So you're single once again
Well my friend, I know how you feel.
Cause when Joshua and I broke up,
It felt like a nightmare; only it was real.
The words we didn't ever want to hear
Ringing in what we wish were deaf ears.
Listening to the old songs that made us think of them
As the weather withers away what little is left of our emotional stem.
And we fell.
F
A
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   L
It sucks
And it hurts like a bitch to get over them.
To think I was just starting to move on;
That this emptiness inside me without you would be gone
But just when it seems I've found the soft, wet sand,
You always pull me into the riptide and back into the waves of our relationship as friends.
Course granted, I've always loved the ocean
And never truly stopped.
I don't know whether to say
What I want to say or need to say
I want my feelings for you to be left in the fray
And get off this rocky cliff I dared to climb
Even thought it was a world taller than my short stature.
But in this moment I can capture
Just exactly why I believe
Everything happens for a reason so please:
Hear me out when I say,
"It just wasn't meant to be."
She is not for you and even though you may not be for me,
I will STILL...be here for you...
For all the times I've wanted to give up
And say, "screw you!"...I always have a feeling that you might be worth my bloody time.
One last time to wait...
As long as it may take...
So please let yourself believe you can heal in your time
And don't give up on mine...

Author's note: Oh hi Dae-Jin! (From my book "I Am Error") what you say? Technology to make me a cyborg with no emotions?!? Hell yeah! I'm all for it! XD feelings are confusing but I'm going with the plan I should have listened to from day 1: Plan A. Wait. It. Out. And if you are reading this crush/person cause I don't know what to think of you anymore...if you don't see in time how much I care about you then you're blinder than a bat. I will be here if you need me...as always...bye for now.