At the start of this roller coaster of a year,
There was a friend of mine.
Him and I were wonderful,
Partners in crime!
I remember talking to him as I watched the New Years show with Ryan Secrest
I kept texting him on skype
But this year's beginning was...a bit rough.
Rocky road ice cream was the best way to describe the beginning.
Delicious and wonderful
But rough and rocky.
That friend and I fell away over terrible philosophical arguments.
He called my optimism blind
But I misread everything he said to somehow turn it that him and I were still friends.
Later in the year I come to find out that he talks crap behind my back everyday since I left that dreadful school.
The beginning of this year started with terrible depression
And inner obstacles I was proud to have overcome.
At the beginning of this year,
I still felt strong and felt like a superhero; that I could accomplish anything.
I still feel I can accomplish anything, but that doesn't make me a superhero and that's the difference I've learned.
The summer of this year,
I wasted my time trying tone the hero in someone else's story.
He called me his everything and took advantage of me and I let it go on for over three months.
Recently that person told me he could care less if I disappeared.
That is his form of repayment.
And now he is no longer someone in my life
Or someone I would call a friend.
I stopped being the hero in his story
Because I never was.
If there's anything I know,
You should care when your hero disappears.
After all,
I'd be devastated if Markiplier disappeared.
And that's another wonderful thing about this year: Markiplier.
I know I came into the fandom late
but he's been such a wonderful influence on my life and who I am
and I wouldn't take back discovering him for the world. :3
Over the summer of this year,
I fell in a deep pool of feelings for one of my friends
And chased endlessly after him
Only to never be truly noticed in the end.
But because of him;
I wrote my first poem ever in this book starting this book in general.
And now...now I'm starting the new year liking him again.
Funny how those things work, right?
In the fall of this year
And might I say no pun intended,
I began my fall with two cheaters
And resurfacing depression.
But I wasn't gonna start the new year of 2017
The way 2016 began.
Oh no,
I won't let myself start in the same damn hole of not having learned anything,
I have changed this year.
LET THE WHOLE WORLD HEAR!!
I HAVE CHANGED!!
...I have changed..
And suppose one of the most personal;
Best changes of this year that I'm not giving up on in 2017,
I'm giving my life to God.
I've always been Christian but fell away from what it means to be a Christian.
I missed a whole year with the God I love.
And I'm not missing my chance this year.
Thank you to everyone on here everyday
Who inspires me to be a better person;
To lead a better life
And be a better leader and influence.
The end of this year...
Is full of a very different kind of tear than I'm used to~
Tears of joy.