Sam's heavy eyes struggled to open. Last night had been crazy. Dean, Cas, Mary and himself had spent the whole night drinking and celebrating the New Year. Dean cooked up a storm while Mary told stories of when Dean was little and Sam told stories of when he was older, and when the New Year came around Dean mustered up the courage to kiss Cas and Sam gave his mum a peck on the cheek. But the rest of the night was just enjoying each other's company. 

Sam slowly dragged his body out of bed. His headache was practically killing him. He stumbled out and down the stairs for a coffee and a Panadol. Sam was almost to the kitchen when he fell over something. Sam completely woke up to catch himself before he smashed his head on the tiled floor. He turned around to see what he'd fallen over. There beneath his feet was a small archangel layered in blood, sweat and bruises lying on his side.

"Gabriel!" Sam gasped in shock as he crawled over to him. He pulled the angel over so he was facing upwards. Gabriel's lids fluttered open for a second before half smiling and closing his eyes again. "Guys! Get down here, It's Gabriel!" Sam yelled out into the bunker. Immediately, a door was open, Dean and Cas sprinted down the stairs with Mary cautiously following. Dean and Cas rushed over, kneeling down next to Gabriel.

"Sam get warm towels, Dean get water," Cas instructed the boys. Sam and Dean jumped from the floor before racing off into the bunker.

"Who is that?" Mary asked, slowly walking over to the weak archangel.

"This is Gabriel; He's supposed to be dead," Cas explained lifting Gabriel's head up.

"Okay, we have everything you asked for," Dean said as he and Sam ran back into the room. Cas lifted Gabriel's head up and placed the towels underneath before layering blanket's over and around him wrapping him up in a cocoon. Cas raised his hand just above Gabriel's forehead, hovering as his hand began to admit blue grace. He placed his hand upon Gabriel's forehead. Gabriel's eyes scrunched together before attempting to open.

"Cas? Is that you?" Gabriel asked, voice scratchy and weak.

"Yes, my brother," Cas said lifting his hand back up. Cas picked up the glass of water and helped it to Gabriel's lips for him to drink it. His eyes closed once again.

"So that's Gabriel, the archangel?" Mary asked still processing information.

"Well technically yes, but he's also the pagan Norse god Loki" Sam explained to his mother.

"Sam, may you help me get Gabriel to a spare room?" Cas asked

"Of course Cas," Sam replied putting his arms underneath Gabriel's back and legs for support before picking him up bridal style. Sam carefully walked down the hall, like any excessive movement may break the angel resting in his arms. Gabriel rolled his shoulders and opened his eyes slightly open.

"Samsquatch?" Gabriel whispered

"Yeah, it's me." Sam half smiled pushing the door open with his foot and carefully laying Gabriel down on the bed. "Get some rest. Cas will be back to check on you." Gabriel quickly grabbed Sam's wrist as he was about to leave. Sam looked back as concern laced his features.

"Thank you," Gabriel muttered and smiled before closing his eyes again. Sam looked at Gabriel sleeping, he looked so peaceful. Sam crouched next to the bed and gently pushed the stray hair from in front of his face. Cas walked in to see Sam admiring Gabriel.

"Oh, Sam. May you give Gabriel and I a minute?" Cas asked, eyes shooting between his brother and friend.

"Yeah, sure, of course," Sam shuffled out giving Cas a weak half smile.

Sam slowly walked back down the hall, every so often looking behind him, and into the lounge room where Dean saw him.

"How's the little sleeping angel?" Dean partially joked. Sam chuckled at his brother. 

"He's fine, but he might need to stay here a little while," Sam explained throwing himself onto the couch. The couch made a creak of disapproval. "I hope you're okay with that?"

"Why wouldn't I be?" Dean shot Sam a questioning gaze.

"you know... He killed you a whole bunch of times." Sam unwillingly pushed out

"Pfft, Sam that was ages ago. It's fine now, plus I don't even remember it" Dean sounded a lot more cool with it than Sam was.

"So any cases?" Sam asked changing the subject.

"Uh, yeah. we have a few exsanguinated victims or we can check out a murder where a guy had his heart ripped out. I'm thinking vampire and werewolf, something easy." Dean read from his newspaper. Sam laughed

"When is anything easy for us?" he rhetorically asked. Dean shrugged before standing up.

"Well let's check out that exsanguinated one," Dean proposed getting his keys and coat.

"Sure," Sam agreed following Dean. They were just about to head out the door when they heard a groan. Dean simply shrugged it off but Sam couldn't, he didn't know what came over him. He dropped everything he was holding and sprinted through the bunker leaping up the stairs and over furniture. Sam slammed open the door to see Cas struggling to calm the shaking Gabriel.

"Cas what's happening?" Sam squeaked in fear

"I...I... don't know," Cas staggered afraid of his brothers well being.  Sam rushed over to Gabriel and Dean quickly entered, completely out of breath. Sam crouched down and put his hand on Gabriel's cheek and began to stroke with his finger along the angel's soft face. Gabriel's shaking calmed almost immediately stopped.

"What was that?" Dean asked completely bewildered. Cas tilted his head. None of them knew what had just happened. Sam stood up and turned to Dean.

"How about you and Cas do that. I'll stay here with Gabriel." Sam suggested lightly running his fingertips along Gabriel's arm affectionately. Dean and Cas blushed at each other.

"Sure Sammy." Dean agreed, trying to wipe the smile and dirty thoughts from his mind. Cas walked over to a slightly dopey eyed Dean before snaking his arm around the angel before they strolled out in each other's arms. 

Sam turned back to Gabriel to see his golden eyes opening up. The angel gave a weary smile.

"Hey, there." Sam softly spoke.

The angel's cracked lips parted "I'm so hungry," he whispered. Sam stroked his pale and fragile skin. The angel's eyes closed not in pain but bliss.

"I'll be right back," Sam quietly told him before leaving the room,  eyes still busy looking at the angel.

Sam began to chop up some lettuce when he realized.

"Wait. This is Gabriel. He won't eat this." he thought out loud, his eyes scattering around the bunker's kitchen. Sam began to rummage through every cupboard and drawer for things that he could use to make it more edible for him. Sam grabbed a few boxes and packets of whatever and threw them on the counter.

"okay, we have Cookies, gummy worms, chocolate and... whatever this is," Sam noted to himself. Sam ripped open the packets and tossed it all in. "now for healthy-ish stuff" Sam continued to slice, grate, chop and tear till he was happy with his salad... well whatever it was. Sam trotted back to Gabe's room and pushed open the door.Gabriel wasn't asleep or lying down on his bed. He was sitting up and fiddling with his hair, he looked less pale like he'd slowly began to heal but he was far from healthy. "Good to see you up," Sam commented, coming closer. Gabriel looked up in surprise tearing him from his fiddling. Gabriel said nothing, he simply smiled at him. 

"Here's some 'salad', I guess" Sam held out the bowl to Gabriel. Gabriel looked into it and gave a light chuckle.

"Thanks, Sammy." Gabriel tried to say without croaking. Gabriel held it close and began wolfing it down. Sam stood there in shock at how much food Gabriel managed to fit in his mouth. Gabriel's eyes turned to Sam to see his expression. Gabriel had one more mouthful and he finished it. "What?" Gabriel asked just after finishing everything.

"Uh nothing, I just had no idea you could eat that much at a time," Sam explained said half smiling at his pathetic explanation, eyes scattering around the room out of nerves. Gabriel half smiled at Sam's pathetic-ness. Sam looked adorable, like a big puppy.

"Well, I have no gag reflex," Gabriel smirked before winking at the moose.

Sam let out an inhuman noise " I- I gotta go" he stammered out. He loved being with Gabriel but he never had any idea of what to say. He was never good at any of that stuff. Sam awkwardly backed out still looking and not realizing that he was lightly blushing and hoped Gabe wouldn't notice. 

Sam was too busy thinking of the angel in the spare room when he walked smack bang into Mary taking both of them to the floor.

"Oh my god, i'm so sorry mum. I wasn't looking where I was going." Sam quickly apologized getting up, then helping her up.

"You got that one from me," Mary joked. Sam just blushed harder.

"Can I ask you something?" Sam looked down and fiddled around with his fingers, looking nervous.

"Sure, anything," Mary said coming closer to Sam, placing her hand on his shoulder to try and comfort him. "You can always ask me anything." Sam attempted a smile, looking at his mother's reassuring face.

"Have you ever met someone, and that every time you see them your heart beats faster, your palms get sweaty and that everything they do, no matter how bad... is just... perfect." Sam tried to explain without the words getting stuck in his throat.

"I have. When I met your father. Why do you ask?" Mary gave a light chuckle and smile obviously thinking back to that day.

"But have they ever been so different and so... not the person you'd thought you'd ever, be with" Sam added, looking back down. Mary looked at her son in not exactly concern or pity or even worry just a mix of everything. Mary crossed her arms and tried to think, but that was all he needed. "It's fine, never mind." Sam quickly snapped, putting on a fake smile and quickly racing off.

Sam flung himself onto his bed. He just needed to be alone, to figure some things out. Things that made no sense to him. He tossed and turned uncomfortably.

"Having trouble there Samsquatch?" a voice behind him said. Sam quickly shot around to see Gabriel sitting in the corner on a chair.

"Gabriel, you're okay." Sam sighed with relief. Sam could hear the beating of his heart getting louder and faster. Sam was doing it again. Getting flustered in the presence of this angel. Gabriel cocked an eyebrow at Sam.

"Better question, Are you okay?" Gabriel asked crossing both his legs and arms.

"Ye-yeah i'm fine." Sam stuttered trying to stop his heart from blowing out of his chest. Gabriel looked him up and down.

"I can hear that thing from here. Seriously, are you having a heart attack?" Gabriel's expression changed from cocky and arrogant to seriously concerned for this human who looked like he was about to pass out.

"I just need some rest." Sam lied with a very unconvincing yawn and stretch.

"Suure... Right. Definitely." Gabriel snickered with as much sarcasm as angelically possible. Gabriel stood up. "Bye kiddo." Gabriel snapped his fingers and he vanished. 

Sam felt a shit tonne of pressure disappear from his chest. 
"That was too fuckin' close" Sam muttered under his breath rubbing his temples with his slender fingers. There was a quiet knock on the door. "What the fuck do you want now!?" Sam yelled, slightly pissed. The door opened. Sam's face went pale. It was Mary.

"Wow, what was that about?" She asked stepping into the room. Sam scratched the back of his neck.

"That was uh... nothing." He insisted. A goofy half-smile spread across his face, he was and has never been good at lying to his family.

"Ah, sure Sammy" Mary replied, not wanting to pry the truth from her incredibly stressed son. "I just wanted to tell you that I want to apologize for what happened earlier. I also want you to know that I am and will always be your mother and you shouldn't feel like you can't tell me things." Mary slowly walked over to the bed and sat down next to Sam, and wraps her arms around him. Sam quickly melted into the warm hug that only she knew how to give. Sam felt the words start to crawl up his throat and rest on his tongue, ready to be spoken, but he knew it wouldn't be the right time. Right now he just wanted to stay huddled up in the comforting hug of his mother.

  Sam didn't know how long he had been resting in the embrace of his mother, minutes? Hours? but all he knew was that when he opened his drowsy eyes, his mother was next to him, running her fingers through his long chestnut hair. 

"Morning sleepy head," Mary whispered as if trying not to rouse him too quickly.

"It's morning  already?" Sam groaned as he props himself up onto his elbows.

"Of course it's not morning Sammy" she chuckles. Sam genuinely smiles at his mothers attempt at a joke. Like her hug, its comforting. 

"Gabriel wanted to know if you were okay. He thought you were going into cardiac arrest or something. Do you need to go to the doctors Sammy ?" 

Sam looked up at his mother, her young face creased in concern. He trusted her with his life, so why couldn't he just explain how he felt? He wanted to tell her about Gabriel, but something completely different came out instead.

"Nah I was just feeling queasy. Just the stress of the job getting to me maybe? I'm not sure, but I'm perfectly fine now" Sam insisted, but this was probably the further-est thing from the truth. What he actually wanted to say was something along the lines of

"Actually mum, I've recently developed feelings for a certain archangel and I haven't been able to stop thinking and fantasizing about him and every time I see him my heart beats so hard that it hurts." 'Why am I such a pathetic piece of shit ?' Sam thought to himself. 'Dean's happy with the way he is, why can't I be ?' 

"Sammy, honey, what do you want for dinner?" she asked, breaking the silence that had accumulated while Sam was thinking to himself.

"Can we just get Chinese ?" Sam asked. He was not in the mood for one of Mary's home cooked abortions. 

"Sure sweetie, just the usual ?" 

Sam nodded as he lay back down on the bed, rolling over onto his side. Mary just smiled as she walked out of the room and downstairs to order the food.

"Hey, kiddo." Gabriel casually popped his head around the side of the door. Sam leapt up into a sitting position again. 

"God damn it, Gabriel," Sam growled. He'd gotten used to Gabriel making sudden appearances, but he was not used to how his chest started to ache at the sight of him. He tried so desperately to stay mad at the angel, but his feelings physically wouldn't allow it and he fell back into a puddle of self-loathing and intense emotions. All he wanted to do was walk over there and meld his mouth onto the angel's. His hunger for demon blood has never in his existence compared to his hunger for Gabriel. Sam just wanted to tell Gabriel to fuck off but instead, he let his emotions take control for a second and shit went lower than hell.

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"Gabriel, ever since I first saw you, I've wanted to do just one thing with you. I wanted you to be mine and nobody else's." Sam tentatively looked away from Gabe, terrified of his response. But the next thing he felt was a soft hand gently caress his face, and then tuck a rogue strand of hair behind his ear. Sam completely froze, unable to process what was happening. Gabe then grabbed his jaw and angled his face to meet his eyes. They both stared deeply into each other's eyes, trying to find reassurance that they both wanted this, but it was blatantly obvious. Gabe leaned in, so close to Sam's face and all Sam could focus on was his soft lips drawing closer. Everything that he had ever needed was happening right now. Sam's eyes slowly closed as their lips collided, soft at first, trying to discover each other's boundaries, waiting for the other to make the next move. Sams body filled with liquid ecstasy and he opened his mouth, inviting Gabriel's tongue in. Gabriel didn't miss a beat and slid his tongue into Sams' mouth, running his tongue over Sam's teeth, discovering and mapping every part of Sam's mouth. Gabe snaked his hand up over Sams back and into his long hair, pulling him closer. Sam, now addicted to the taste of the angel, started to push his tongue back, the men now fighting for dominance and savouring every second. In an attempt to gain control, Gabriel sucked onto Sams lower lip, filling his mouth, then biting down and pulling him away by his hair. Sam lets out a moan from the mixture of the sudden pain and intense pleasure, feeling guilty at first but then forgetting why and he continued to collide lips with the angel. Sam moves one hand up from Gabe's hips up to his soft cheek, cupping the entire side of his face in his now steady hands, slowly moving his thumb up and down. By now, both of them were letting out moans from the euphoria that occurred so strongly in each of them. 

The sound of footsteps coming up the stairs was the only thing that separated them in their moment of pure lust. Gabriel gave Sam a peck on the cheek before he disappeared leaving Sam to deal with Mary. She popped her head around the corner.

"Hey Sammy the Chinese food is here now" she chirped. Sam felt something, unable to put his finger on the emotion. He and Gabe had just been in here a few moments ago face fucking and his mother was blissfully unaware, he smiled to himself thinking about that moment they shared whilst his mother was probably paying the delivery man.

"I'll be down in just a second, I just need to uh clean some stuff." God his lies were getting shittier. As soon as Mary closed the door after giving an approving smile, Sam leapt off the bed and almost sprinted to the mirror in the room to look at the state he was in. In other words, to see if it was obvious he was just face fucked. His hair was slightly unruly from where Gabriel's hand had been but it wasn't something a quick finger comb couldn't fix.

Sam walks out of his room, giddy like a little school girl and can't contain his excitement as he basically ran down the stairs to the library. As he reached the bottom, the bunker door creaked open and Dean and Cas loudly entered. They both seem pretty happy with themselves.

"Cas has officially learnt how to hunt, kind of," Dean announced looking at Cas. Cas blushed at Dean, he wasn't used to this kind of treatment. Both Mary and Sam looked up and them and began to clap, the angel certainly confused at this celebration. Sam turned to see Gabriel trot down the stairs. A faint smile came across his face.

"ahh, look who's up. You look so much better Gabriel." Dean remarked joining Mary and Sam in the library with Cas. "But I do have one question, Did you get me any?" Dean asked hungrily stared at the Chinese food.

"Of course, We always get something for you." Mary smiled giving her son a container filled with noodles and beef. Dean happily accepted. he quickly sat down eager to start. Gabriel walked over to the table and stood right next to Sam. Sam felt his body fill with temptation. He wanted to make out with him all over again, it was the only thing that felt right all day. 

Sam quickly grabbed his food and sat down so he wouldn't do that, but Gabriel being the ass decided to sit right next to him. Sam just tried to eat with his chopsticks but his palms weren't letting him, instead he looked like he was incredibly uncoordinated.  He'd finally managed to get food in his mouth when he felt a hand run up and down along his thigh, and Sam choked and then he coughed and spluttered. His food went flying, everyone looked at him like he was going insane. Sam flashed them an awkward smile before he shakily tried again but this time Gabriel did something worse, his hand moved from his upper leg to what was in between them. Sam half swallowed and half breathed down a piece of chicken. He began to cough and Dean jumped up and gave Sam the Heimlich manoeuvre making Sam cough out the piece of chicken.

"Goddammit Sammy, learn how to fucking eat like a human being." Dean scolded Sam annoyed at his pure stupidity.

"I'm sorry, trust me. I'm really trying." Sam apologized. Dean sat back down but Sam just stood there giving Gabriel a death stare. 

"c'mon Sammy, sit back down." Gabriel motioned to the chair. Sam cautiously sat back down with his legs crossed. Gabriel didn't try anything again and he managed to finish his food without choking.

After dinner, Sam disappeared into the bathroom to brush his teeth then to his bedroom.

Sam lay his head down on his pillow, it was perfectly quiet. Sam's mind slowly crept back to the thought of the angel. Yeah, he crossed a line, but it was fine... right? or did Gabriel just think this was one big joke? Sam sat back up. He didn't want to think about that now. He Sam got up and began to unbutton his flannel and throw it on the floor then sliding his shirt off over his head.

"Mmm, Sammy don't stop." Gabriel snickered admiring the muscle definition on him. Sam shot around almost feeling exposed. Sam looked down at the ground and shook his head chuckling. "what's so funny." Gabriel cocked his eyebrow

"Me," Sam said looking back up at the angel.

"Why?" He asked curiously.

"If i'm not mad at you i'm falling down at your feet or moulding my lips onto yours" Sam shook his head at his idiocy.  

"Well you're not falling down at my feet right now, maybe we should try the latter? He flirted. every bone in Sam's body wanted to but he couldn't, his body was telling him 'do it' but his mind was telling him 'no'. Sam just turned away from Gabriel.

"Or you could go." Sam snapped at Gabriel, but as soon as those words came out he regretted it instantly. 

"Oh, alright," Gabriel sounded heartbroken. Sam spun around as fast as he could and wrapped his long arms around the angel. He didn't want Gabriel to think that he didn't want anything to do with him. Gabriel stood there in confusion.

"i'm sorry." Sam apologized tightening his grip.

"Kid, are you okay?" Gabriel asked wriggling out of the grip. Sam looked at him then at the floor. He took a deep breath in and opened his mouth but the words were jammed in there. Sam just sat on the bed. He rubbed his face with his large hands. Gabriel grabbed Sam's wrists and placed them next to him. He sat on the edge of Sam's legs. He looked at Gabriel in confusion. Gabriel wriggled his arms under his armpits and interlocked them behind his back, he pulled himself to Sam's chest, placing his head over Sam's heart. His heartbeat began to beat faster again. Sam wrapped his arms around the smaller angel, placing his head on Gabriel's head. They closed their eyes and Sam's heartbeat slowed as he relaxed.

Sam began to lower himself down with Gabriel still wrapped tightly around him until he was lying down with Gabriel on top.

"I need to go to sleep," Sam whispered to Gabriel raising his arm up to stroke the angel's golden locks. Gabriel looked up at him, looking almost hurt.

"Do I have to go?" Gabriel whined obviously enjoying this embrace. Sam looked into the angel's pools of gold eyes.

"Who said anything about leaving?" Sam Answered with a sly smile. Gabriel's face lit up. He snapped his fingers and he and Sam were both in pyjamas. Was surprised at the angel's eagerness to stay. "One rule though, No funny business when i'm asleep," Sam warned Gabriel. Gabriel nodded as he threw himself under the covers pulling them up to his eyes. Sam chuckled and squeezed up next to him, laying on his side and placing his arm over Gabriel's body. Gabriel turned to face Sam.

"G'night," Gabriel whispered as he kissed the tip of his nose.

"Night," Sam whispered back closing his eyes. Gabriel snuggled right up close next to Sam wrapping his arms around the human. Gabriel closed his eyes. He could sleep but it wasn't necessary like humans, he usually slept to pass time if he needed to.

The warmth of their bodies and the mattress made it almost impossible for them not to fall asleep almost instantly.