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After school Pidge went to Lance's house, to play games like they always do, yeah but Lance had other plans, to be more exact that he is rambling about Keith.

Pidge doesn't really mind that Lance has a crush and talks about it, no one should really mind. But Lance, this boy is just something else. It's like the name Keith is all he ever heard. And that's, obviously, annoying.

And since lance is rambling about Keith and, I quote, 'his dumb mullet that for some reason doesn't look bad at all and will probably be the end of me', Pidge sat on his bed and played alone. 

"Calm down"

"Have you seen him today?"

"Yes" they roll their eyes

"I mean,, His crush is so lucky. I will in no way end up with him, just impossible"

"Shut up. Maybe it will be like in one of your cliche movies? I bet you would do anything so it would happen in a cliche way" the smile

"No, let me tell you how it is in one 'of my cliche movies'. Both of the people keep their crushes a secret, like till the end, not really but you get me. Then they get all nervous around each other and are like really oblivious. Plus they avoid being alone with each other. In the end someone blurs it out that they have feelings and boom, relationship" 

"And what's so different about you then?"

"Well, he doesn't have a crush on me, I don't really avoid him, that's actually it. It just kind of makes me sick that he likes someone else" 

Pidge is also sick, not from love or something, but of Lance's rambling. They came to have a good video game day with their best friend, instead they are stuck with this and need to play therapist.

Not that Pidge doesn't like that Lance likes someone, just they are annoyed. Pidge just want's to play god damn video games.

"Okay I get it, Lance. But what about Allura?"

He furrows his eyebrows "What about her?"

"You just broke up with her"

He rolls his eyes "Wow thank you Pidgey, didn't hurt at all"

"Sorry, that's not what I meant" they start "I meant, you just broke up with her, are you already over her?"

He shrugs and sits down beside Pidge "I mean not really. But I can't and I don't want to cry about it for long. It hurts but I'm trying to get over it, plus it's not that I really love Keith, it's just a small crush. You understand?"  he looks down at his hands

"Yeah, maybe" Pidge puts the controller down and puts and arm around lance to comfort him

"Plus she has done the whole flirting with Shiro thing for a long while. Maybe I slowly stopped liking her through the whole process of the happening? It's kind of complicated to explain feelings"

"Well yeah, feelings are a bitch. In my opinion 1/10 wouldn't recommend"

"You wouldn't recommend anything that isn't scientifically proven"

Pidge nods "Touche. But really now. you don't look really hurt"

"I mean I was hurt when she just started doing it. you know that, you where there when I had my breakdowns" Pidge nods "And then, I guess,  kind of just got used to it. now that I'm saying that, I realize what kind of idiot I was"

They stay silent for a while until Pidge couldn't stand it anymore

 "Do you want to take your mind off of it?" Lance nods "Cool, then take the second controller. I came to play games not therapist" 

Lance smiles and takes the second controller "I'll beat your ass, Pidgeotto"

"You can only dream about it, Lancey-Lance"

Pidge, of course, won every game.

"Keith, Kolivian called" Shiro shouts from the kitchen "Call him back"

Keith nods and walks up to his room, shuts the door and then calls Kilovian back.

"Hello, Kolivian? You called?"

"Oh yeah, hello Keith. I wanted to talk about the BoM"

Keith stays silent for a while "You have news?"

"Yes. Your mother and I managed to get you a place, you just can't join right now" 

"Oh"

"How old are you?"

Keith raises a brow "I'm seventeen, why?"

"For the BoM" Kolivian starts "You can come as soon as you turn eighteen, for legal reasons" 

"Don't act like the BoM is the most legal thing" 

"Not the point. Well we already have you in our system, so there shouldn't be any problems when you come. And Keith, your mother is happy you will be joining" Keith stays silent "I know you're upset that she left you, but I think she can explain everything when you're here. Also she helped me to get you in the system, not everyone can be part of us, you know"

Keith takes a deep breath "Yeah, I know. And I'm thankful that you did that for me. It's just so unusual to talk about her" 

"I understand. But please don't be too mad at her-"

"I can't really be mad, because I don't know her" 

"I know Keith. But back to the BoM. When are you turning eighteen, we need this information" 

"next year. I think I will finish this year and then will be off" Keith explains

"Okay. So, we will send you a letter with all the information you need, plus papers you need to fill out and send back, then I think everything is in the safe place and we won't have any difficulties" 

Keith nods "Okay. And Kolivian, thank you. And say that to my mother too, that I'm thankful she helped" 

"Will do. Bye Keith" 

Keith hangs up and throws his phone on the bed. He changes in some more comfortable clothes and then walks down in the kitchen.

"So, what did he say?" Shiro asks

Keith opens the fridge and looks for snacks "Just told me that I have a place, he will send me more information and papers I need to fill out and send back. So once I'm eighteen, I will be gone"

Shiro looks down. He doesn't like this idea at all. Keith is his brother after all, and he doesn't care that Keith is adopted, he s like a real brother to him and wants to protect him. And now he will go to the military in one year.

One might think 'oh military, well he will help the others' yeah, but it's a little different. It's not the most legal thing. No one knows where these guys came from, or what they exactly do. Just that it's dangerous, not legal -saying illegal is kind of wrong, it's not really legal, but also not really illegal-, not everyone is able to join, and bad. 

And Shiro doesn't really understand how he got in contact with the, but he just doesn't want to let him go.

"You still don't like the idea, right?" Keith sighs

"No, not at all. I just don't understand. for all I know, you could die there" Shiro sit down and looks at Keith

"I just feel lie it's the right thing to do" 

"How?" Keith shrugs "don't you have people for who you want to stay and keep living with them?"

"Are you trying to make me feel guilty?"

"Maybe. But really, what about me, our parents-"

"Your parents" Keith also sits down

"Keith, we talked about this. You know we don't care that you're adopted. They adopted you because they wanted you to be a part of the family, and when I found out I will have a little brother, I was the happiest human being on earth"

Keith smiles. It's nice to know that they think of you as a real family member "I know that, Shiro. And I love you all for that, but it's a decision I made myself"

"I just don't understand" 

"It's not really your place to understand"

"Even when you fell in love?" Shiro asks out of the blue

"What do you mean?" Keith looks confused at him

"What if you fell in love, and wouldn't want to leave them"

Shiro look up and Keith can see tears in his eyes "Oh Shiro" he stands up and hugs Shiro "even if  did fall in love. I just need to go" 

"You probably don't really know the feeling"

"Probably" 

Shiro would do anything, just so that Keith would stay. He doesn't want to lose him. Of course he wouldn't, he is his brother and he need to look out for him.

He needs to admin that he kind of failed with that.  After all Keith smokes at times, not that he is addicted but it's a thing he does.  Shiro talked hours with Keith about the whole smoking thing, but nothing changed. And Shiro feels horrible that he couldn't do anything.

And for Keith. Keith knows that the things he does, are not the best things. In fact that they are not good at all. He know, but like said, it's just a thing he does. 

"And Shiro" Shiro hums "I promise that I will be back. Please don't worry too much" 

"How can you be so sure? You know that they are, you know, not the best organisation thingy" 

"I'm sure because I know that Kolivian and Krolia will look out for me"

Not that Keith can promise that nothing will happen to him, but he will be fine.