changbin was really lost for words. he hated how hard felix clenched his own two fists, how his breathing was slow and visible. chest lifting up, then falling back down as the process continued for minutes. he didn't recognize the boy, which was odd to say since the lee felix was standing right in front of him.

he didn't recognize the eyes that stared him down, the negative aura that was more prominent than usual. he swore he felt felix was going to attack him any second, yet why was fear the only thing that was swarming the atmosphere.

who simply was this?

"felix..." changbin softly calls, the taller boy still has his eyes on changbin. the parallelism between a predator and felix was spot on, changbin didn't wasn't to display his shakiness. the idea of stepping back ran across his mind yet the action was never taken. "I don't need to fix you, it's okay to think...about me."

felix shakes his head, "it's not in the way that you think!" he grips his hair once again, letting out incoherent words that formed into sentences he couldn't quite catch. "changbin!" his hands fall down, he quickly walks over to stand in front of the boy. hands curled up as he wants to grab the older, yet he holds himself back. he can't hurt him. "binnie..." he now coos in a soft manner, "you have to help me, you need to help me."

"but we need to—"

"jisung would want this." he cuts off, head tilting as he brushes strands of hair behind changbin's ear. his fingers play with the ravenette's locks gently, "you want to make jisung happy right. you want to make me happy, right?"

"yeah...that is true." the older only avoids eye contact from the unstable boy, he looks to the ground having the urge to scratch his worries away. he feels a finger creep under his chin, it's felix lifting his face up in order for them to see each other. "felix..."

"it's such a strange feeling..." his smile is far from pure, "you've been making me feel strange." he laughs, hand sliding down to the side of changbin's neck. "pretty..."

"we...no." changbin shakes his head, "we—I! I can't give in felix, no, we can't be like this..."

the sharp action of felix's eyes widening, he chuckles. his chuckle forms into felix's laughter filling up the room. he backs away from changbin, pointing at him, "y—you're kidding me! you need to take responsibility!"

"I don't know how felix!"

"well you're not leaving this room until you do something about it!" he screams, felix's fingers wrap around his throat as he begins to strain it. "you're the reason why I'm feeling funny! I—I've only felt like this with jisung and you have to fix me! that's why you're here right?!"

"felix..."

"you have no words because I'm right!"

"no it's because we shouldn't commit to this intimacy!" he retorts, frustrated with the boy in front of him. "why! just, why me!"

"why you?" he takes a deep breath and smiles,
"oh binnie, with your kind and loving gestures, you're so...sweet." as felix sighs, "also...you might be the reason to why I haven't gone insane yet."