I wasn't allowed to leave my parents' house until Monday morning. But only to go with my father to the agency, where I should talk with special agent Masu about my new mission.

On the weekend, which I actually wanted to spend with Zhan, Seungyoun brought me my things from the dormitory. He drove Zhan's car back to Yiling and no matter how many times I tried to call Zhan. I just couldn't reach him. Meanwhile, the battery of the cell phone died and I don't have a suitable charging cable at home. My cell phone was taken from me by my father.

When Seungyoun came to my room because he wanted to talk to me and also gave me my suitcases, I was so angry that I immediately threw him out of my room. I yelled, "Get out of my room. Get out of my life. Don't ever contact me again. We are not friends anymore! You knew all along why Ran really came and you lied to me. You all lied to me and used me. I don't want to see you anymore! Just go away!"

He tried to calm me down, but I just pushed him out of my room. I stayed in my room all weekend. When my brother called home, my dad handed me the phone and he asked me why he couldn't reach Zhan. I just said, "Ask dad, I have nothing more to say."

And the hell continued today on Monday morning. When my dad and I walked into the Agency, two agents met us in the hallway. In their midst, handcuffed, was Zhan! He looked at me very briefly and then avoided my gaze.

I tried to make eye contact with him to signal that it was not my fault and that I was sorry. But he didn't look at me. And that was the worst thing ever for me.

After Masu told me about the new mission, I passed the time in the Agency waiting for a good opportunity to go to the prisoner cells. When the opportunity finally presented itself, I went to the cells.

I was looking for Zhan. He was sitting in a cell with his father. I tried to talk to him, I told him I was sorry and that I never wanted or planned this. But Zhan didn't even look at me. His father also ignored me. In the other two cells, were his brothers Wen Xu and Wen Chao. They just laughed and Wen Chao shouted to me, "Once my little brother writes someone off, you won't get a second chance with him! You messed up and now he's punishing you for it. Just you wait, you won't get off that easy."

I ignored Wen Chao as much as I could and went back to addressing Zhan. He raised his head, came to the barred door, looked me in the eyes with a sinister look and said, "I will kill you Wang Yibo! I will hunt you down and I will kill you! Now get out of here!"

I grabbed Zhan's hand and said, "I'm sorry Zhan. It's my family. I didn't want this to happen. I can't let my mother go to jail, can I?"

"I don't care about any of that. Now let go of my hand before I break it."

"Listen, I'll figure out a way to get you out of here. You and your father. If you tell me what your daughter's name is and exactly where she is, I'll make sure she's okay."

"No need! You think we're not prepared for situations like this? Who do you think we are. Amateurs? Oh special agent Wang, we're not. And I promise you, as soon as I get out of here, I will hunt you down. I'll show you what happens to people who betray my trust. And you better stay away from my daughter! Don't get too close to her!"

I was about to say something else, but then Wen Rouhan suddenly collapsed with a roar. He was lying on the cell floor holding his head, screaming. I pressed the alarm button and help came immediately. Wen Rouhan was taken to the hospital. And before I left the cell block, Zhan shouted to me, "Die, my father. Die your whole family too!"

Two hours later, I learned that Wen Rouhan had a brain tumor and didn't have long to live. I already suspected that he was sick. These hints from Zhan, made me wonder and I was right in my guess. And I also learned that Zhan and his family, had already been in the cells since the day I left him for work.

Shortly after I left, they went to his place and arrested him. That's why I couldn't reach him. Since that day, he has been interrogated over and over again for several hours. But Zhan remains silent, just like his father and brothers.

I wonder if maybe Wen Qing and Wen Ning could help them?

In the evening when I was at home, in my own apartment, I sat on my sofa and thought about how I could help Zhan. But I could not think of anything. The very next day, around 11 am, I will leave for Prague with special agent Masu.

My new mission is an assignment from a businessman. He has the impression that one or more of his employees are spying on his company and selling information to third parties.

The businessman stated that this is the third time that a new product line that was supposed to be released has been released by another company. Or rather, that the patent was filed by the other company before the product line was even planned.

One time it could be a coincidence. But three times, it's intentional. And Masu and I have to find out which employee or employees have passed on the information and data. A challenging but boring case.

If it were up to me, I would stay here in Beijing and try to help Zhan. I know he hates me now. But I still want to help him and prove to him that I'm not behind this. That I didn't take advantage of Zhan's trust and didn't just sleep with him because I wanted to find evidence against his family's dealings.

But I doubt that Zhan will believe me. Even if I have proof. His look was so full of hatred that I can only doubt. If I had just not told anyone about Zhan, then this would never have happened. But I trusted my father and also my best friend. I could always trust them. Then why not now? Why did they have to abuse and destroy my trust like that?

But I also had to wonder the whole time how exactly Zhan was planning to get out of this? He said they were prepared for situations like this. But how exactly? Who can get them out of it? His sister and brother? Some member of a mafia or triad? Or something someone from the government? After all, they run the arms trade with the Wen's.

By the time I went to bed, it had been 1 am. I lay there staring at the ceiling. My thoughts were going around in circles. And whenever I turn on my side, I saw the last night together with Zhan in front of me, how we kissed and confessed to each other that if we weren't on different sides, we would probably allow ourselves to fall in love with each other.

But honestly, I had enough time over the weekend to think about my feelings for Zhan. I know that I'm in love with him. I know that I want to be with him. And I also know that we can never be a couple. It almost drives me crazy knowing that.

Why did it have to go so wrong? Couldn't we just be on the same side together and then allow and live out our feelings for each other? Does it really have to be this way?

I guess I must have fallen asleep then sometime around 3 am. Only three hours later, however, I had to get up again. And my first thought was the same as my last. Zhan! I took a shower, got dressed and ate a slice of bread with cheese before heading to work.

When I arrived at the Agency, many were very excited. I asked around what happened, but most couldn't tell me. I then went straight to Amal, who doesn't know anything about clothes but always knows what's going on. He waved me close to him when I asked him if anything happened. And then he whispered in my ear, "Last night the Minister of Defense came here and demanded the release of Xiao Zhan! And this morning Wen Rouhan died in the hospital. Who do you think will take over his business now? Wen Xu and Wen Chao are still here and probably won't be able to get back to freedom either."

I didn't even have time to react in any way when Special Agent Masu arrived with my father and they said we had to leave immediately, not at 11 am. "Xiao Zhan has vowed to take revenge on you. We take this threat very seriously." Said my father.

"And whose fault is that? Whose fault is it that Xiao Zhan wants to kill me? Mhm Dad?"

"Yibo, we don't have time for accusations now. Amal has already packed everything for you. You have to leave right away."

Masu grabbed me and dragged me with him until we were in front of the Agency and stopped, frozen, as Xiao Zhan stood there holding a gun right in front of my face. "I'm not pulling the trigger today. But I hereby prove to you in advance that I have no scruples and will kill you. Not yet today. Oh no, but the day will come and I promise you, you won't expect it any more than you do right now at this moment."

Zhan put his gun away, got into his car and drove away. I didn't breathe again until Zhan drove away. I have no doubt that he will fulfill his threat. Especially now that his father died.

Two agents drove Masu and me to the airport. Masu turned to me and asked, "Why didn't you tell him the truth when you were with him at the cell?"

I looked at him questioningly and he shrugged. "If I may be so honest. I think your mother should have been responsible for her wrongs. It's not like she's only been doing this for a few weeks. It's been eight years!"

"You know about that?"

"Mmm. I was the one who uncovered that she was bribeable. But I'm sure your dad didn't tell you that. I also know how the Wen's make their money and yes, it's Illegal. But for fuck's sake, they cleaned up the mess! They cleaned up the mess your mom left running."

"I know."

"If I were you, I'd take advantage of the mission right now and try to find a way to calm Xiao Zhan down again. I know he hates you right now. But I think this great hatred can only exist because he loves you. And if you, which I assume you do, love him as well. Find a way to get through to him."

"Why are you on my side?"

"Because I've been in a situation like that, too. I know how you feel. You feel torn between your family and your love for Xiao Zhan. You don't want to lose either of them. But you don't know how to do that."

"Oh yeah, good guess. But, how did it turn out for you?"

"Not well. Because I didn't had anyone to give me the advice to find a solution." Said Masu.

I just nodded. He was right. I have to find a way to let Zhan know what happened. And I have to let him know how I feel about him. I have to make him forgive me somehow. But in order to do that, I first have to find a way how to do that.