Every time I close my eyes,
I can see him...
Every time I try to sleep,
I can hear him...

You would think this is about
someone who I have loved and lost...
Well, it is not,
It's about who frightens me
And chases me at any cost.

It is the place that I can't escape from,
It is the place where I always end up without a choice.
It is the place where my fears
I can't overcome,
It is the place where no matter how much I scream, I don't have a voice.

Closing my eyes as another day ends,
Is not a good thing for me,
So I fight to stay awake, but when I do his anger transcends,
I try to fight him every night
but winning his twisted games, I can't...
When my eyes refuse to shut.
And for a little while, I think I'm okay,
I come to find out, I'm anything but...
It doesn't matter what I do to push him away, he always seems to stay.

I came to accept that he's part of me,
He is not an image from my mind or a shadow from my dreams,
He is stronger than me and he is real.
He feeds off of my screams,
From my pain, my insecurities and
my tearful pleas.
He is not a ghost or an illusion...
He is the demon that lives
within me.

He makes me believe that
I'm a burden,
He makes me not want to be me,
He is my inner demon,
And from him,
I can't set myself free...