More old poetry...just felt like finally putting it back into my poetry book. Hope Ye guys enjoy and if anyone relates to the poem as I no longer can, I hope it will help them :)

Biting my tongue as I stand motionless.

I knew what had to be done for the better of you and me

but never expected for you to agree.

I thought for a moment that I might just be crazy.

That everything was ok for us.

And I read in between the lines

of your words and mine

And start to wonder if we were ever meant to be together at all.

But just the other day,

I saw love in the way

you kissed my lips and smiled with nothing more to say.

But perhaps you were hiding my concerns all along.

And I try to distract myself from the pain by listening to a million songs.

But our songs keep popping onto the radio:

'Hello' by Adele where I wound up dancing with you.

'Not Over You' by Gavin DeGraw; that makes me think of you now too.

Music hurts but it is a pleasuring pain.

And I simply let my eyes bring the rain.

I told you I was no good for you

and never did I think you'd agree with me.

Tell me what made it so easy?

You asked if I was ok

as the inside of me screamed 'NO WAY!!!!!!!'

But I simply bit my tongue and smiled.

'Of course, I promise I'll be ok and it'll only hurt for a little while.'

You hugged me goodbye and I acted like everything was cool.

But who am I kidding? Trying to put off the pain only makes me a fool.

I guess its my fault though for being a distraction

Because I constantly wanted a little more action

And now i'll be alright on the outside with your satisfaction guaranteed.

I wanted you to go focus on your bright future ahead

While I spend most of my days just lying in the bed.

I am slowly building back the walls I let down

For a simple time in this small simple town.

And i'll be fine.

After all, only the mind can hear this silent scream of mine.