Dear J,
          i'm hoping that this will let me get over you. you were cruel seeking me out and targeting me knowing you'll only end up hurting me. thank you for giving me an experience which i surely will be grateful for in the future. but in the moment: i just miss you. all this might've been fake to you but to me it was all real. the hugs under the sunset, snuggling in your jacket loving your scent, crying into your shoulder, cupping your face and unable to stop smiling while staring into your eyes, having your arms around me knowing that the heart beating under my ears belongs to the one that i thought would never be the source of my pain. the laughs, the jokes, the feelings, the energy never felt fake to me and that's the part that hurts the most. i hope she makes you happy in the way I never did apparently. you definitely don't deserve it but i don't have it in me to wish the worst upon you.

wishing you the best,
Sandhya