(Warning- Mentions of suicide and self harm.)

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"Why is he here?"

"What the fuck is he doing here?"

They were all in the basement parking lot of Taehyung's apartment building with Yoongi and Jimin casually sharing a warm greeting, Taehyung in the backseat of Yoongi's car trying to break open the locked door and Hoseok contemplating between run away and murder.

"Listen boys. It can really take me less than ten minutes to set you both straight but we're here for something else."  Hoseok exclaimed rubbing his temples. He could really use some coffee right now. Or maybe some alcohol.

"No! You're here for that I was just dragg- "  Yoongi stopped before Hosoek's glare could skin him alive. His boyfriend is scary when he is not his bubbly self  "Whatever let's get this over with."

"Jungkook is still sleeping. He was drunk out of his head last night. Man you should've seen. I had to sit through the horrific details of their sex description. Thrice. THRICE! This has got to end!" Jimin exclaimed with elaborate hand gestures and big eyes looking like Yoda.

"Yes let's- wait they've done it??? Aishh.. This is gonna be harder to solve than I thought it would."

All three of them go by the car and Jimin has a hard time controlling his laughter when he sees Taehyung's hands tied behind his back with the sleeves of a sweater.

"Hobi hyung what the fuck do you think you're doing? I told you I'll talk to him, just not now. You all should mind-mmmpphhh" a handkerchief was gagged in his mouth courtesy to Min Yoongi who only shrugged and proceeded to the building leaving the three behind.

"So Chim.. Umm can I call you that?"

"I mean nobody other than Suga has called me that but I wouldn't mind if you do. You must be really something else if you handled that rock for a decade." Jimin and Hoseok indulged in a casual conversation as if they were not dragging a gagged and tied up man in the middle.

They chose to take the stairs because they would not like to be reported for kidnapping or assault when people see them in the elevator, thank you very much.

"So jungkook got drunk and spilled all the deets about they're hanky panky.. Huh? Spill the tea!" Hosoek squeaked causing Taehyung's eyes to widen as he stopped struggling and looked at Jimin expectantly eyes screaming 'please say that's a lie'.

"Yep. Take a guess who topped?"

"Jungkook ofcourse. Is that even a question? This one here screams bottom."

"mmphhmm" taehyung widened eyes turned to Hosoek struggling to kick him while Jimin held him back.

"That's the twist, bro. They a switch."

"No way! This is some serious tea!! I bet Jungkook would have never let that out if he wasn't drunk shitless!"

"Yeah. Idiot even banged his head on the kitchen counter. Scared me for a moment there."  the wide eyed head snapped towards Jimin again, now with worry etched over the face completely.

"Chill. He was okay. Fucker deadass started giggling saying that reminded him of how he banged you against the headboard." it was Hoseok's turn to hold Taehyung while he tries to kick Jimin.

"I'm too old for this." Hoseok sighed.

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"Yoongi?"

"Wouldn't hurt you to give some respect kid. Let me in and keep the door open."

"Why what's hap-  Jimin? I thought you left?" Jimin shrugged but before the reply Jungkook was face first into the couch again, sleeping away his hangover.

Hoseok entered the apartment, dragged a chair out and made Taehyung sit on it, who was still struggling to open his hands. He silently dragged another chair and placed it in front of it. And then another pair facing each other besides it.

(arranging it somewhat like this)

Three curious pairs of eyes followed his moves while Jungkook had now started snoring.

Dusting his hands and placing one on his hips, he snapped fingers in front of Yoongi and Jimin he gestured them to sit facing each other while only one chair remained across from Taehyung, obviously for the sleeping boy.

Hoseok walked to the couch, stretching side to side, did a few lunges and when he was warmed up,  lifted his leg, kicking Jungkook on the bum with all his might.

The other, startled beyond belief yelped and fell down the couch "What the fuck is- Hoseok?"

He then glanced at the strange arrangement of chairs with lidded sleep-filled eyes "What cult are you performing in my house?"

Hoseok rolled his eyes and pointed towards Taehyung who finally met the others eyes, Jungkook's eyes widened at the sight of a gagged and restrained other. "Oh we're trying exorcism for his wierd behavior? That's actually a good idea." he piped in while exchanging a dirty look.

Taehyung started thrifting again, mumbling against the hanky in his mouth only to receive a kick on the shin by Yoongi.

"Go sit on the chair, you all need to talk."

"Can I go brush my teeth first. If I talk with my morning breath, you all might pass out. Ask him, I'm not lying."

Taehyung nodded casually. Jungkook made his way to the restroom and came back a nervous mess, as if he only just grasped the situation. Without a question he sat down across Taehyung and both made a guilty eye contact.

"Can't you like spit it out?" Jungkook pointed at the handkerchief in Taehyung's mouth.

Taehyung furrowed his brows and pushed his tongue against the material causing it to fall out. Yoongi chuckled and Jimin bit back his laughter. Hosoek's giggles rang through the room.

"Uh.. I'm a fool" taehyung mumbles

"Atleast we agree on something!" Jungkook rolled his eyes.

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me. We could have talked like real adults by ourselves and not sitting here in a circle to summon you if only you did not run away like every fucking time."

"Look at you blame-shifting. You acted like a jerk after we slept together for the first time! You acted like nothing happened between us! You left to sleep in your own room!"

"Wow. Nothing. Fucking nothing seems to go beyond you! You're a hypocrite!"

"Uh huh? How so?" taehyung challenged and Yoongi gulped seeing the usually calm boy loosing it. Both him and Jimin glanced at Hosoek silently begging him to let them get up but Hosoek's glare was scarier.

"You ran away when I acted like a good person after kissing you. You ran away when I tried confrontation. This time you ran away because I simply followed what we had decided to. Nothing seems to do for you. YOU JUST LOVE RUNNING AWAY!"

"You think I like that? I have loved for so long, you think I want to stay away?"

"Ever considered the fact that I may have loved you too?"

"Yes I did. I know you that much. And was going to confess to you the night after the crappy get-together. But you know what that made me realise?"

Hoseok made a face at the 'crappy get-together' while Jimin and Yoongi looked at each other awkwardly Jimin mouthing 'i don't wanna be here' and Yoongi mouthing 'me neither'.

"It made me realise that you are infact a Jimin in our dynamic. You will readily accept me not to hurt my feelings only to have you hurt them hundred times more later when you realize that you are infact not gay"  Jimin snapped his head towards Taehyung offended, while Yoongi let out a little smirk.

"Hey!" he said

"Shutup we're talking!" Jungkook and Taehyung said in unison.

"And that is bullshit! How can you assume that I would even think about breaking your heart? Have you never seen my panic when you cry?"

"You seem to have forgotten about your reaction when I came out to you. You broke my heart that day! How can you blame me for thinking that way? You acted like a homophobe!"

"I'm anything but. I was just scared ok. I have kind of known about your gay side since ever but always been scared of talking about it to you. I was glad Hoseok did, but I freaked out Okay? "

"Why?" taehyung merely whispered utterly confused

"Seokjin hyung."

"Oh" was the only word that made out of taehyung as everything seemed to fall in place about Jungkook's random outbursts whenever people would jokingly link the two.

Hoseok looked at the two and scratched his head "I'm confusion."

Taehyung took it upon himself as it was only fair to provide an explanation to the friend who desperately wanted them to reconcile.

"Back in junior year there was this guy. Kim Seokjin. He was a senior then. He was so cool and so funny and so so good looking I can't even. If there's one person I have considered an inch more handsome than Koo, then it was him. I've a picture of him engraved in my memories. Admitably, both of us admired him but me a little more than Koo."

Yoongi's scowl had now morphed into concern. Hoseok looked down at his young friend who was almost on the verge of tears while Jimin rested his hand on Jungkook's who had not lifted his gaze from the floor.

"He invited us to his house so many times to play video games and shit. He was so so.. ughhh.. I wanted to be like him. There was this one day I casually asked him if he had a girlfriend and he just panicked and asked me to leave. I didn't know what I did wrong. It was so wierd."

"After about a week he knocked at Koo's door saying if he could stay there a couple of days but refused to tell the reason and ofcourse we accepted, we adored him. When he was changing one day I happened to look at him and oh my god I wish I h-hadn't." Hoseok placed a comforting hand on his shoulder and the younger gulped.

"There were bruises, whips, cuts. I don't even w-want to. He waved me off saying he was bullied at school, which was believable because I myself had seen him getting bullied and he only had two friends, us."

"Three days later his parents came by Koo's house to take him with, and he looked so happy they did. Everything seemed to fall fine unless he just stopped showing up. Anywhere."

"We went by his house and his mother took us to his room. He was like a whole another person. So rude, so distant. We argued a little, more like me yelling at him for being thankless and how he only cared about himself blah blah. I am indeed a fool aren't I, Koo?" Taehyung looked teary eyed at the other. Jungkook vigorously shook his head.

"No baby we d-didn't know."

"No! Don't defend me on this. We know what happened."

"W-what happened?"  Hosoek shakily asked.

"Two days later, Seokjin was found hanging from the ceiling of his room." Taehyung chuckled as a tear slipped out of his eyes. The other three gasped "No drugs were involved, he was in his senses, no proper suicide note was found, just a little post-it saying he was tired and this was his choice. But guess what? There was a suicide letter. He e-mailed one to Koo."

Everyone wide eyed at the forementioned.
Jungkook got up and went to his room, walking out with his iPad rummaging through. There it was.

He kept the iPad in the centre for everyone's eyes while taehyung just shut his.

Jungkookie,

This is so out of the blue I know, but I feel like you are the perfect person to vent to.
I would just like to say a few things but I want to trust you enough to not share this with anyone.
This is my only wish. Let this be only for your eyes.

I. Am. Gay.

There it is! Something I've been dying to tell you and tae-tae. Get it?  Hahahaha. Cause I'm literally- okay not the time.

Anygay.. So you know already how my school did not take that quite well. And  turns out neither did my parents explaining why I crashed at your place. They asked me to get the fudge out of their house. Also why I had those bruises courtesy of me trying to hurt myself. I've always been pretty suicidal. Am I a crazy person? Haha I think so.

I'm not complaining tho.
They could've done so much worse. Atleast they left me on my own instead of trying to change me. But I knew mama loved me too much to let me go which was true considering how they came back and promised me to atleast try to get used to it. I thought it was about time my life falls into place.

But it was until I saw them crying in their room last week. Oh god I can't get that image out of my head. Me getting bullied for homosexuality is one thing but people pointing fingers at my mama and dada. Nope. Not gonna happen.

Hell I didn't even know dada had tear ducts and now suddenly he is pouring waterfalls! This is all my fault. But at the same time I can't help it. That is how I'm constructed.

This may sound stupid to you now but to me this is the only solution. I don't like being here, jungkookie. I hate this place. I can no longer force myself.

Almost a year ago I had made up my mind for something similar but then I found you both.
Oh I love you both so much. I love how brave you are, you inspire me. I was motivated to fight for myself when I saw you surviving on your own. But I think this is where my strength gives up.

And that adorable little lisper. I love him too. Tell that stanker to not blame himself, because I know he will. Whatever he said to me only made me smile how my existence means so much to you two. That adorable nose scrunch whenever he is mad.. Ahh.. Take my heart. Sometimes I want squish him and kiss that frown away.  In a totally homosexual way.

I would've loved it if he was gay but also at the same time I would never even in my dreams wish that upon him because he does not deserve this. Nobody deserves this.

You both are a reason I'm leaving with a smile. But I cannot stay.
I need to end Mama and Dada's embarrassment. I'm too selfish to stay. Please don't hate me, I wouldn't be able to live with that. Oh wait-

Hahaha
Too soon? Sorry.

I'm sure this will take few days for you to open and read because literally nobody emails you. If the cops try to look through your mails I've sent some forge mangas to trick them. They are pretty good. Read them.

Nobody will know I sent you this unless you tell them, and I hope you don't. (Tae-tae can be an exemption)

Love,
Worldwide handsome.

Jimin was the first one to break into little sniffs. Yoongi rushed to his side and rubbed his back to calm him down. Hoseok, despite being dejected by the letter gave a little smile at his boyfriend's actions, and proceeded to console Taehyung who had now surprisingly gathered himself together.
"Did you guys give the letter to the cops?" Jimin asked

"Surprisingly, they never searched for one, probably because his parents just broke down but we did report those bullies and got them suspended." Jungkook answered defeated.

On nights of low spirits they've cried way too much about this. There were no tears left.

"This does not explain why you asked us to stop." Taehyung spoke making everyone look at him. He only looked at Jungkook
"I understand that me asking you to forget everytime we kissed, hurt you. But why didn't you ask me to stop doing that instead of stopping what began altogether? I thought you didn't-"

"I know about myself that I would never be a Jimin, I would never drag it that far. But I couldn't help but think how you could be a Yoongi."

Yoongi, who was now back to his chair snapped his head at the other so fast his neck could have cracked. Jimin was only looking down knowing exactly what the other meant.
Hoseok however, smirked.

"I'm sitting right here-"

"Shutup we're talking." Jungkook and Taehyung said in unison before letting the former continue.

"W-what if I couldn't love you the way you wanted. Don't get me wrong, I am indeed very very sexually attracted to you. I mean I can't tell you what you sitting there with your hands tied at back and collarbones exposed out is doing to my dick-"

Hoseok took this as his cue to clear his throat. Taehyung looked down to hide his ears that were burning red.

"Ahem.. Sorry.. I meant that the reason is nowhere close to Jimin's. But that's the thing. I only want you, plus the sex ofcourse. That's what I've been saying even before having you. But I remember you telling me how you want much more than that."

"I'm sorry for thinking you would be a Jimin. But you have to know that even if you were, I would never be a Yoongi. I can't go a week without seeing you how could I break off with you forever? Lover or not, I just want you to be happy, with or without me."

"I guess our friendship means more to us than it did to these two." Jungkook concluded.

Bingo. Hoseok flicked at his hair with a wide smirk.

Jimin and Yoongi winced and looked at each other shamefully.
Yoongi was too busy pitying himself that he never looked at the matter maturely.
Jimin did feel guilty initially but always thought Yoongi took it too far. Both had some corrections to make.

"Well that was easy" Hoseok muttered to himself. "Oh would you look at that? It's time to clean all the doorknobs of our house. Yoon let's go. Chim y'wanna come over and talk about why you named this bitter old man Suga?"

"Only if he makes me an ice-cream cutlet" Jimin mumbled looking at Yoongi who smiled in return

"A what?"

"We have a lot to catch up on. Let's go." Yoongi smiled making Hoseok sigh contended.

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"Are you sure you wanna give love a try? I really will not be offended if you don't-"

"I don't wanna give love a chance Tae. I want you to give me a chance to do whatever I can to make this work. I really will. I've stayed away from you for way too long to risk that again."

"I love you, Koo" Taehyung rested his head on Jungkook's chest, who was standing by the shut door.

"Meh.. Miss me with that gay shit." jungkook teased

Taehyung gasped and pretended to kick the other in the groin making him flinch.

"Kiss me with that gay shit!"

Jungkook complied immediately grabbing the other's shoulders and kissing him passionately. They kissed and kissed until they ran out of breath.

Jungkook began trailing his down the other's jaw and then to the neck he had been eyeing for so long.

"Are you planning on untying me? My hands are kinda sore" Taehyung whispered tilting his head back as a moan escapes him.

"I'm planning something much better. Let's make more of your body parts sore. Would you like that?" Jungkook whispered against his lips.

"I think I would."

"Good. On your knees, now."

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