" ThatWeirdo is the Youtuber Dan is obsessed with.

Although Dan says she (yes, they're a she) is amazing, I can never be bothered to check any of her videos or listen to any of her songs, which Dan calls me crazy for.

I always lie and say I have to something else, or that I was going to but got caught up with something else.

But the real reason is I just couldn't care less. The only voice I want to hear and the only face I want to see belongs to Y/N. Not some Youtuber that everyone seems to love.

~7th June, 2016~

As I stare up at possibly the best place in the world, NASA, I can't help but think how much Y/N would love to be here.

This would've been the perfect place to take her to, but of course, life got in the way, and who knows what she's doing at the moment.

~30 January, 2017~

"Make a wish, Phil. And make it good, maybe thirty is your lucky number."

As I blow out the candles, I make the same wish I always make.

To be back with Y/N.

~2nd February, 2017~

"PJ, we just got home, and you want to drag us away from it?"

"Please. This is my best friend, and you need to meet her. Pretty much all your fans want you to collab with her. And I think Dan would love to meet her."

"Why?"

"It's ThatWeirdo. But don't tell him, it's a surprise."

I sigh. "Fine. I'll go tell Dan now. Are you going to pick us up?"

"Yeah. See you tomorrow."

He hangs up, and I groan.

Don't be so selfish, I tell myself. This is PJ's best friend. Besides, maybe Y/N will be there...

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A/N

I know Dan and Phil were, and still are (I think), away on that date (and probably on a date 😉... wrong book. I'M SUPPOSED TO BE SHIPPING YOU AND PHIL HERE, DAMMIT!) but in this book they're going to come home a little bit early.