It's funny how just seeing someone can change your whole day

For better,

or for worse. 

It's funny how pain can come back to your mind again

Even when you're already healed and over it

as if just looking at the scar can make it feel like it's being ripped open.

It's funny how you still look at me

as if contemplating whether you were wrong or not when you ditched our friendship in spite

Do you miss me?

Or would you rather I disappear?

It's funny how the smallest words can tear your world apart

The little words or gestures you do such as a head nod or a simple "Hello" can break my heart into two

as if my emotions are porcelain and just the sound of your voice can make me shatter.

It's funny how you make me feel so on edge

as if any second you could become a threat to the lives of the people around you

even though you deny it and get angry when people bring up your aggressive tendancies.

It's funny to me how I once cared about you so much

even though you never gave me the light of day

and now that everything is said and done and the girl you thought you loved left you, 

your world is falling apart just as mine did. 

It's funny to me how in reading this, you would think that I still have feelings for you

but in truth,

All I ever wanted was for you to hear me out so we could be friends like we used to be.

It's funny to me how I thought telling you everything I've been holding back since last year would help me move on,

but instead, the fact that you don't deserve to know how much I cared about you

is what is driving me to move on.