Dear A,
          I never called you my love. I barely had a crush on you. Well, at first. I love your smiles. I loved your stupid stupid jokes. But I never loved you. But now I miss your smiles. I miss your stupid stupid jokes. I miss seeing your eyes light up when I laugh at your jokes. I miss the way your hair flips up when you look up. I miss your hugs. I miss you calling out my name. And on those days, I'm sure I love you. But I never did. And I never will. Yes I miss you. So so much. But I have never loved you. I liked you and it went deeper than that. It went deeper than caring about you and trusting you. But if it was love, I never wanna fall in love again. Not with you. Not with anyone. So I tell myself. It was not love. Cause I believe true love won't lead to heartbreak. Love wouldn't have made you do what you did to me. I really wish that this wasn't my last goodbye but sadly I don't ever wanna look at you and keep going through what we've been through.

Goodbye my love,
Sandhya