Dear You...

Just writing this to say my goodbyes,
As I'm holding this pencil with
tears in my eyes,
I want to tell you that am ok,
that after all that happened, I survived,
Please know I will think of you every day, but having you in my life is something I will make myself deprive,
Seeing you, losing myself in your eyes while sharing laughs and memories, is something I will no longer have,
Instead of the pain of your nonexistent in my life, I will lock deep inside my heart along with the remaining love I still have for you, and thoughts of us will forever remain in my mind
craved in bloody regret.
I'm living but feel so unlive,
My world ended as I tried to finish my own existence and although I failed in that too I will not be able to amend it,
The harm is done and this new me is someone you have yet to see,
I changed, I might be quieter and numb, I might be sadder and destroyed from the inside, and even had wished to live no longer with the shame of having allowed myself to stupidly fall for someone like you, but I've learned my lesson, this is the beginning of a new chapter, a whole new book where you no longer are a part of every page, leaving behind a beautiful love story that
was nothing but lies,
You might have thought you were the end of me, but I'm here to
Prove you wrong, and show you that I might have allowed you to break my whole world and taken my smile with you, along with my broken heart,
but this isn't the end of my story, is only the end of what used to
be you and me,
I'm done with us and I'm ready to start a new plot of my own destiny...
I'm finally ready to be just me.