Dear J,
            I 'loved' you. That was the word I used. It was more like an obsession. And obsession to be the hero of your life. The one that discovered the good part of you under that 'facade'. It was also an obsession to be hurt. For some reason, I craved the hurt. And you didn't hold back either. You hurt me. You left my heart in pieces. But I will never fully blame you. I gave you the power. But now I've gotten over you. And you want me back. I can tell with every look and every question. You've lost me forever now. I never loved you and never will. Whoever ends up with you, I wish she really finds a good part of you. I hope she finds the 'facade'. Cause I never did and it ruined me. I hope you conquer the world with the 'you' I really saw. The 'you' I desperately wanted to find. Maybe I was not able to, but maybe I wasn't mistaken and it's there. I still believe in you. But I won't be by your side anymore.

This is my final goodbye,
Sandhya