She still wasn't home the next morning. Renjun's mom was still out from the night before.

I have one more day. 

Renjun didn't know what his mom was going to do with him once she read that note, though he knew it would be nothing good. However, Renjun was determined to keep his most likely last day at school as normal as possible, not wanting to worry anyone. He wasn't a great actor, but he was sure that he could make this work. 

He had to get up an hour earlier than usual however, to make sure that his sister didn't catch him before he had the chance to get the hell out of there. He almost forewent brushing his teeth as it seemed too loud and therefore risky, but remembered that his sister was a painfully deep sleeper, and went forward with it cautiously. He then went up to her door and put his ear against it, and upon hearing his sister's thunderous snoring, sighed in relief and went downstairs.

He didn't bother grabbing anything to eat, he couldn't eat when he got nervous or he would get sick. He was shaking in his seat the entire bus ride. He even got a little delusional at some point and imagined his mother storming in through the open doors of the bus during a stop, and snapped to attention with a thundering heart. He was beyond scared of what would happen when he got home, by which time his mother would have arrived and would probably even be waiting at the kitchen table to... to do whatever she was going to do with him.

He would try to do more things today, he decided, as he probably wouldn't be going back to school, or this school anyway. He would just be a dumb fag in his mother's eyes, and she wouldn't pay for his education no matter how many A+'s and pleased reports from teachers were shoved under her nose. Maybe she would send him to a school for juvenile delinquents, if she didn't just kick him out of her house completely. 

Renjun stood outside the school for a minute, taking in the building for probably the last time. He noticed that one of the windows was different from the others, with a different sill, and that the roof was very well maintained compared to the rest of the place. He named some of the windows after the classrooms he were sure they were part of, and after he decided that was enough.

He normally would have ignored Chenle when he came running up to him at his locker ranting about his favourite group's recent comeback. He had previously not known the name of the group, but he listened, actually listened this time, and discovered that they were called RFN. He kind of spaced out after Chenle started ranting about is bias (Yoonso?) for a while but Chenle payed no attention to him and talked for a while just about the idol's birthmark on his ear (was he more whipped for Yoonso than Jisung?).

Renjun stayed there at his locker for a while after Jisung joined Chenle and started talking animatedly about RFN as well, spazzing out over his bias, and complaining about how much Yoonso wrecked him, at which Chenle only laughed and teased him.

How cute. They stan the same group.

Renjun then excused himself from the fanboy's congregation and went to the classroom his first class would be taking place in to do the homework he hadn't completed the night before. What? I'm not going to break a perfect record on my last day here.

The day went normally from then on, mostly. Renjun even got himself to eat an apple he got from the cafeteria, swallowing bites past his nerves. He had to have something to eat, his mother probably wouldn't even give him scraps tonight. With that thought in mind, he brought a sandwich for later.

He sat with people he hadn't had a chance to catch up with for a while at lunch, laughing and smiling and storing these memories away forever. I hope I never forget these guys. Hell, I'll be having a hard time forgetting about Donghyuck and Yukhei.

He only left them towards the end of lunch to go to the bathroom. The faked normality of his day ended the minute he came out of the bathroom. He was drying the remaining water on his hands on his trousers while walking out of the bathroom, only to look up to find Nomin waiting on either side of the hallway. They looked up at him at the same time. Renjun gulped.

Did they find out about the notes? Why are they waiting here? Are they even waiting for me? Was it all a joke? Are they gonna tell me I was wrong? Are they going to laugh at me? Are they even waiting for me? Why are they looking at me like that? Why is Jeno's shirt buttoned when it's always unbuttoned? Why is Jaemin fixing his shirt? Why are thEY WALKING TOWARDS ME-

"Hey," said Jeno quietly, even though there was no one other than them in the vicinity. "Can we- um-"

"Can we talk to you for a second?" cut in Jaemin, shooting Jeno a look, then shooting Renjun right in the heart with an award-winning smile. Jeno smiled sheepishly, unknowingly revealing his eye-smile. Double kill. I love being polyamorous. 

Renjun opened his mouth to answer while simultaneously trying to calm his hammering heart which they could surely hear. Here they were, his crushes, speaking to him directly for the first time, and Renjun felt like he was dying on cloud nine. "Yea-"

"Can Huang Renjun please make his way to the principle's office? His parent is here to collect him."

The loudspeaker rang out around the hall, and Renjun felt his insides shrivel up in disappointment, then fall right out of his body in anxiety and fear. Not even a single school day could his mother leave him alone-

Renjun tried to look at Jaemin and Jeno apologetically, but he must have let his inner emotions appear for a second, because Jaemin looked at him concernedly. Jeno mustn't have noticed however, he was pouting slightly. Renjun would have clutched his chest at the sight if he wasn't actually shaking in terrified anticipation. 

"Can we talk on Monday?" asked Jaemin hopefully. Renjun nodded shakily, sorrow filling his insides at the knowledge that he might not be here on Monday, or ever again. He tried extra hard, however, to make sure that they didn't see that. Jeno inflated again and gave him a little smile. "See you, then," he said, waving at Renjun. 

Renjun walked normally down the hallway away from Nomin. The second he thought he was out of sight, though, he bolted to Chenle's locker. I have to say goodbye. 

Renjun found Chenle looking at his locker door, probably because it was plastered with pictures of RFN, but that was irrelevant for now. Renjun grabbed him by the shoulders and spun him around, making him drop a picture. Chenle looked down at the fallen polaroid, then up at his best friend dazedly. "Renjun? Wha-"

Renjun hugged him. This was rare; usually Chenle hugged him, as Renjun was always unsure about when to give hugs to people. But Renjun was sure about now, this might be the last time he would see his companion of 4 years. 

Chenle put his arms around him, but looked at him questioningly when Renjun pulled back. "What was that, Injun? You never hug anyone first." "Um- I'm going home now. Did you not hear the announcement?" Chenle shook his head no, then served his excuse: "I was looking at pictures of Yoonso." 

Renjun shook his head endearingly. "Of course you were." Chenle giggled, then suddenly said "Shouldn't you get going now? They made that announcement ages ago." Renjun's face fell. "Oh yeah, that. Bye, Chenle, see you- yeah, bye." 

Waving feebly, Renjun jogged off down the corridor. Chenle waved back, slightly confused at his friend's strange behaviour. He then spotted Jisung coming running down the corridor, and decided to put that to the back of his mind for now. "Chenle," Jisung said, panting slightly, "Jungwoo told me that Lee Jeno and Na Jaemin were going to confess to Renjun today, but he-," Jisung huffed out, "he left before they could. They're going to do it o- on Monday instead. I suggest you carry out your interrogation now."  

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anywayy I was just paying a trip to London and I came up with ideas for like three other stories might just write them who knows

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