This is something I just wrote down 'cause i had to, so it's not that great...it's more like I'm venting things out...trust me, after a certain point I was so mad, that I didn't care about it being a poem anymore.
The whole time, I was forcing myself to write it down, due to the mix of emotions and the lack of inspiration I have these days to write, So it's seriously pathetic....I only like 1 paragraph in this, for that's the only one that actually came from my heart, you know, the only words I felt as I wrote it down...I'll update this poem in future....but for now...
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Been years, and I came back
All you could do was sit and laugh
Hugs followed by happiness
Not knowing where this would go.

But things turned around,
After the 'viva', I was alone,
Sat beside someone I don't know,
You looked happy with your so-called friend.

But I have to thank you,
For making me discover a free spirit,
Who was just like me,
Someone who didn't judge ,
Like others did,
Even though I didn't last long,
But there was a moment of realisation.

Met you in the corridors,
With a new-found hope,
Took me a year to,
be-friend you again.

Then followed a ritual,
Of switching seats and secrets,
Thinking we were inseparable,
Being there for a loner didn't seem so bad after all.

But I have to thank you,
For giving me a ray of hope,
For letting me experience,
A taste of true friendship and trust,
Making me feel important.

Found someone then you did,
Opposites attract or so they say,
Magnets loose their force within time,
Good things never last forever.

Then followed talks,
I could feel the balance leaning,
Trying to keep it steady with all my strength,
Little did I know, that you weren't trying.

But I have to thank you,
For making me feel something I never did,
I didn't know what it was,
For the stab in the heart,
With a blade,
Was never familiar.

Took me a year to make it all right again,
I didn't know when this happened,
But a few days later a change took over you,
Going around laughing, leaving me with my books.

Returning when you felt lonely,
Treating me like a nobody,
Pretending I didn't see,
Little did I know what you were doing to me.

But I have to thank you,
To make me laugh and cry,
The feeling I never thought existed,
Never thought I'd have to wear a mask,
As the blade slowly went deeper.
You couldn't differentiate the smiles,
But, yes, you're still a great friend.

Thought spoken words didn't get in your head.
So, I wrote it down that day,
Yet, you kept trying,
Expecting forgiveness.

Remember that day?
When you said you didn't even try?
Even then you're hopes were high,
Your luck I'm naive!

But I have to thank you,
To get me out of my comfort zone,
Opening my eyes,
Realising not everyone's the same after all,
But don't worry,
As long as I'm naive,
Expect me by you're side.

The white lies, dramatic displays,
Sweet-talks poisoning my brain,
That oh so clever mind of yours,
Never thought could create such chaos.

Thinking about it made me cry,
Call me weak, I don't care
Or so I thought to convince myself,
When deep down, I did.

But I have to thank you,
For I would've never changed,
If you hadn't interfered,
In my lovely little place, I once enjoyed.

World closed,
Things got tough,
Nothing changed,
Little did I know about the surprises that awaited.

I could feel my veins,
Singing to the melodies,
The smiles they brought,
I think, I can finally breathe.

Mean, am I now?
When did what I say ever matter?
Nope I'm definitely not like you.
Since martyrdom is not my style.

I'm doing just fine,
I know it's only temporary,
But even the temporary is temporary,
For if you don't change,
I'll make it permanent.

A tiny tip before I go,
Just don't go around,
And keep carrying the 'Miss Popular' title,
For 'A friend to all, is a friend to none.'
Or so I heard from a soul,
And guess what? It made me think of you.

And I have to thank her,
For making this year a memorable one,
For always being there for me,
She doesn't know I exist,
But she does know people like me do.
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FUN FACT: #1 this poem was sitting here for years and I didn't know it.
                        #2 The part from "World closed..." was added after I made the poem.
                        #3 It does not sound like a poem at all. 

Hope you enjoyed!