Something was different this morning.
A shift;
A sensation of confusion and anxiety and sorrow all at once.
I wonder why this rush came to be.
Seems I was fine when I woke up
Then the minute I reached the school grounds,
Something was different;
Off;
Strange and it rested within my mood.
I put headphones in and was not social.
You seemed to pick up on this and even asked me what was wrong,
But how are you to know when I don't even know what is wrong?
I was cheered up most of the day it seems,
But then I heard of our dear friends.
Oh yes, the goals of our group,
I shipped them so much and come to find out their beautiful blossomed garden of romance had mostly died and within it remained one rose; still alive but full of thorns.
They broke up three weeks ago.
He had no time for her
Yet has all the time in the world for the girls he flirts with regularly now that he's single.
And she?
She's still in love with him;
Plain as the sky is blue like her crystal tears that fall from her innocent eyes.
She's suffering; obvious to any onlooker,
But no one could tell it would be because of him.
The jerk that left her after almost two years;
The cruel hearted villain that lied to her and broke her heart.
Her smile has turned a beauty among the brine;
Beautiful yet slowly fading away for every thunderstorm she sheds from her eyes.
And that of my own relationship?
Affected by something so simple as somebody else's pain
Because part of what we love about each other
Is that we care too much.
He is close to her;
While I more distant and new in friendship.
He has access I don't have; to comfort her because she trusts him.
I don't blame her,
But what is this damn feeling churning in my chest; twisting my heart strings?
I feel down; anxiety filled; worried,
Yet I shouldn't have a reason to.
Why do I feel the way I do and what is this crooked feeling
As he comforts her?
I only pray him and I will not reside in the same boat as our unfortunate friends in the near future...

Why are feelings so confusing? *leh sigh*