"Taetae my baby brother, my sweetypie, my coochie coochie coo... STOP THE GODDAMNED WHINING AND GO TO SLEEP OR IMMA THROW YOU OUT OF MY MOTHERFUCKIN HOUSE! " the sentence that started like fresh extracted honey ended like a honeybee sting, because Hoseok had had enough.

After about two weeks, Taehyung was totally regretting the idea of being the bigger person and trying to let go of his feelings for the friendship's sake. In his words 'it's murderous' to talk to jungkook without wanting to taste him again. And what did he do about it? What he always does. Avoiding the said boy then whining to any Tom Dick and Harry about how he wants to sit in jungkook's arms (sometimes on his cock, depending on how drunk he is.)

He had made the Min-Jung resident his refugee camp and was not planning on leaving it or stop whining about wanting to leave it and kiss his roommate. Although Hoseok was more than annoyed at this whining, Yoongi was afraid of seeing history repeat itself only a little worse.

"I-i guess I'll sleep t-then." taehyung said in a small voice and made his way to the couch. "Scary ass old man."

Hoseok sighed lying on his bed and turned to face Yoongi. "They're making such a big deal out of nothing. All he has to do is fucking confess."

Yoongi combed his fingers into the younger's hair making his eyes flutter shut. "Maybe they witnessed a friendship breaking because of a love confession and are just scared to have the same happen to them, Hobe." Hoseok opened his eyes and sighed. He had not thought of it this way.

"You told me Taehyung was planning to tell Jungkook everything about his feelings after the hook up with Laurance but now they have mutually decided to go back to not feel anything? In what world is that fair? And I can't help but blame myself and Chim for it."

"In Jimin's case it was a 50% your fault but in their case it was not. We will knock some sense into taekook."

"Stop making ship names Hobe, it's annoying."

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Taehung gazed at the zip lock bag on his lap with open whens as he sat on the lavender make shift couch bed. Sighing he reminisced the last time he had read one of these. It was the day he decided to tell Laurie that seeing him from now might not be possible because.... his fish drowned in the playground or something. He didn't have a reason but it wasn't like they both were dating.

Laurie had been nothing but generous and kind to him in all ways possible. He had lent him shoulder to cry on more than once. But a pact is a pact. Taehyung and jungkook had promised each other that they would instantly distance themselves from anyone who gives a bad vibe to other so that there's never bitterness amongst them.

While Taehyung had used his pact-card multiple times, jungkook only used it once. For Laurie that is. Taehyung had to follow it.

Although he did not expect it would go a little different than planned.

He didn't know how he ended up like this as he sat in his car outside Laurie's house after he just had sex with a boy for the first time. He just wanted to talk and Laurie did not. Hence they fucked.
After their session the other had asked to give a chance to be in a relationship with him.

He said he wanted to make him move on from jungkook without affecting their friendship. To Taehyung, it sounded like a great offer.

He opened the- when you're in love just as carefully as he always does.

"Namaste Tae-ji,

I Indianized the introduction because we love Indian food. And now you're in love. Does it feel like Indian food?

I may not be familiar with the concept of loving that way, but I do love a few 'things' and you ofcourse. So I just know how I would never do anything to have it gone.

I know, i know these letters are to comfort you and make you feel like you're not alone. But as I write this I had not expected my chest to hurt instead of swelling with pride. Suddenly why do I realize that it's me who's alone after all?

You. Do you have any idea what you are? When you love, you give. I know this because I've been a reciever. It kinda hurts that someone else is here to share that but hey, that's a 'me problem'.

I've came to realize that I may never really have that with anyone because you've raised the bar too high. Or maybe it's just Sabrina's genes. Who knows?

If I know you at all, you're reading this before you confess. See, don't worry, okay? You have all the right to let out whatever weighs your heart heavy by not worrying about 'what happens if'. You tend to do that a lot. Don't worry about the consequences. If you get rejected, come back to me, we'll drink it away. If you get accepted, come back to me, we'll drink to that.

Promise you'll not give him/her a back massage (that's only for me). Promise you'll run back every morning to make me coffee. Promise me you will call me whenever you're not feeling okay. Promise me you'll not love me less.

I don't know how I made this about me but I do know that nobody in this world will be stupid enough to not accept your love. Fuck! why am I tearing up?

Go for it ma boi!

Jai ho!
Namaste.

P.s- I love you

(I really wish I'm not dead when you read this because even if I'm a jealous bitch right now, i really want to be your best man) "

Taehyung traced an old tear stain on the letter with his finger having one of his own fall beside it. He couldn't move on from Jungkook without even letting him know. Koo was right. He does live in the 'what happens if'. Not anymore.

He got out of his car wiping his tears and rushed inside the little studio apartment. Without knocking he barged in, startling the tiny guy who was boiling some ramen for himself.

"Hyung? Did you forget something?"

"You've been nothing but a good friend to me. But I can't be anything other than a good friend to you. I can't be in a relationship knowing I love someone else. That's not fair to you. I also cannot try to move on from Koo without letting him know how I feel. That's not fair to him. I hope you understand that I cannot do this with you anymore."

Laurie smiled a smile that didn't reach his eyes neither did his cheeks turn rosy like they do everytime Taehyung talks to him. "Ofcourse I understand hyung. When do you plan to confess?"

"I need a few days atleast to gain some balls but I will very soon and-- oh god Laurie why are you crying?" Taehyung rushed towards the male and hugged him as the shorter guy burried his face in his chest.

"These are happy tears hyung. I'm so happy you'll finally do it. I wish you all the luck."

"Oh you're an angel! I'm so glad I shared my firsts with you. I mean it."

After sharing a bowl of ramen in silence Taehyung got up to leave while Laurie still sat at the small tae table.

"Hyung?" Laurie spoke up while looking at his index finger that was making patterns on the table. "If anything does not go the way you want it to. You can always come here. I'll be there."

Taehyung turned back as he stood by the door looking at the adorable boy who had something off about him now. "Why?"

"I'm a good person. That's why!" he looked up giving the million dollar smile and taehyung sighed contended, having finally seen it.

"That you are Laur, that you are."
And with that he left the apartment.

"Maybe because you're not the only one in love and Jungkook is not the only one oblivious."

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Taehyung sighed as he remembered the last sentence he had overheard Laurie say from inside. Not being loved back by someone you love is painful. He would never wish that on anyone.

And now sitting on his lap was the open when you miss me.

He has missed him all the time for the last two weeks and has repeatedly read this letter. It's kind of his only anchor at the moment. So he plugged in his airpods playing jungkook singing Winter bear on repeat and laid back to read the letter once again to sleep somehow.

Hello Tae-ssi

Missing me? huhuhuhu ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

I'm glad you realized how fucking boring your life is without me around. I'm amazing, aren't I? ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)

That reminds me of that one time I almost debuted as a K-pop idol and you were so jealous that you kept saying that having a korean woman call you handsome does not make you a K-pop star. Ha. Ha. Ha. So freaking jealous. ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯

That also reminds me how your aunt once said if she had met me in her days she might have been a Jeon. If I was into lopsided boobs, I would've been flattered. ಠ_ಠ

Which reminds me that I will not go to your house on Christmas if she comes. I'm not in the mood to have Mrs.Santa grab my crotch four years in a row. ( ‾ʖ̫‾)

That reminds me that I have not been able to go play baseball because I've lost my crotch pads. Find them or buy me new ones. [̲̅$̲̅(̲̅ ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°̲̅)̲̅$̲̅]

That reminds me, when the fuck are you returning my blue shirt. It's been 887 years. (╯ ͠° ͟ʖ ͡°)╯┻━┻

Oh that reminds me, I dropped a little ramen on your hanky and I wasn't in a mood to wash it so I wiped off all the dropped ramen with it. ( ͡ಥ ͜ʖ ͡ಥ)

That reminds me can we postpone the next horror day for about 38 years because, you see, my room demands rights to say the way it is. Thank you.
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Wait what was this letter about? Lemme check real quick.

Yeah so you miss me? Then come back home or call me what the fuck?
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)╭∩╮

Idiot. ( ✧≖ ͜ʖ≖)

Taehyung was long gone before the letter ended.

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"Listen up you whiny bitch! I came here for free scotch which we ran out of about an hour ago along with my patience. Now you'll go to your room and sleep and I will go to the other room and try to forget the detailed description of your sex."

"But i miss him. He is cute. Like a puppy. When he's angry, he's like a tiger. But still not scary. Like a baby tiger...yeah" jungkook giggled to himself and picked up to gulp down the leftover vodka they were drinking having finished the scotch and the wine.

"And you're so fucking drunk that I'm done with you. Go to your room now!" Jimin snatched the glass out of his hands and lifted up jungkook interlocking his elbow into his own, who just hung to it like beef on display.

"oKaY DaD"

"Fuck how much do you weigh you pig!"

"Maybe as much as an airplane. Weeee-woooo"

"Shutup!" Jimin lay him down on Taehyung's bed like he requested. When he was about to walk out to sleep on the couch, his eyes landed on jungkook's phone and a bulb lit up in his brain. He grabbed the phone and waved it in front of the sleeping boy's face to unlock it.

He then went to the contacts and to the names under the letter 'H'

"Hoseok! Found it!
The great Chim will take the matters into his own hands now." he announced loudly to no-one in particular.

"What's that squeaky noise. Get out and let me sleep!"

"Fucker. I'm doing this for Taehyung!"

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