It's been a month since I wrote in here. I guess a lot has happened...

There was a scare that the Overlord was back! Us ninja knew that Zane's sacrifice got rid of that little bugger forever, but as I've mentioned before, I seem to live in a world where the majority of people are, let me put this lightly, as dumb as rocks. Not that rocks are dumb, because that's part of Cole's element and Cole isn't stupid. Cole can actually be fairly intelligent when he tries...

          Argh, sorry for getting off topic. Focus. Anyway, so some hackers apparently thought it would be a good idea to imprint a virus into the main Ninjago computer network that simulates the Digital Overlord. It turned out to just be a couple of 30-year-old losers that still live in their parents' basements who thought it would be a good prank, but the whole country went into panic! We finally tracked them down,  though they had several hard-coded firewalls.  Zane is a pretty good hacker himself.

        After that happened, I realized that I missed working with technology, so I rebuilt my Samurai Mech with several new upgrades! My major obligation is still as the Water Ninja, but I convinced Sensei that he can't force me to completely abandon being Samurai X. I got Jay on my side, but Wu still wasn't happy with the decision until Zane supported me as well. Playing favorites, eh? Now I spend lots of time in the workshop and it's very satisfying. I don't get bored anymore! But it doesn't leave me too much spare time to write stuff.

With Fake Overlord and my triumphant return to being the Samurai, life has been hectic. Not to mention the everyday drama that seems to constantly follow me! I didn't think life could get any weirder.

I was wrong.

I discovered the Fans.

So, I don't know how it is where you're from, but here in Ninjago, us ninja are a big deal. We've saved everyone several times over, not to mention my teammates are a bunch of good-looking teen boys. Lloyd is the most popular, though Kai pulls in a close second, and Cole not very far behind. I guess we're kind of like Ninjago's One Direction.

I've always known we're famous. I've seen posters, t-shirts, replica Gi, along with other merchandise. But the thing I didn't know was what a big following we have ONLINE.

I found Fanfiction. I have nothing against it, but when it's written about someone you know, or even worse, YOU, it's creepy. Scratch that, it's downright disturbing! Besides that, everybody has us Ninja all wrong.

       First of all, my brother, the lovely  Kai. Yes, he is a flirt. Yes, he is very caring. But when he gives a random girl his number after saving her, she's not going to become the love of his life! Sheesh! Kai is not romantic. At ALL. His temper means he has trouble forming close relationships. Another thing people have wrong about Kai is everyone thinks he is a player. My brother is the most loyal person I know, and if he truly loves someone, he will never betray them like the fanfictions portray. A few more things. Kai does not smoke or do drugs. Kai has only had one official girlfriend in his life, and that is Skylor. Kai gets angry about everything, and he isn't sweet. He won't ask someone if they like him. He'll aggressively flirt until either the two kiss or the receiver of his affection rudely turns him down.

       Second, Lloyd. Lloyd is not confident, or a ladies' man. DEFINITELY not a ladies' man, because I'm not even sure if he gets attracted to girls. I've seen him give Kai plenty of looks. Which reminds me, Greenflame. Some fanfictions are spot-on, others WAY off. But that's another topic. Back to my main rant.  My green friend doesn't flirt with random girls he meets at the candy store or the comics shop! He never even has time to go to places like that anymore! Lloyd is very focused on training. Similar to what I did with Kai, here is a list of more things that are inaccurately portrayed. Lloyd would never make out with someone in Seven Minutes in Heaven because any mention of love embarrasses him to no end. He's never even kissed anyone! Lloyd is not flirty or showoffish, like Kai. Instead, he is kind, outgoing, selfless, and still young (and innocent, if you know what I mean.) !

Zane. First of all, Zane would never leave Pixal. Just saying. Besides that, people mostly get him right. Zane's very respectful, a bit clueless at times, but sweet all the same. So, good job with him, at least!

       Everyone thinks Jay is like this fun, outgoing guy who will give his number to anyone he thinks is cute. Wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, WRONG! Jay might be funny and talkative, but he's also extremely shy and has a hard time approaching people. Once he does, you can't help but befriend him right away. But I think a lot of people think he's super hot...Jay is not hot. Sure, he's cute. REALLY cute. He has these bright blue eyes and tiny freckles on his cheeks, and when he blushes it sets both of those things off really well. And his skin is very soft and delicate. His hair gets messed up all the time but it works, y'know?

Ack, I'm getting sidetracked! What I was TRYING to say is, they have his looks wrong. Now for the personality. Jay is silly, sarcastic, and very funny. He's smart, smarter than people give him credit for, and he is always open to trying new things. He loves solving problems. Jay brags a lot, and talks about the most ridiculous things that happened to him (which have been proven true since his mom read us his childhood diary). I guess these things just don't come out enough in the fanfictions. People write him more like Cole. If Cole actually showed emotion.

 I hate reading Cole fanfictions. I don't know why, they just make me mad! Cole never, EVER, flirts with random girls. Or gives them his number. Or kisses them. As far as I can tell, he doesn't exactly like romance. Even though he could get any girl he wanted just by looking at her, Cole isn't like that. He doesn't take advantage of the fact he looks like a model! Cole really should have a girlfriend, but he doesn't. I guess part of it is that you will never, ever know Cole cares until he wants you to, and that can take forever. Maybe he'll drop hints, but Boulder Brain doesn't give compliments. Or signs of affection. Anything like that. This is where the fanfictions are wrong. Also, Cole doesn't kiss "roughly". What the heck?

Another thing. Why does everyone think the ninja, especially Kai and Cole, are...promiscuous? They DON'T DO STUFF LIKE THAT! Nobody has *blushing while writing this* s-e-x.

Lemons have scarred me for life.

And then we have the fanfiction portrayal of ME.

Excuse me while I cry, please.

I am not a player. I'm not a cheater. I'm not psycho. Do these people think I ENJOY being trapped in a "love triangle"? Do I LIKE being confused about my emotions every single day?

I don't slap people. I don't hurt people. I don't say mean things just to tear my friends down, because I love them! I am a real member of the ninja team, I go on missions with the rest of them, I can do things, I am not one of those perfect pretty mean girls who wears too much makeup and dumps people when something "better" comes along! I try so hard to stay above all the drama, just live my life like a normal girl, but I'm constantly being judged by all these people who don't even take the time to see things from my point of view.

I broke up with Jay almost two years ago and I still feel awful about it. He and I are BEST FRIENDS, I didn't use him. I didn't ask for Cole to be my perfect match! As for Cole, I don't even know what's going on with us anymore. We talk all the time. To clear things up, we're not dating. We never were.

I NEVER cheated on Jay with Cole. I had broken up with Jay before we even went to Borg Industries!

Some of the fanfiction writers have said that if I'm all about "Girl Power", then why am I always helping a team of five boys? Ahem, they're my FRIENDS. And in case you didn't notice, I've saved their butts more times than they've saved mine. And I have more facets to my personality than my drama with Jay and Cole and my sibling stuff with Kai. I'm not defined by them! I have my own interests, skills, friends, life.

I would never, ever hurt anyone else in the ninja team. They are my family, and I love them.

Sigh. Sorry for going all ballistic in this entry. I wanted to vent. It's not that important, anyway. Reading this, I even wonder if I should publish it. I got so angry! I also discovered some things about myself that I didn't know.

Let me just say, I can't keep having my emotions pent up. I have to talk to someone. Lloyd. Lloyd is a good choice. He gets it. Kind of.

I hope nobody I know ever reads this.

I shouldn't pay attention to that kind of stuff anyway. They've never met me! They're entitled to their own opinions!

GAAAAA.I'm going to go beat up some dummies in the training room. All of them. Maybe drown them.

I'm done.