felix kicks the bottom of his bed, legs swinging as time passes by. he's waiting for the three knocks on his door, the alerting sound that tells him changbin is outside waiting for him. now it was quite odd that he craved the presence of changbin, the strong arms that wrapped around his petite body although he was taller. he felt secured, more of loved and appreciated. his desire for that feeling was increasing minute by minute due to changbin not being with him.

he felt, funny. when it came to thinking about changbin. he didn't know how to describe it, yet maybe he should tell the boy in order for them to figure it out together.

but as the sound of the clock ticking fills his ears, another sound does. the familiar three knocks that felix was yearning for. he springs up from his bed and turns the knob, there displays changbin with a small smile. "hey lix."

felix swore he felt his heart jolt, but he couldn't understand why. it was only changbin visiting again for a check up, why did his heart feel so attacked? "hi.." he allows the boy inside and right after they shut it. changbin places his school bag next to the door and finally sets his full attention on felix.

"how are you doing?"

felix shrugs, "i don't know."

"what do you mean?" changbin questions, that was an answer he wasnt really pleased with. "wanna talk about it? we can sit down, if you don't want to, we don't—."

"i wanna talk about it." felix cuts off almost immediately, changbin's eyes widen from the sudden statement. he backs off and lets the younger boy talk. "i feel funny."

"how so?" as changbin walks over to felix's bed, sitting down as he pats the empty space next to him. "come."

felix immediately obliges without any second thought. he sits next to changbin, hands formed into a tiny ball as he's unsure on how to create a specific explanation on how he feels. "ever since i was told jeongin was here, i snapped. but you made me calm."

changbin nods his head, only listening.

"i...appreciate that. a lot." felix's mind starts to run places they shouldn't, his heart was going mad. his breathing was slowly becoming unsteady, why was it so hard to say what he needed to say?

he felt desperate within the moment, but maybe he just couldn't form the words because he simply didn't know himself. his eyes widen, clutching onto his shirt with a hand he looks down.

why. is all he questions first. are you beating so fast?

he wasn't nervous, nor embarrassed. his heart beat was not at a normal pace and he knew nothing except jeongin was stressing him out.

"hey, felix?" changbin's voice interrupts his thoughts, he places a hand on the boy's back. rubbing him gently with an empathetic smile. "i'm here, don't worry. take your time with your words, don't rush it."

felix's throat goes dry within a flash, he looks up to make eye contact with changbin. to claim his heart was going mad wasn't good enough to explain these feelings. "b—binnie..." he whispers, the warm touch of the boy made him melt.

"yes?" is what he answers with, simple and sweet. felix doesn't say a word until he falls into the boy's chest, changbin immediately catching him. confused by the action.

the freckled face boy hides himself, changbin wraps his arms around him securing him in a gentle hold. "felix, what's up?" the boy doesn't answer once again, but as felix presses against him closer. changbin swore he could feel his heart beat going wild. "felix..."

"please.." felix finally responds, his voice pleads. "just stay with me...."