(TW:
SPOILERS HEAVILY
Mentions of surgery
Mentions of ab/sive relationships)

My head races. It is a average thursday nigth, i just got off my second job.

I go into my appartment and sit on my bed.

Shortly after another key opens the door.

"WE HAVE ARRIVED" Natsu yells happily. Bast is less loud. Maybe because she practises volume control. Maybe because she forgot Alex first action at home is turning of his hear aids.

She happily runs inside, dragging her mermaid girlfriends arm. Bast doesnt mind. Natsu wasnt gripping hard.

Alex lays on his bed. His shoes are off, otherwise everythings coverd. Today he wears no turtleneck but a thick scarf.

"Good evening". The mermaid walked over, a mild accent dedectable in her soft voice.

"Hello Bast." His voice sounds sligthly raspy and tired.

"How did today go?"

"Fine as always."

"You dont look fine. Like, less then usual."

Alex looked at her like a fish.

"Wait thats sounds quite mean. I mean this with all the love in my heart but you... you look like you need a makeover."

"Huh?"

"You look like you are going through things. Come, tell me abbout it"

"Fine. I am kind of unhappy."

"I can tell."

"I kind of wish I had a relationship."

"But why did you reject that nice guy then?"

"I didnt want to be disruptive to our plans."

"What the heck. Alex. You are not disruptive in getting a date."

"We had a mission tho"

"Which most of us did while in a relationship. Heck, one of the first things I learned abbout Porter is that he misses his girlfriend."

"Still."

"I understand how you feel. I know you always wanted a happy relationship."

"Its alrigth."

"Its not. I know its not. You are even worse mentally then usually and sulk even more."

He whisperd under his breath "cause all of you got what you wanted and I got nothing."

"How so?"

"I just want to life a calm life, date someone, maybe get a job less. Nothing unusual."

"Why?"
She offers him a hug.

He hugs her, sobbing into her shoulder.

"Because of everything. Nothing was ever calm. I always had to be prepeared for which horror is next. I never could just be a child. I always had to know what would happen next. No matter how gruesome. I had to always assume the worst. I still have to. I cant for once be calm. Nothing can ever be calm. Its always the storm."

Bast pats his head. "It will soon be calm. Soon you will be happy. I promise its your turn soon. Really."

"Really?"

"Really. Come, lets get to Natsu."

Natsu didnt mind beeing alone as she has sorted the pastries. Natsu loves sorting pastries.