The relaxing pitter patter of the clouds pouring like leaking faucets, melodious chirping of the birdies who had constructed their nests sneakily on the balcony of the abandoned adjacent apartment and the gentle burbling of the boiling soup on the stove were the only sounds that filled the room that evening.

But similar wasn't the case in jungkook's brain that was almost like a giant library where there is so much information that your head starts spinning. Where even the mildest whispers get amplified into enormous booms of a barrel drum. Where it's so silent, it's deafening.

He looked out the kitchen window as the raindrops collected themselves on the leaf of the tree on the roadside, turning the green slightly more vibrant, while absentmindedly stirring the soup in the pot. Only thing running in his mind were the activities of last night with Taehyung.

How thier tongues had danced together to the beats of their hearts, their legs tangled with each other like a braided rope, their hands intertwined like missing puzzle pieces that only longed to be put into place, severely dishevelled hair sprawled- one's on the pillow and the other's on the forehead of his roommate when he lay on top of him, thoracic skin that rubbed against the other to reimburse for the heat that was shed with their fabrics just a few moments prior.

Breathy whimpers and heavy exhales that came out of the other's lips still played in his ears like a broken record and the more he thought about it the more he found himself reliving the blissful moments. But also simultaneously got reminded of the moment how it ended, not on a very good note, that is.

He had promised himself he wouldn't slip again, no matter how addictive those soft pink lips were, no matter how much the lean long fingers filled provided warmth to the cheeks when they held them, no matter how demanding those bambi brown eyes were in the moment, he had promised himself he wouldn't slip again. But guess what? He did.

He was angry at himself maybe, or maybe the beautiful human he lives with but all he knew that something in the synapes of his neural endings short circuited when he heard the words that were once his own idea but now he loathed with every single fibre of his body.

He had given everything of himself in the kiss like he always does. Put forth his vulnerability in front of the other like he always does. Let himself be carried away with the waves of want and need, love and lust, demand and surrender all at once like he always does. And the other just shattered his glass heart with his wrecking ball of repeating words, like he always does.

Jungkook's always kinda been proud for how he handles situations. How there are very countable moments when his anger gets the best of him. He wanted to snap, maybe punch the other, maybe cry in his lap, maybe ask him why he keeps doing this if he doesn't want it, if wants to "forget it". But he was better than to loose his cool once he's already faced at the horror of a trailer for having to live without the other. So he didn't snap, but he clearly made it evident that he also wouldn't let this pass everytime.

When the dreaded words left the mouth of Taehyung after jungkook had reluctantly pulled away from their steamy make out session, he did give the other a ckear look of hurt and disbelief before snatching his shirt and walking out of the other's room. He heard his name being called and a few knocks on his doors before it all went to how jungkook's brain is now, dead silent.

Taehyung had played the "wake up music". They had their breakfast and lunch together. It was all how it was supposed to be. Accept for the lack of conversation. It's like now that they regretted knowing how each others lips tasted they kind of decided to punish the unfortunate words that used beguile their lives.

Here they were now preparing to host a little get together for their close friends with the closest of them all not even looking eye to eye.

"Hyung you can bring any kind of alcohol accept tequila!" Jungkook eyed as taehyung walked across the living room setting down the big bowl of chips on the table while the phone was held between his shoulder and ear, neck tilting to an angle that looks kinda painful. "Because Koo doesn't drink tequila. How hard is this to understand... Ugghh.. Yeah see you. Bye."
His eyes never leaving the site of his roommate even when it locked with the other's. Taehyung walked towards the kitchen fiddling his phone in his hands to hide the fact he was nervous in front of the one person he has always been comfortable around.

"Koo, I think the soup is ready, you can turn off the stove now."

"Huh? Oh yeah."

"Listen about yesterday.."

"If you ask me to forget about it then I better stop you because to be honest I'm not gonna keep my cool this time."

"I know I know.. It's all my fault. But it's all because I -"

Interrupted by the fucking doorbell again.

"-I wanted to ask if it's OK to break this fucking doorbell "

Jungkook chuckled and proceeded to open the door.
"What took you so long to open the damn door? I saw this big mouse right outside your door and he was sniffing my shoes. I almost peed my pants! Good thing I kicked the nasty rat real nice!!" the beautiful man with plum lips and parted blonde hair entered the apartment and hugged jungkook inclining himself upwards slightly to make up for the little hieght difference. Then moved ahead to hug taehyung but stopped when he saw the other sprinting towards him with eyes as big as dart boards almost looking like he saw a ghost.

On instinct the other clenched his hand to form little fists and held them in front of his chest to appear brave but also quickly hid behind jungkook's back because taehyung looks like a thousand year old wicked witch while running like that.

"Mr. Smores!!!" Taehyung shouted as he ran.

"Umm.. No? Mr. Jimin." He uttered still holding up the fists as he peeked from behind jungkook.

"I'm gonna bury you alive if you killed Mr. Smores with your fucking kick." Taehyung ran past both the boys and out of the apartment slamming the door with a loud bang unintentionally.

"Who the fuck is Mr. Smores?"

"Tae's hamster. Didn't you see the poster about a missing fucker with money rewards to the finder outside the building?"

"So you're in love with this crazy old lady trapped in a gorgeous man's body?"

"Hey! Hush! keep it down! And I think it's adorable how he loves that annoying rodent so much in just a few months imagine if he loved me back! Aaah. That'd be goooood" jungkook whisper yelled looking distantly as if in a dreamland placing a hand on his chest with an almost sinical grin on his face.

"Oh my bad. You're the crazy old lady trapped in a gorgeous man's body."

"Shutup. What you got in the little bag? "

"Tacos."

"Awesome. Make yourself comfortable. Hosoek's bringing drinks."

Just then the door opened revealing a panting taehyung who entered and put both his hands on the knees as he bent down to compensate for the lack of air. "It was just a rat. Gotta complain about it. Turns out your kick couldn't even kill a rat."

"Hey! I didn't use my full force. Just- just go and cook or something. I'm scared of you right now."

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"So you're telling me, that you saved the entire college building from the fire and carried jungkook, who probably weighs a quantel, on your back because he fainted seeing the fire?" Hosoek blurted at Jimin's story widening his eyes as he sipped his cranberry vodka from the straw but making a face where it seemed as if the straw was sucking juice out of him.

"I call bullshit!" Yoongi stuffed his mouth with another nugget as he rolled his eyes at Jimin who had a distasteful expression towards the elder which was debatable if it was from the disgust of his sloppy eating or offence taken from his blunt statements.

Jimin was jungkook's closest friend after taehyung having met in college and shared almost all their classes which is why he saved the other from literally a small paper that was accidentally set on fire (jungkook just happens to faint at all kinds of fire hazards, even if it is as small a paper) and also got recruited in the same company. He became friends with taehyung because jungkook lived with him in college (and now) and they always had lunch together.
Hoseok and yoongi (or yoonsoek as they call themselves) are taehyung's friends from work and had gotten close to jungkook because of their shared interest in football leading to a number of outings together for the same.

But today was different as it was the first time for jungkook's friend to meet taehyung's friends and so far this was not turning out to be a good idea because although Hoseok was as friendly as ever, yoongi was unreasonably hostile to jimin and the other wasn't as warm as he usually is too.

"Babe!"

"Just being honest, but okay."

"There's a fine line between honesty and being rude, mister."

"Ahan? Teach me shorty! "

"Ok enough! Yoonie hyung what's up with you? You're never rude to anyone!" Taehyung finally butted in having enough of the elder's foul language.

Yoongi just shrugged and continue gulping his vodka.

"I'm not even surprised." Jimin mumbled under his breath mostly to himself but much to his dismay hosoek heard it.

"Excuse me?" he couldn't help but inquire.

"Nothing. I said I didn't know cranberry vodka tasted this good."

"No you did not. Yoon, am I missing something here?"

"No, honey he's not important enough to be talked about."

"Jimin could you elaborate please since you're the more civil one I see here?"

"It's not my place to tell hoseok. It was a decade ago, hence I was trying to act decent about but guess Suga here is still the immature teenager he used to be."

"DON'T FUCKING CALL ME THAT!!"

Everyone was left with their jaws hanging seeing yoongi's sudden outburst since he's always calm, never the one to talk first and definitely never the one to yell. Everyone except Jimin who didn't even flinch and looked like he expected the blow off.

"Yoon please sit down. Tell me, tell me anything just fill me in. I feel clueless. Are you guys sour exes or something?"

"I'd never date a bitch like him."

"Wasn't what you said back then."

"Okay! Jimin, buddy please stop with this maze and tell us the whole story here. If it's really that much in the past we better be mature about it."

"You know what, if it is an embarrassment, it is for me. Not for you Suga. I don't get why you're hesitant."

"Yoon. Just speak up already. I'm loosing brain cells here."

"Fine! " Yoongi sighed already wanting this to get this over with. "Let's go home I'll tell you everything."

"When you were okay behaving like an ill mannered brat right in front of everyone I think it'll also be okay for everyone to hear the reason behind it. "
"This guy here, he's the one that was in all of the childhood pictures that my mom was showing you."

Hoseok looked a little confused before gaping in realization - "Oh..ohhhh... Chim? Is that right? "

"Yep. Me" jimin raises a hand in fake enthusiasm.

"How'd you go from co-starring in every damn childhood picture to cursing each other's existence? "

"Hobi hyung, How about you let yoonie hyung finish?"

"Chim and I had been friends for as long as I remember. We used to stay together like all the fucking time. When dad fell passed away it was horrible and he's seen me in worst but the only good thing that i came out with from that ordeal was the fact that after having to skip school for a year to have my family get back to the feet, me and Chim were now in the same class and the very very few hours that we used to stay apart in different classes now didn't exist too." yoongi chuckled bitterly massaging his temples with his fingers closing his eyes.

Jimin on the other hand had glistening eyes with fidgeting fingers on his lap as if the very mention of the reminiscence is a gateway to something he was tugging away behind the facade of acting cold.

"I, just like the foolish person I was, fell in love with him. He didn't. End of story, thank you for listening."

"I tried Suga. I tried very very hard to."

"Save it Chim, I've heard it, what? About a million times."

"So like, you're mad because he couldn't return your feelings?" Hoseok butted in quietly.

"You know me more than that, hobe. I'm not that stupid. The thing that ticked me off then and ticks me off now is that when I confessed to him, he said yes. This bitch never said a word about "trying to love me". Whenever I kissed him, he kissed me back. Whenever I told him I loved him, he shameless said he loved me back! Oh what a fool I made of myself and not for days, for weeks or months. For one goddamned year. The day i met you at the fucking club, hobe, and was drunk outta my head was the day I got dumped after a year of poor poor Chim 'trying to fall in love with me'. BULLSHIT! My blood still boils whenever I see his pictures with these two. You were my first love and my first heartbreak and I'm sorry that even though I've found the guy I'm gonna marry I cannot forgive the best friend who stomped over my heart! "

"I get that you were hurt Suga. I begged on my knees for your forgiveness and for what? For not falling in love with you? We were teenagers for heaven's sake! Just think about it. You were my only one friend! My everything but a lover! When you confessed to me i said yes because I was scared that I would loose you and don't you dare give me the crap that you would have still been my friend because we both know that's not true. Then every goddamned time you said that you love me I said it back because I DID LOVE YOU! I did not lie!! The only difference was the kind of love I had for you was that of a best friend!! Okay? Sue me! You're gay!!! I'm not!! I tried!! FUCKING HELL I TRIED WITH EVERYTHING I HAD IN ME!!"

He is practically panting anger now "In the one year that I was screwing with my own head trying to feel something sexual for a boy when I'm not the slightest gay, did I cheat on you? DID I? NO SUGA I DIDN'T! That only shows how much i tried!! And the one day when I mustered up the courage to talk to you, you punched me black and blue without even listening to what I had to say. I'm the fool here y'know expecting that my best friend of years and years would understand me. TRUTH IS, MIN YOONGI, I DID NOT BREAK YOUR HEART. YOU BROKE MINE!!" And with that a panting Jimin with tears in his eyes rushed out of the door having everyone's gaze fixed at it, only to return 5 seconds later.

"Forgot my keys. " he mumbled with a plum lipped pout and walked out again slamming the door shut.