It was always her.

7 years after my plane was hijacked, I still remember how much I missed her. I was so scared that I wouldn't get to go back home and see Nicole. From the start, I knew she was the one. I wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with her and start a family with her.

When I was finally released, I called her as soon as I could. I didn't even try to hold back tears on my side of the phone because I knew she couldn't either. Getting to hear her gentle voice again was all I needed. 

We finally got to start that family, our daughter was the sweetest human I've ever gotten the privilege of knowing. Our friends and family all gathered together to celebrate our marriage. We moved into our dream house with a giant backyard big enough for more kids one day. I wish that day would've came.

We were so happy. I wish it could have stayed like that. The days started getting longer and nights started getting shorter until neither of us wanted to stay at the house we worked so hard to build. Work trips piled up on us and fans began to pry deeper into our relationship. I think we both temporarily quit YouTube a handful of times during those 7 years. I should've known better than to message the random girl whose video I saw online when I was 19. She should've known better than to trust me with her heart. We both should've known better than to keep secrets.

Sweet Jessica will be going into the third grade this year with either her mom or her dad dropping her off. I don't want to fight Nicole on which of us it gets to be but I know it will come up soon. At least I got to keep King, our German Shepherd. Our dream house has turned into an oversized nightmare with only myself and my regrets wandering the halls. I'm counting down the days until I get to play in the yard with Jessica again... and get to see Nicole. Even if just for a few minutes.

I'm sorry Nicole. I hope you've been able to forgive me, I forgive you.

- Ty