I still cannot understand
To this day
Why you love me
The way you do.
I cannot even fathom
Why this new guy likes me.
When I look in a mirror,
I see things neither of you see
Terrible things,
Awful things,
Memories that haunt me
My past that haunts,
My step mother's history that I'm scared to repeat.
Afraid of being compared to her.
I cannot see clearly what the right decision is.
I cannot clearly see what I want
What God wants.
Is he temptation as a test?
Or the next step in God's plan for me?
I don't want to leave you
I don't want you to leave me
Almost 9 months...and I fear I've forever ruined us...

Come a little closer to the mirror,
Both of you stuck in my mind
And you'll both see
I'm not as stable as I appear to be.