Ahhh, Zhan can be so mean. First he spends a night with me and I was even allowed to hold him in my arms all night and then he also told me that he loves me, so well indirectly then and since days he did not get in touch and did not respond to my calls or messages.

I continued to pursue my work and continued to be trained by Mr. Chou. I never thought how much work an assistant has to do and how close he has to be and can be to a CEO. I was really amazed when Mr. Chou said, "Suppose you work in a big corporation as an assistant to the CEO, you are in a position where you just know everything about him. Nobody else in this world, knows more about the CEO than the assistant. And that's why the CEO has to be able to trust his assistant."

I asked him, "How can an assistant know everything?"

Mr. Chou smiled and replied, "Simple. An assistant takes care of everything that distracts the CEO from his work. Sometimes that means the assistant orders flowers and gifts for special occasions, for a spouse or for a mistress. The assistant coordinates appointments so the CEO has time for his spouse or mistress and makes sure the two never run into each other."

"Wait a minute. Has Zhan had a spouse or anyone else besides me?"

"No, he hasn't. Zhan never married and never saw a lover in you. He liked you from the beginning. And did you know that your brother told him then that he would like to pair you up with Zhan?"

"How? What did my brother say?"

"After Zhan helped your brother back then, your brother said a little bit about you. And Zhan just said, sounds very interesting. And your brother said to him, you two are the same age and would be great together. And then he said, someday when everything calms down, he wants to introduce you to Zhan."

"Really? And now he's talking about Zhan like that, saying he's just a criminal guy."

"Yibo, sometimes things aren't what they seem. Now let's move on." Replied Mr. Chou. I had no idea how he meant that, but I didn't want to ask either. My head had been full to bursting anyway, and since I was missing Zhan so much again, I could hardly concentrate on anything else.

That same evening after Mr. Chou's lesson, I wrote Zhan a message. I wrote, "Finally come home to me. I miss you so terribly. Don't torture me any further and finally release me." After that, I went to sleep, hoping Zhan would finally soften up and show up by the weekend at the latest.

I was already sound asleep when suddenly, in the middle of the night, I heard someone come into my room. I intentionally pretended not to notice. Then the person came to my bed, lifted my covers and lay down on my back, head between my shoulder blades, arms on my arms and kissing my neck. I smelled sandalwood and slight smell of alcohol.

"Are you lying well ZhanZhan?" I asked, grinning and my heart pounding. He had really come to me. I was just happy at that moment.

"Mhm, excellent. Very comfortable." Replied Zhan tiredly.

"It's even more comfortable in my arms, though."

"Really?"

"Mhm, do you want to test it ZhanZhan?"

Zhan actually slid off my back and next to me, then snuggled into my arms. "True, very comfortable." He said and kissed my collar.

"You really came to me."

"Mmm, I've been busy. I wasn't even in town."

"And now that you're back, were you out celebrating?"

"No, at a business dinner. There was lots of alcohol."

"So you're drunk?"

"I don't know. Am I?"

"Haha ZhanZhan, you should know that."

"Not when I'm with you. You always make me feel drunk."

"It's called love, Zhan."

"Love? Mhhh, Okay."

"I've missed you terribly ZhanZhan."

"Yeah?"

"Yes. That's why I'm so happy you're here with me now. Did you maybe miss me too?"

"Maybe? Mhhh, I miss someone or not. Not maybe."

"Awww even drunk you still try to teach me. You're so cute."

"Yibo?"

"Mhm?"

"Wǎn'ān."

"I know ZhanZhan. I love you too."

"Do you trust me Yibo?"

"Yes, I trust you."

"Good, because you will need my help soon. And you have to trust me so I can help you."

"What will I need your help with? What's wrong?"

"I'll explain it to you later Yibo. If you trust me, everything will be fine."

"I trust you ZhanZhan."

"Very nice. Then you can kiss me now."

"Can I?"

Zhan lifted his head and looked into my eyes. He touched my cheek and kissed me tenderly. I was worried about what Zhan said. But at the same time, I just knew that no matter what happened, I could rely on Zhan. That night we didn't sleep with each other because I didn't want to take advantage of Zhan's drunken state. But we kissed and cuddled together for a long time.

In the morning, or actually it was almost noon, Zhan and I woke up too. He was still in my arms, clutching my body. And even when we were awake, we stayed like that for quite a while. We didn't talk, we just cuddled and kissed each other.

After Zhan took a shower, he handed me an envelope and asked me to sign the papers inside. I wanted to read through them at first, but Zhan asked me to trust him, so I trusted him and signed these many documents. Then he put them back in the envelope and said, "With these documents, I will be able to help you. Your mother will soon make a new, hard, attempt to bring you back to the family."

"What exactly is she planning?" I asked, shocked.

"In a month there will be a court hearing to which you won't even be summoned because your presence is not necessary in this case. At that court hearing, your mother will file a motion to get your guardianship. She will claim that you are unable to differentiate right from wrong because of your emotions, that you are in bad shape, and that you are a danger to yourself. A doctor friend of your mother will file a false report confirming her claim and a judge friend of your mother will grant her petition. As soon as she has guardianship over you, she will have you committed to a psychiatric hospital. She's already enrolled you in that hospital as a precaution."

"Are you serious right now?"

"Yes, unfortunately. But don't worry, I won't let that happen. I'll help you. She won't get away with it."

"Zhan, how do you know all this?"

"Well, I know from your brother and Cheng. The two of them play their roles at home very well don't they? Unfortunately, they couldn't tell you until now that they keep their eyes and ears open at your parents' home. That's because your mother always has them monitoring when they're out."

"I see. So all that talk about you, from my brother wasn't serious?"

"Exactly. It was just an act."

"I could beat my mother to death. Honestly! Is she going completely crazy now?"

"Your mother is desperate. She's your mother, for one thing, and she loves you in her freaky way. And for another, she's a wife. Your father hasn't spoken to her since you left the family. He can't forgive himself for using you to help your mother. He doesn't know about her plans yet either. She hopes a few months in the psychiatric hospital will be enough for you to get your head straight and return to them as a part of the family. And if not by choice, well, she still has guardianship over you and can just decide where you'll live."

"You know Zhan. Aside from my shock at how sick in the head my mother is. I'm really happy right now. Because even though you still can't tell me directly that you love me. But you prove it to me. You take care of me and even help me. You wouldn't do that if you didn't love me, would you?"

"The day will come when I can tell you how I feel about you. But it's not time yet. Can you wait a little longer until we solve the problems around us?"

"I'll wait as long as it takes. It doesn't matter to me if that's today, tomorrow, or a year from now. I know that you love me. Because I can feel it and you keep showing it to me. I just hope you can forgive me someday."

"Forgive you? Yibo, I believe you that you didn't know what your father was up to. I believed you then. But I couldn't tell you that. It had been a difficult time and a difficult situation."

"So you never really hated me?"

"Yes, I did, for a while. Because I thought you should have noticed what your father was up to. But then I thought a lot and for a long time. And I wondered how you could have known. You could always trust your father and your best friend. There was never any reason for you to ever doubt them. So how could you have known? Still, it took me a long time before I was ready to talk to you again. That's because an incredible amount of things just happened all at once."

"ZhanZhan. I would be happy if we could put this past behind us. It might not be easy. But, it would be really nice. I would love to just be with you and pick up where we left off back then. I want us to trust each other, to be a couple, and I would also like to meet your daughter someday. I want to do all the things with you that normal couples do. I wish to hear from you someday to tell me that you love me."

"Yibo. Do you remember when I told you never to fall in love with me?"

"Yes, of course."

"Do you also know why I said that?"

"Because of your family?"

"No. The moment we first met in the bar and I didn't even know your name, I had already fallen for you. I saw you and I was smitten. Telling you not to fall for me was because I never wanted to get you involved in anything. I never wanted you to quit your job for me or break with your family. You were a very good special agent and I liked that about you. Because that's your profession. I wanted to get to know you better. But at the same time, I was afraid that if you told me you were in love with me, that I wouldn't be able to hold back my feelings for you. Because as I said, I never wanted to involve you anywhere."

Hearing these words from Zhan, I couldn't help but take him into my arms. I had tears of joy in my eyes, because Zhan loves me too, since the first time we met. I was important to him from the beginning and he thought about me and my life. For me, he wanted to suppress his own feelings. Just so as not to harm me. What greater proof of love could he have given me than to tell me this?

At that moment when I held Zhan in my arms and I was finally quite sure that he loved me, he even topped it off by saying, "Her name is Xiao Chen Lu. So, my daughter's name." At that moment, I would have loved to cry with joy because he finally trusted me to tell me his daughter's name.

"I hope I can meet her in person sometime soon. Thank you my dear." I replied happily.

"Soon I will introduce her to you, Yibo. Be patient a little while longer. I think you will like her very much. She wants to become a special agent and work for MI6. She wants to be a real secret agent. And if she keeps it up, she'll make it."

"Oh now I'm even more excited to meet her. I'd be happy to teach her everything I know."

"You Yibo?"

"Mhm?"

"Don't you want to be a special agent again?"

"Sure. But not in my father's agency anymore."

"Then we'll start an agency ourselves when this is all over. What do you think?"

"You want to start an agency?"

"Not me. We!"

"Um, okay. But it's not that easy."

"I know. But I'm absolutely sure we can do it."

"All right. If that's what you want, I'm in."

"We'll do it together." Replied Zhan. We sat cuddling on my bed, already fantasizing about our own agency. It was just great to make future plans together with Zhan.

Zhan and I spent the whole day together. We had been shopping together. We had gone to the movies together and even had dinner at a restaurant. We acted like a real couple and even took pictures of us as a couple in a photo booth. If this is what the future holds for us, then I can't wait.

And as for my mother, she will flip her lid. She's going to have me incapacitated? That's definitely not going to happen! She will get to know me properly yet!