I don't know what's worse...

If It's feeling a thousand
emotions at once,
Or feeling nothing at all...

If is letting you go without
trying to stop you,
Or feeling that I already
lost you a long time ago...

If it's feeling alone when I'm alone,
Or feeling lonely when I'm surrounded by a thousand souls...

If it's making you believe that I'm okay without you here,
Or knowing you are better
without me near...

If it's pretending I'm okay and giving everyone a fake smile,
Or crying silently at night hoping that I can keep faking it for a little while...

If it's trying to live one more day,
every day with more and more pain,
Or seeing that girl in the mirror and knowing I won't get her back
ever again...

I don't know what's worse...

Feeling worthless,
but pretending that I am someone...

Knowing I'm not any better without you, but let go of all our
"love yous"...

Pretending that I hate you,
Or knowing that I could never do...

The worst part is to be in love with someone that I will never belong to...