The next morning, I woke up early to get up and make breakfast. Julian was watching cartoons as I poured him a bowl or cereal and handed it to him.

"Thank you." He said, making me smile.

"You're welcome baby." I said kissing the top of his head. I made coffee, eggs, bacon, potatos, toast. Enough to feed an army. I was starving by the time Paul walked into the room. His hair was damp from the shower. Shirtless and just in his nice black trousers. I giggled as he kissed my cheek.

"Aww you make me brekky?"

"I made myself brekky. But I guess if you're here, I might as well share." I smiled handing him a plate. He laughed and began eating as I sat next to him.

I was eating when the phone rang. Paul leaned over and picked it up.

"Ello?"

It was quiet for a few seconds as he stayed silent. He sighed.

"Yeah she's 'ere. I know John but...I dunno. Hold on."

He handed the phone to me. I took it and held it to my ear. "Hello?" I knew who it was. I really dont know why I said hello. 

"Hi. I um...I was wondering when you were coming back." 

He sounded sad. Like he really missed me. I shook my head. 

"Did she spend the night?" 

A pause. I scoffed. "Jesus John."

"What was I supposed to do!? I mean you lied to me! You're acting like i'm the bad person now!? You fuckin lied to me about the baby! Ye told me you lost it and I believed you for a fuckin month Lucy!"

"I know what I did was wrong okay? But you act like having an affair isn't??"

It was quiet for a few seconds. I chewed on my lip until he spoke.

"I want to see ye. We need to talk. Just you and me alright? I promise I won't start anything."

I looked at Paul and back down at my food. "Okay John. We'll talk."

"Good. Lucy?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you."

I shut my eyes and took a breath. "I love you too John. I'll be by in an hour or so."

and with that, I hung up. I poked at my food and looked up at Paul. "I don't want to go."

"Ye have to love. Look, I ave to take care of a few things with Brian this afternoon. If things don't go well with John...here."

He handed me a key. "You're welcome to stay here for now."

I smiled and leaned over, wrapping my arms around his neck. "Thank you Paul. I love you."

"I love you too Luce."

..

Paul took Julian off with him as I went down to mine and John's. I walked in and looked around,

"John?" I called out. I walked in the living room and saw him sitting on the sofa. I sat next to him and tucked a strand of hair behind my ear.

"Hi." He said. I nodded.

"Hello John. You wanted to talk."

He leaned over, putting out his cigarette and sat back. "I want to talk about us."

I felt a nervous pain in my stomach. "Yeah? What about us?"

He let out a long sigh and scratched the back of his head. "You know what I mean Lucy. I want us to be honest with each other."

"I've always been honest with you John. When we got married, I thought maybe you'd change. You'd stop being that John Lennon who went out with women every weekend."

"I'm not that man anymore Lucy.."

"I trusted you. I want a husband John. Not a fuckin musician who thinks he can just play me the way you were this whole time!"

I hated pregnancy. It didnt take much for the waterworks to start up.

"Lucy please don't cry."

"Why not? I have feelings John. I tried to change. I was good to you. I ignored the heat from the media. I ignored the stupid comments from fans. All for you. You slep with my friend John..."

"I know what I did was wrong. I hurt you and betrayed you. I dont expect you to forgive me for that. But I would like to change things."

"It's too late for that John. I can't do this anymore." I shook my head and wiped my tears as I cried.

"Lucy please.." He wrapped his arms around me and held me. I missed the feeling of his body against mine. Even though I was mad at him, something about the way he felt made me feel warm inside. Like I was whole. But I couldn't let him in.

I pulled away and looked at him. "Do you love her?"

He shook his head. "No Lucy."

"You will though. You want to."

"Luce what are you trying to say?" 

"I think we should take a break. Just for a few months. Just enough for you to...to fall out of love with me."

He shook his head. "That's impossible.." 

"John please. This is hard enough as it is. I love you so much but...we can't keep hurting each other. It's not healthy." 

He nodded and kissed me. I kissed him slowly and a few seconds later, pulled away. I wiped my eyes and took a deep breath. 

"I wish things didnt have to be this way." He whispered. 

I sniffled and looked at him. "I'm staying at Paul's for the rest of the weekened. Paul's breaking things off with Michelle later on tonight. For good."

John nodded and sighed. "I always ruin things don't I? I ruin my marriages, I always hurt the people I love...I push away the love of my life.."

"John please don't do this. Dont make me feel guilty. I feel bad enough already I..."

I shook my head and held in my tears. "You made me this way. You made me be cruel to you. All I ever did was love you and you always hurt me. This isnt normal John. I may not have always been a good girl, but I sure as hell try to change my life around." 

"We can still be that married couple we were Lucy. I can leave her. I can change too. Please don't go.." 

"John please.." I said between tears. 

"Lucy I love you so much I can't go on without you.." 

"John.." 

"I'm sorry. That's all I can say. I'm so so sorry." 

I leaned over and kissed him. He pulled me into his arms and kissed me hard. Our lips moved in sync while our hands roamed. I didnt want to let go. That was until She walked into the room. 

"John I was wondering if I could stay..." She trailed off. I pulled away and looked over at her. I laughed to myself and shook my head.

"My god. I almost fell for it again. Sure Michelle. You can stay here as long as you'd like. I'm moving out anyways." I stood up and grabbed my purse. "Goodbye John. Have fun yeah?"

I stormed out of the house, slamming the door behind me. I slammed the car door shut and let out a scream as I threw my purse to the side. I burst into tears and rested my head on the wheel as I cried my heart out.

..

I walked into Paul's, and ran to the restroom, puking into the toilet. I felt dizzy as I sat up and breathed heavily. After I finished, I flushed, brushed my teeth and took my pills. I felt a little better.

Walking into the hallway, I saw him walk into the house, little Julian running over to the tv to watch more batman. He shrugged out of his coat and saw me. I didnt even say a word as I ran over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around my waist as we kissed. 

I need him right now. He needed me. We both knew it.

..

I told Paul everything that happened between me and John. He told me how Michelle met him at the studio earlier and wanted to end things. Paul agreed that it was best. But also told her, what she was doing was wrong. He didnt tell me what she responded. I didnt want to know.

I was eating ice cream and sitting on the sofa after setting Julian in bed and reading him to sleep. Paul walked in the room, taking his coat off.

"Is this the right one?" He asked handing me the bag of cookies. I smiled and looked at the packaging.

"Yes. Thank you."

He let out a sigh of relief and plopped down on the sofa. "Finally!"

I giggled and opened the bag, eating one with my ice cream. I offered him one and he took it.

"I appreciate you spending an hour looking for my cookies Paul."

"Yeah well, ye kinda pushed me. I got scared a little bit when ye threatened to chop my testicles off."

I laughed and shoved a cookie in my mouth. "Well, it was worth it."

Paul chuckled and watched me as I smiled and ate another spoonful of ice cream.

"It's good to see ye smiling again. You're beautiful" He said. I looked at him and tapped the tip of his nose with my spoon.

"Oh stop it McCartney."

"It's true. Ye are."

I blushed and smiled, biting my lip. He leaned over and kissed me, trailing his kisses down, over my jawline, to my neck. I giggled as his mustache tickled my skin. I set the carton of ice cream aside and moved my fingers into his hair.

"Paul...take me to the bedroom." I whispered. He nodded and picked me up, carrying my upstairs.

....

A/N: Okay all, I know I've been doing these lately. But this will be my final one unless I have something important to say. I just want to thank @Enchancer97 for making me a new cover for this story and my first one, Devil in her heart. Thank you so much! I also want to thank my readers for voting and commenting. I love reading comments and getting feedback on my chapters. I love you all :)