Draco's POV

Blaise followed us and when the three of us got situated, she turned and put silencing charms on the door.

"Why the hell did you do that?!"

See? Told you she'd kill me later.

"What happened?" Blaise asked taking a step away from Pansy as she looked like she was about to explode.

"He kissed me." Pansy snapped.

Blaise looked at me. "I thought you guys didn't like each other in that way."

"We don't." I replied simply.

I know Pansy won't mind me being gay, especially since she pretty much already figured it out, but what about Blaise? Would he judge me? Tell my father?

"Explain." Pansy was seething now. I knew better than to argue with her when she's like this.

Another student had gotten her so mad one time, they ended up in the hospital wing for a week and had no recollection of what happened.

"Ok. Ok. I'm sorry, but I had to. We were being watched." Pansy seemed to freeze for a second.

"So... Is it true?" She asked.

"Is what true? Guys what am I missing?" Blaise asked. He grew frustrated as we didn't answer him.

I sighed. "Yeah. Everything you asked me. Is true." The room grew silent. No one moved.

Until Blaise broke it. "For crying out loud! What's true?!" He shouted.

"I'm gay!" I shouted back. I gasped as I clasped my hand over my mouth.

I didn't mean to blurt that out.

Blaise sighed. "Oh is that it? Merlin, you gave me a heart attack. I thought it was something bad."

I looked at him confused. "You don't care?"

Blaise shrugged. "Well seeing as I'm bi, of course I don't care." My mouth gaped open. Pansy whirled around and stared at him shocked.

"Since when?" Pansy asked.

"I don't know like, fourth year? I'm still in the closet though, that's why I never told you guys. I was worried that someone would tell my mom. She's a huge homophobe remember?" He said leaning against the wall.

Oh that's right. She is.

"Ok. And so the two of you didn't even consider telling me?! Your best friend!" Pansy was getting angry again.

"Look. Pans, I'm sorry. I was scared, but seeing that Draco's not straight, I figured I could tell you. I just didn't know before." He explained.

She turned to me. "And how long did you know?!" She pointed her finger at me.

"Since fourth year also, but I'm only in the closet because my dad's a death eater and if he were to ever find out I'd be a walking corpse!" I explained before she got upset.

She huffed. "Well. Now that's out of the way. Who was watching us?"

"Potter." I said simply.

"Damn. Good call. If he found out the whole school would know by dinner time." Blaise called. Pansy glared at him. "What? It's the truth. I mean unless the rumors are true and he's gay too, but that's just something you came up with." I looked away from him. "It is just a rumor, right?"
I didn't say anything. "What? No way. Potter's actually gay!"

"Oh shut up! I don't know for sure." I said.

"If he's gay, then why did you spread that rumor? That could very well destroy him. The school is already giving him crap about it, think what they'd do if they knew for a fact that it was true." He stated.

I looked up at him a glared. "Yes that's making me feel wonderful Blaise!" I spat.

"So, you do like him?" My gaze turned to Pansy.

I sighed. "Yeah. I do."

"You have a crush on the Harry Potter?" Blaise asked.

I nodded.

"Then why the hell did you kiss me in front of him?!" Pansy was back to screaming. "You might have just lost your chances with him because of your stupid mistake!"

"I know Pansy, that was the point!" I screamed. Her eyes softened as she looked at me. I took a seat on my bed and fiddled with my hands. "I didn't have a choice. We could never work out. He's the savior, I'm the son of a death eater. We couldn't possibly." I sighed. "I want to. There's nothing more that I want than to be open to him, but our destinies and our lives are just so different. We couldn't."

"That still doesn't explain why you kissed me. If you were trying to keep it a secret, all you had to do was say no, but you purposely kissed me. Potter had no clue." She stated sitting down next to me.

"Yesterday, after dinner. Remember how I left the Great Halls because I was getting overwhelmed and needed to step out?"

They both nodded their heads. "Well. I ran into Potter in the halls. I shouted at him and when he realized it was me, I couldn't help but to notice that he was checking me out." They said nothing, so I took it as a sign to continue. "I pointed it out to him and he got flushed and ran off. I knew then that maybe there was a possibility that he liked me back, but like I said, it could never happen."

"Why not?!" She screeched.

"Because of my father! Not to mention Voldemort! They could use that against the both of us!" Pansy looked down at her lap. "That's why I kissed you. I know I hurt him. I didn't want to, but now he thinks I definitely don't like him and maybe he can move on." My voice cracked slightly.

"So you crushed his heart." Blaise said gently.

"I know. I can't regret it enough, but it had to happen. He has to forget me. That's the only way he'll survive this war. I'd only be a weakness for him." I said honestly.

Pansy wrapped her arms around me. "I'm so sorry Draco!"

Blaise set his hand on my shoulder, with sad eyes he said. "We'll figure something out. Ok? For now. Let's go to dinner." He said gently. The three of us got up and left the room.

When we got there most people had already taken their seats.

The three of us moved to the Slytherin table and sat down. My gaze immediately went to the Gryffindor table. He wasn't there.

I saw Granger and Weasley, but no Harry.

Harry?! Since when do I call him that?
Oh yeah, since you decided to not only admit your crush, but destroy him in the process.

"I don't see him. Do you?" Blaise asked.

I shook my head and looked down at my plate. "I really did crush him, didn't I?" I asked them desperately.

"Yeah you did, but we'll figure it out." Pansy set her hand on my shoulder.