dear j,
i cant send this to u. i know i can't. i'm better off without you. but it hurts me not to check up on you. it hurts to you didn't even bother to double text me. you said i meant that much to you. but you couldn't even send me another text. u still chose her over me. YOU SAID A LOT. in the end i didn't mean that much to you and it was all a lie wasn't it. every. damn. word. that came out of your mouth was a damn lie. "you're strong" "i believe in you" "i care about you" wow. a manipulative piece of shit is what you are. but i still care and i know if i send this to you i am disrespecting myself and reversing all the progress i've made in distancing myself for you. but i still care and i don't know when i will stop caring but i hope one day i will. but until i don't, the second you want me back i will come running but that's on me. idk where this is going but whatever. have a happy life bitch.

hate,
sam