Guess what i'm doing and where am i now.

No. I'm not in a bar on drinking alcohols or doing anything rated 18+, chill mom. Stop being a paranoid.

Don't you dare lie to me you didn't think that.

"Hey again hot head."

"Ha ha. Very funny." Raph rolled his eyes as i jumped down from the water tower.

"So you did miss me, huh?" I smirked as i crossed my arms.

"Shut up. I'm only here to blow off some steam."

"Just sayin'." I said while putting my hands up in surrender.

I sat down beside him, staring at the glowing lights of New York below. Men, women, old hags, some nice old people, kids, childs, babies, preteens, teenagers, young adults, adults, girls, boys, dogs (btches), cats, cows (wait what?), mooses (oh my gawd), pigeons.. you name it, they're all down below. Somehow the city that i thought smaller than it looks was big enough for them all. Includes us, mutants..

Oh great, i'm having these inner questions and thoughts about life. NOT one of perks of being a pre-teenager.

I was in deep silence after that. Even my mind was steadying, getting down from the high.

Again, no. I'm NOT that kind of high.

It's just,..
When the world's fate AND future was practiccly placed on your shoulder, plus the responsibilities as the 'oldest' and the leader, PLUS the secrets of the real you, it's not easy to be..

What's the word now?

Umm.. it's on the tip of my tongue..

It was.. something.. i knew it was! Uhh... f... nee-..niii...inn....

Oh right!

Fine.

It's not easy to be just fine.

I practiccly raised with two of myselves and i have no HECK of idea which one's the real me.

One is the usual oh-so-mighty-and-perfect fearless-leader in blue Splinter Jr. big bro; Leonardo.

The other is.. well.. the one who is actually the real me, but now i don't think so, crazy immature funny smart quick and the youngest; Ao.

It's a hard life. And i'm only fourteen who people thought sixteen and the one who never sees me would thought... about centuries old.

I took a quick 'how old actually you are' test while channeling my Leo-self in Quotev.com, don't ask.
But if i'm channeling Ao, it's usually young teenagers' age.

Back to topic.

See? You see?? I was so angsty and sentimental few seconds ago and in blink of an eye, poof! I'm crazy.

It's really hard to keep up like this.

Then before i knew it, i was humming quietly,-i think, to myself while spacing out.

I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, "I'll never let you go"
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, "Don't leave me here alone"
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Yes, hunger games. Shut up, it's a good one.

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

I unconsciously also started to hum the acoustic guitar instrument. Slowly closing my eyes, i finally give in and let myself lost in the world of thoughts.

Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

"Nice voice."

I blinked and i was back to reality.

"T-thanks. Sorry. I often do that when i'm..." i paused to look for the right word.

"Spaced out."

"Oh." Raph nodded simply.

Wait, how long we've been here?

Oh crap, nice going Ao! You lose your track of time, nice... i hissed to myself.

"What?"

"Huh?" I looked at Raph wierdly.

Did he just read my mind? Or-?

I paused.

Oh my gawd, i did NOT just do what i think i did.

"Am i thinking out loud again??" I screeched to myself. Then, cue me smacking my palm to my face.

DID I JUST SERIOUSLY SCREECHED?????????????

"Yeah. And you happenly just did that, kid." I shot Raph a glare, seeing him mischeviously grinning.

"Oh shut up. You don't have anything to worry about in your life." I grumbled and flopped my self down, laying on my shell with my limbs spreaded out.

"Whaaaaat... are you doing?" The only answer he got from me is a look.

"I'm dying. From the air pressure that was so frikkin heeaaavvvyyyy for a child, sooo....goodbye." I closed my eyes.

"That ain't funny at all, kid."

"Whatever. I'm seeing the bright light though."

I can feel Raph was rolling his eyes.
"Nah you don't. Ya still breathing and last time i checked, dead people don't breath."

"I'm holding my breath. That count?"

A swat on my head wakes me up.

"You're hopeless."

"Hey! I was seeing my bright future and you woke me up!"

"Oh really? What was it?" Sarcasm was clearly dripping in his voice.

"Fangirls.. fangirls everywhere...." i said while using hands for emphasize.

Another swat.

That was Mikey's thing!

"Sorry kid, you ain't getting fangirls. You're a mutant. A rather ugly one, so stop dreaming."
Hey!

If he has anything against my handsomeness he shouldn't be so blunt about it..

"But i'm a good actor. A great one for holywood." I pouted, crossing my arms.

"Yeah. That dying thing was soooo realistic!" Sarcasm.

Part of me wanted to laugh. Part of me wanted to cry from the guilt that spread much more quickly than Mikey chasing pizza inside me.

If only you know the truth Raph..

A vibrate in my shell wakes me from almost spacing out,-thank goodness.

I quickly took out my t-phone at the moment Raph's looking the other way.

11:30 PM

Oh shit.

Sorry about my language.

"So uhh.. i better get going now." I said, feeling really stupid to let some nervousness slipped out in my voice.

"Why?"

I quickly shrugged my nervousness aside and put on my cocky smile.
"Why so reluctant? You missed me already?"

He snorted and shook his head.

Score!

"Nah. I won't, trust me."

Always works.

"Hold up." A tug on my scarf and i was off the ground.

"Hey! Put me down!" I yelled while tried to squirm out from Raph's hold.

Keyword : tried.

"Hang on fancy pants. I feel like i've known you waaayyy before."
I gulped.

Oh sweet mother of shell i am so screwed.

He stared with his piercing green eyes into my black orbs,-which looked plain compared to him.

It was like forever, and the intensity just kept growing.

What do i do? What do i do? Will he figure it out?

"You're.. done..?" I squeaked from under my scarf, which now covered half of my face.

He blinked once before putting me down.

"Sorry. I might've spaced out."
Unbelieveable.

"You gave me a heart attack with those creepy eyes.. thingy.. you did to me.."

"Alright alright. I did say i'm sorry.."
Wow. I'm scared now.

Hey, it ryhmes! I'm a poet and i didn't realised it!

"Okay then, green head. See ya!" I said before jumping down again like last night just before Raph got the chance to yell 'HEY!' to me.

I let my laughter echoes through a subway station,-giving some old hags and people a heart attack.

Gee, i sure hope do the story,-or rumours, of a 'ghost' in this subway spreads real fast, 'cause it'll be fun.

Artwork this night ; a simple colorful peace sign. Meaning?
.
.
.
.

...........I have absolutely no idea..

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Meanwhile, up on the rooftops, a certain red clad turtle was smiling to himself.

He took out a leaf,-a lettuce, that was all left from his former best buddy, Spike,-now Slash.

" i think i found myself a new bud, buddy.." he whispered to it before going into the shadows.

And just as Leo,-or Ao, wished, the story of 'the mystery of laughing subway walls' do spread faster than Mikey chasing a triple cheese double jellybeans pizza. Leaving the subway deserted, which was soon going to be a huge part of our beloved blue turtle's life.

LOOOOOOOOOONGGGGGG CHAPTER.

MY HANDS CRAMPED! AGAIN!

I edited the fifteen part. The guys were sixteen that's why Ao was 14. Set around after season 3 (or possibly 4). Maybe. I like to think so..