I guess I should be somewhat thankful since I wasn't thrown in a run of a mill cell. It was more like the room I woke up in at Corey's pack but with no window this time. Actually the more I looked at the walls they looked padded. I have been so angry the last couple of hours that I didn't really notice the room besides the bed and a small washroom with no door. But now looking around I wasn't sure whether or not to laugh or cry. They literally put me in a mother fuckn' padded room.

And laughing won the battle, thankfully. Here I was laying in the middle of my 10 by 10 room holding my stomach while I laughed so much I was having problems catching my breath. Which ended up with me laughing even more as the thought of dying due to uncontrollable laughter came to mind. I was so out of it that I didn't notice the door open, I didn't notice someone walking in and I didn't notice the door close or seeing someone leaning against the door watching me finally having a complete possible mental breakdown.

It wasn't much longer when my tears of laughter turned to sobs of utter heartbreak, But the good thing about that was that was something I understood and had a better handle of being able to shut down. It was then as I continued to take deep breaths to calm myself that I noticed someone in the room. Too late to cover up my little breakdown since I was pretty sure he had seen it all, I completely ignored him to roll over and slowly climb to my feet. I had one goal at the moment and that was to get to the washroom to wash away all evidence on just how weak I was.

I took my time hoping he would leave but I knew he wouldn't. Still not looking in his direction, leaning against the door with his arms crossed watching every move I made, I walked back to the bed and sat down. If he wanted to talk it was going to be a one way conversation.

It didn't take him long to get the hint. "Dammit Mackenzie! Did you not listen to anything the Alpha and your Uncle said to you?!" Anthony whispered yelled to me as he pushed off the door and was now a foot from my bed. "Have you forgotten everything we taught you back home? Think! Don't react!" I could tell he so badly wanted to scream but he kept his volume down to a whisper.

"Think!" He growled as he took his beefy ass finger poking it in the side of my head not too gently. "Not react!" Taking his same damn finger poking my chest where my heart was. "Dammit trust yourself! Your gut!" He was seething mad but his words just ran off me.

It was one look. One unguarded look as I meet his eyes with my own. It was that one look that he knew. I was done. I was broken. I didn't care. So many emotions flew through his eyes but I was too numb to register. "FUCK!" Anthony roared before spinning out of the room. I didn't even watch him go. I laid on the bed with my back to the door and waited for the darkness to consume me.

I don't know how long I slept for but I felt lighter. Less confused. More confident. Now if I could only remember the damn dream I was having because I had no doubt it was because of that dream that had me feeling what I was now. Things seemed more clear. I had less conflicts on who to trust and who to not. Oh don't get me wrong I was still pretty damned pissed but for different reasons.

I lost time being stuck in this windowless room. I knew it was after dinner since the only thing I had close to telling time was by when my meals were brought to me. I couldn't even tell when the guards changed unless I put all my attention on my hearing and even then I wasn't sure if they just didn't speak or if the walls were so thick that I couldn't hear casual conversations. The only thing that gave anything away was when I could either see the door handle twist or the subtle click of the door opening. I knew I have been down here for at least 2 days but I am thinking it was 3 since the first day and a half I was not myself at all.

It was that subtle, unscheduled click of the door that caught my attention now. I didn't know who to expect but the man that walked through the door was not one I expected at all. It was also one that I truly missed deep down. I am not sure if it was the shock that had me lay still on the bed while staring into those eyes that had made me once feel safe or my will to not let him know I was a little happy to see him. For a split second I wanted to jump out of bed and share one of my strong right hooks to his jaw but that feeling passed as quickly as it came. Even though that dream that I could not remember had my emotions on the calm side, the actions of the others still hurt. Even if I knew it was for a reason and that was not to betray me.

I am not sure how long we just stared at each other in silence. It felt like hours but I knew it was more like minutes. Once again I refused to speak first. Refused to break the silence.

"You're still a pain in my ass," Tony's voice broke the silence, almost making me jump. He sighed before taking another step closer. "You got your head on straight now? You understand what is NOT happening now?" Even though his voice was firm and confident I could see the pleading in his eyes. Begging me to understand.

The problem was I didn't understand what I needed too. They were basically asking me to blindly give my trust and that is something I had problems doing. He knew this. They knew this but still expected it from me. Now it was my choice on what I would do. Could do. Unfortunately, I didn't have an answer for him. I sighed before I sat up, removing my eyes from his. I could only hold my nonchalant attitude for so long and he could read me better than most. "I need to talk to Alpha Christopher." I have already decided on what I had to do next and that was speaking to the man that had helped me more than he will ever know.

Tony didn't even bother hiding the disappointment in hearing my words or more so lack of them. The truth was that I was not ready to have any kind of heart to heart with anyone. I wasn't ready to speak to any of them at all. Not until I spoke to Alpha Christopher. My Alpha. He may not be my Alpha technically but in my heart he was and that was all that mattered at the moment. I knew he would give me some kind of peace or clarity. That I was certain and even if my emotions had calmed I needed something more. Someone to really trust. Someone who had my back since even now I still feel alone even though I knew that there was a lot more going on than any of them would share with me.

It was another couple of minutes of silence before Tony let out a sigh of defeat before turning around to head back towards the door. I didn't want to get my hopes up so I stayed rooted in my spot and didn't move until Tony walked out the door leaving it open for me to follow. I jumped up and was at his side in a second. I didn't want to give him a chance to change his mind.

I followed behind Tony without either of us saying a word. Walking up the stairs to the main house was eerie quiet. I could hear people moving around but no one seemed to be talking. It was as if they knew I was coming, confirmed by the noises I heard as they moved away from where we were. Not once did we see anyone. As we rounded the corner I expected to head up the stairs but Tony turned the opposite way to head towards the front door leading us outside. I turned my head looking up the stairs debating if I should just make a run up the stairs where my phone was but before I could finally decide the way was blocked by a couple of the warriors.

It was only then I heard someone clear their throat. Looking back in the other direction I spotted Tony holding open the main door while staring back at me. With a subtle nod of his head he indicated for me to walk out the door instead. This time it was me who sighed in defeat. A moment later I spotted a familiar white SUV with tinted windows with the back door left open. With one look to the man who stood by that open door I knew he was telling me to stay strong. And that is exactly what I did. Straightening my back with my chin held high I walked towards the waiting Alpha. It took everything in me to not run and throw myself in his arms but I couldn't. I wouldn't, especially with the small crowd standing outside.

Jumping in the back seat I felt the Alpha slide in beside me before the door closed tight. "Stay strong for a couple more minutes, Mac." Alpha Christopher said as the car started to move. It was when we were about 5 minutes away before he spoke again. "Come here and let it all out." His words were soft with concern while his arms were wide open. That was all it took for me to fly into his arms and completely breakdown.