" I felt so elated to my core.

I wanted to enjoy this moment for a little time more

But as soon as the reality draws close,

I realise I was even more broken than I was before."

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            Rose's pov

I managed to escape from the monsters wrath. Or I think so because it was time to leave and I haven't seen his face till now.

Picking up my bag I decide to walk home.

Having every intention to avoid him.

When somewhere in my heart I knew, I couldn't escape him.After all my residence was his place.

While other staff members are given nice accomodation. I don't know why when I ask the lady incharge of this only gives me one answer.

" We are booked. We will let you know as soon the next vacancy clears up."

So leaving me with only one choice. I have to stay with him. Even though I rarely see him in his own house blame it on his random timings or the size of his castle like place.

I was quite comfortable in my stay.

Untill now.

Stomping my foot on the floor, I take a deep breath to settle myself on a side bench.

Who is to be blamed for it Rose?

Your stupid self left no stone unturned to get on his bad side.

Who are you blaming now?

Be thankful he didn't scold you in front of everyone. Or you would have been crying buckets right now.

Don't take advantage of him just because he is nice to you.

Remember we are homeless and penniless without him.

You guessed it right. It was my conscience talking to me. I wanted to refute but I couldn't.

It was right.

Did I really cross the safe boundaries?

But he was so arrogant with me. He even stole the money from my pocket and -

It's the other way round. You stole his money. He was just getting his thing back.

But he cornered me in the lift and touched me-

Who are you lying to girl? Tell me you didn't like it when he touched you.

I bet you are just jealous of his new secretary -

Agghh! Just shut up conscience! You are giving me a headache.

Placing my palms on my ear. I breathe heavily. I think I am really going crazy.

Taking in a deep breaths I open my eyes to finally enjoy some peace. Picking up my bag, I decide to continue my journey on foot.

Suddenly feeling peachy.

My actions reflect on me and suddenly I had this urge to cry.You know in our life there are times when we want to forget about everything. All the pains, all the struggles, all the bills and all the burdens.

We just want to laugh and enjoy.

To live in the moment.

And I was doing just that. Chuckling remembering that scene of people running around screaming eat, when suddenly my life two days back reflects on me.

How I was eating left over food.

And suddenly my smile drops and tears replace them. That smile on my lips gets replaced by my cries and I just sit down on the pavement.

Hugging my knees.

Why ? Why do I have to get a life like this?

I can't even smile without worrying about what will happen next.

Why did my life has to be so miserable.

We weren't rich. My family was in the middle class. We never got the best toys, but mom made sure to buy us some. This rat was one of them.

I remember I used to prank rain with it.

And she always got scared of it.

But after they left us, Dad's debts left me struggling to make the ends me. I had to sell everything, yet it was never enough.

And soon me and Rain only fell further and further into this never ending loop of poverty.

All our relatives turned their back on us.

It was just us and me taking care of both of us. I really forgot how it felt to laugh. Today I laughed like this after years.

But then the fear of something bad happening to even it out...the fear of losing all the reasons to smile.

Brings me back here.

In this state of melancholy.

Some by walkers were giving my strange looks as to why a young women was crying her heart out at the side of the road.

And I sober myself up.

Cleaning my tears to make my way towards his mansion. He was rude, he was arrogant, he was controlling.

But despite everything he was there when there was no one.

And I should have been thankful for that.

I shouldn't have behaved that way. I acted no less than a spoilt girl who got her ego bruised because she didn't get what she wanted.

She didn't get to quit a job.

Which was giving her food, clothes, roof and everything one could ask for.

I was wrong. I realised.

And cleaning those tears from my eyes, I nod in determination.

I was going to ask forgiveness from him.

I guess it was the right thing to do.
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I reach the mansion to not find him anywhere. Stopping the maid, I asked her instead.

" Have you seen Sir Victor? Is he back?"

" No Miss Rose. Sir hasn't arrived yet. Do you want me to convey something?"

I just shake my head in a no. Giving her a small smile.

" No it's fine. I guess I will wait."

Sitting on the dining table, I look up at the watch to see it was 7 pm.
A sad smile makes way on my lips realising the irony.

Just few hours back I was running from him like anything and now? I am waiting for him.

I don't remember how long I kept sitting there in silence. With my head resting on my arm, I yawn to close my eyes.

And soon sleep overtook me.
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" Umm ahh...ahh mor..e.. don't...stop... please...ahh"

I wake up to some strange noises and I groan in my sleep to open my blurried sleep laden eyes. Rubbing my eyes, I narrow my gaze at the source.

To see two figures doing something, in the hallway.

Soon my vision clears and what I saw made me mouth to open and vocal cords to freeze.

A women.

And not just any women.

It was that Secretary with green eyes.

She was half naked. Her blouse lowered and those perfectly bunned hair sprawled in all the directions.

She was moaning.

Her body pressed to the wall and the person hovering over her had a very familiar white shirt on.

" Fuc* Victor more!"

She literally begged as he kisses her neck. His hands roaming overwhere and I gulp.

Blinking.

Look away stupid! Don't see! You won't be able to sleep.

My conscience says but I couldn't help it. My eyes were glewed. Not ready to look away as I feel a warmness rush to my cheeks.

Thankfully the kitchen light was off, so they couldn't see me till they , you know looked properly looked.

But I could see everything.

" Remove it."

He says tugging on her bra. His voice heavy and hoarse. And I gulp hearing the dominance laced in his tone.

Feeling a strange wetness between my own legs.

" H...here?"

She says, consciously. Moving her hands on her chest. When he pins her hands above her head. Making her gasp.

" Yes. Right here. Right now. Take it off."

She gulps moving her fingers towards the strap. Biting on her lip and I feel my own heart ready to come out of my chest.

What am I doing here?

Why am I seeing this?

It's so wrong of me to be here

Why can't I move?

What if I run...what if I disturb them and they catch me.

Staying still like a statue. I just keep sitting there. My breathing turning more rugged with every passing second.

" Faster"

He commands. And when she still chooses to do it seductively and slowly. His patience runs short and next I know he pulls down her bra roughly to push her towards his room.

Slamming the door shut after him.

Deadly silence follows with no voices audible after that. And I was finally able to move from my place.

Picking up a glass of water with my trembling hands and pouring water in it from the jar.

I gulp the liquid.

Trying to digest what the hell happened here.

When the image of what they must be doing now flashes in my mind and I shake my head. Scolding myself.

Stop! Just stop thinking about it! It's normal. That's what everyone does right.

It's how babies are made remember. It's how you were born.

It's nothing wrong.

But does Sir Victor want to have babies with her?

Aghhh! They just do it for babies Rose! They also do it for fun stupid girl!

Damn man! I am going crazy already.

Placing my palms on my burning cheeks. I take deep breaths and decide to retreat to my room.

But not before looking at his closed door over my shoulder.

Horny humans! Aghhh!

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The next morning I get ready and step down to have my heart race as I saw the same secretary in the kitchen.

She was just in his shirt and she didn't seemed to be wearing anything under.

Making what looked like coffee for herself.

She looks up at me to give me a wide smile.

" Hey! I have seen you in the office. I am Lisa"

She says offering her hand and I give her an awkward smile. Almost getting blinded by her beauty.

How can some girls look so beautiful when they just woke up.

Is she wearing make up?

I don't think so.

" Hi I...am Rose."

I was surprised she knew who I was. I mean most people don't give me a second look.

" Well to be honest. I didn't know you work in the office."

" It's just Vic told me last night that he shared this huge place with a girl he found on the streets."

" He is such a great man at heart. I mean who would pick up just anyone from the streets and give them a place to work in, food to eat, house to live it."

" He is really a keeper. I hope we didn't disturbed you last night."

It felt like something broke inside me. It wasn't a lie though. It was the truth but it hurt like sh*t! The fact that he will tell others that he picked me up from a street.

Maybe this was his revenge for the prank I pulled the other day.

But who was I lying.

He was a busy man. He had more important, powerful and beautiful people in his life.

Why would he care for a nobody like me.

" No...of course not. Our...rooms are on different floor."

" What a relief! Anyways nice meeting you Rose."

" Will see you in office."

With this she pats my shoulder and leaves. And I just stare at my cereal bowl in sadness.

Having lost my appetite.

The regret for what I did to him was there. But the girls words only added fuel to it.

It brought me back to the reality.

It showed me that no matter what I do. I will never matter to a man like him.

I should just do my work , try to keep this job and fill my stomach.

What happened in that elevator may have left me sleepless.

His closeness left me breathless.

But for him. I was just any other girl. I was replaceable. Just like he replaced the position with this new girl.

And already fuc*ed her.

He helped me and I should be thankful for it. Getting up with a heavy heart.

I approached his door to do what I never thought I would do.

Knocking on his door, I hear shuffling from the other side.

And as soon as he opened the door.

I am met with irritated grey orbs that look at me in confusion. There was no softness in them like earlier.

And I fumble with my hands to have my heart stop.

Seeing him just in his towel.

His naked chest visible with drops of water falling down on his body from his wet hair.

" Why are you here?"

He asks, with anger laced in his voice and I just give him a small smile. To get no reaction from him.

" Can...can we talk?'

He searches my eyes for something. And then the very next second he pushes open the door for me.

Walking away from me while drying his hair with the towel.  Looking in the mirror.

" Hurry up. I don't have ti-"

" I am sorry"

I blurt out and his hand stills. Meeting my eyes in the mirror. He clenches his fist and the words he spoke next made me wish I just hadn't come to the lion's den uninvited.

" Close the door."