Everyone is different. I thought I should tell you exactly how OCD effects me.

I have to have things straight and in alphabetical order, there are exceptions to this namely books because size. I like multiples of 3. That is all I think of off the top of my head.

There are some other things. My floor can't be vacuumed, I don't know if I am afraid there might be something on the floor I need or if I don't want things moved.My blankets can not be  moved I have six all with their own spot.  If  let's say someone  put my top blanket on the floor. I would go into complete panic mode, my heart would race, my stomach would tighten, my back would arch ,my arms and legs would not be able to stay still, and the only thing going through my head would be "fix it, fix it, fix it" until I put the blanket back. But I can handle it if I do it, because I know exactly what happened to the blanket, why it was moved, and that it will be put back where it goes. I have 5 stacks of CDs and CD cases in my room (all alphabetized) one is stuff from the library, one is my favorite CDs, one is the I don't listen to that often all in their cases, one is the empty cases from my favorite CDs, and the other is my favorite singer's CDs cases. If someone moved o e of these I would go into complete panic mode partly because of organization and partly because of straightness. I have a problem with people feeding my rats, I think some thing is going to happen like they'll get sick or injured and I panic at the thought I can't stay overnight anywhere because of it.

I know that these are crazy things to freak out about but I can't stop myself. I know my blanket is fine and can be put on the floor, but I can't mentality handle it. I know no one is going to poison my rats but I can't control the thoughts or fears.

  It's really annoying panicking about something I know there's nothing wrong with. And I know it's not necessary but I can't shut it off. I know it's dumb and I have other things I need to do but I can't, whatever I'm doing is more important, even when it's not.

I hate having to do something, I don't have to do, but I HAVE to do.

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