October 14, 1966

I fixed my hair and slipped on the black, see through lingerie. I examined myself in the mirror and smiled, rather pleased with my outlook. I layed back on the bed and let one of the straps fall off my shoulder. I just hope John remembered what today was.

A few minutes later he walked in breathing a sigh of relief. He kicked off his shoes.

"The lad is finally asleep. Took awhile but we should finally ha...." he trailed off when he saw me. He looked at me in awe as I sat up and crawled over to him.

"Finally what baby?" I asked innocently.

"Finally have s..some time a..alone." he stuttered. I giggled and sat up on my knees, running a hand through my hair.

"I miss you John. My body misses you." I said seductively. He bit his lip and walked over to me, sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Yeah? What else does it miss?"

I smiled and laid back, shrugging out of my lingerie and opening my legs. His eyes widened as he scanned my naked body. Moving my hand between my legs, I teased my clit with my fingers.

"Mmmm. I miss your cock baby. I miss the taste of it. I miss the way you fuck me all night. The way it feels when you come inside me." I whispered, still rubbing myself. I heard him moan softly.

I looked over at him and smiled as he rubbed the front of his trousers. I stopped and sat up, crawling over to him. He watched as I unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans slowly. He lifted up, pulling them down around his ankles, along with his briefs.

"There he is." I smirked. He laughed a little and moved his hand over the back of my head as I took his entire length into my mouth. He moaned quietly, pulling my hair. I bobbed my head up and down, tasting his precum. I missed this.

"...Get up." He whispered minutes later. I obeyed and was quickly pushed onto my stomach on the bed. He quickly undressed and climbed on me. I gripped the bedsheets as he thrust into me roughly. His body on mine as he rocked his hips, moving in and out. I breathed heavily, shutting my eyes.

"Is this what you missed love?" Another hard thrust. I gasped.

"Yes." I whispered.

"Louder." He grunted.

"Yes!" I shouted. He smirked and bit down on my shoulder. I was pinned down on my stomach, in complete bliss. My clit rubbing against the mattress with every move.

"Oh John...fuck me harder baby." I begged. He breathed against my ear and pounded into me. I moaned into the pillows and felt my body heating up. He buried his face in the back of my neck as he kept up the steady pace.

"Mmm daddy's being a bad boy isn't he?" I smirked. He moaned as I spoke.

I threw my head back and moaned out as I began to explode. My body tingled and shook as I came. I couldn't even breath. John always knew how to make it that good.

John kissed my back as he came inside. His warm liquid running down my thighs. I could feel the sweat drip off his forehead, onto my back.

He pulled out and layed back next to me. I wrapped my leg over his waist and rested my head on his chest.

"I fuckin love you." He breathed. I smiled to myself and looked up at him.

"I love you too Johnny." I giggled.

"Were even better than we were nine years ago." He said. I kissed his chin.

"You remembered."

"Of course I remembered. How could I forget about the most important day of my life? I remember how forward I was with ye. It was clear I was buggin ye. But all I kept thinkin that day in class was, I have to have her. She's the most beautiful bird I have ever seen. Nine years later, look at us."

I climbed on top of him and snuggled against his body as he wrapped his arms around me.

"Still the charmer Lennon. I led you on quite a bit."

"I noticed. You invited me in."

"And you always stayed." I sat up and looked down at him. He closed his eyes and smiled as I brushed my thumb over his eyebrows.

"Nine years and, I never asked. Why do ye do that?" He opened his eyes and looked at me. I smiled and leaned down, my face resting next to his.

"Because the first day I saw you, it was the first feature I noticed. Simple as that." I shrugged. He chuckled and squeezed me.

"Are ye happy were married?" He asked. I nodded and closed my eyes.

"The happiest woman in the world. I didn't marry a rock n roll musician. I married John Lennon. Remember that." I whispered. I felt his lips press onto mine. I kissed back and smiled.

..

Me and John were sound asleep in each others arms when I heard a small tapping on our bedroom door. I woke up, rubbing my eyes and looked at the alarm clock.

2:12 am

I yawned and got out of bed, putting on a long shirt over my naked body and opened the door. Little Julian standing with Lucy in his arms.

"I had a bad dweam." He pouted. I kneeled down and brushed his hair away from his eyes.

"Aw come here baby." I picked him up and walked him back to the bed with me and John. I laid down under the covers as he followed. Julian snuggled into my arms and hugged me. I smiled.

"Tell me about your dream." I said sleepily, playing with his hair. He sniffled.

"It was about daddy."

"What about daddy?" I asked.

"Daddy was gone."

I blinked and looked at him. He looked up at me, tears rolling down his cheeks. I wiped them away with my thumb.

"What do you mean gone?" I asked quietly.

"He went away to heaven. Everyone was sad. I don't want daddy to go away." He hugged me tighter. I sighed and held him. I kissed the top of his head.

"Daddy isn't going anywhere okay? He's staying right here. It was just a dream okay?"

He nodded and rubbed his eyes.

"Look at me." I said, he looked up at me. "Daddy will be okay. I promise. See."

I picked him up to see John snoring. Julian giggled. I smiled.

"Nothing to worry about. Let's get some sleep okay? You have school tomorrow." I said laying him back down next to me.

"I dun't want to go."

"You have too baby. Or your mommy will be angry with me." I sighed.

"Do I have to?" He looked up at me and gave me puppy dog eyes. I melted.

"Well, maybe one day gone won't hurt." I said. "But shhh, it's our little secret okay?"

"Okay mumy." He snuggled in my arms again and smiled.

I looked down at him. "What did you call me?"

"Mum...yyyy." He said sleepily. I smiled and squeezed him against my body, making him giggle.

"Good night baby." I whispered.

"Goo night." He answered.

....

The next morning consisted of cartoons and painting. Julian painted on the easle as I kneeled behind him, showing him how to paint a bird. John came into the room and snapped a picture of us. I smiled.

"Saving memories are we?"

He shrugged. "Why not. Richard let me borrow it. I snapped a few of you and Julian asleep this mornin. Ye's looked cute."

"This little guy is the cute one. Aren't you!" I said in a silly voice and tickled Julian. He giggled as we fell back on the floor and goofed around. John laughed and came over to us, joining in on the tickle fight.

"Daddy stop it!"

"Not until you tell me ye love me!"

"I wuv you I wuv you!" He laughed. I kissed his cheek and sat him in my lap.

"Come on. Let's get you washed up alright? Then we can go down to the toy store okay?"

He jumped up and down and pulled me by the hand. "I don't want to be alone."

I kissed his cheek. "I'll be in in a second." I said. He nodded and ran off. I cleaned up the paints and set things back in their place. I noticed John watching me. I blushed.

"What?"

"You're different." He said. I looked at him.

"Is that good or bad." I asked nervously. He smiled.

"Good actually. You're good with Julian. The little bugger loves ye. Anytime he's around, he brings out a side to ye I've never seen before."

I smiled and looked down. "I love kids. I always wanted one of my own. That's what I want John. A family. Mine was taken from me. And now, I can't even make one for myself. Did you know last night, Julian called me mommy? Wanna know somethin?"

He nodded.

"I never felt so loved in my whole life. I felt warm inside like, my whole world lit up. Something only a mother can feel. I know Julian isn't mine but, It doesn't stop me from loving him."

John smiled and leaned over, kissing me. "I love you."

I blushed. "I love you too."

We were about to kiss again when Julian interrupted us. "I'm ready!"

I giggled and stood up. "See you later Lennon."

..

John was gone when we got back home three hours later. I noticed the small note on the table.

I'm sorry I had to leave unexpectadly. Brian called for me and the mates to come down for a meetin. Hopefully I'll be back before Cyn comes for Julian. If not, give him all my loving. No pun intended.

      -Love J,L

I sighed and set the note down, taking my coat off. Julian didn't seem to notice John gone. He just plopped on the sofa and let Lucy lick his ice cream. He was about to lick it when I ran over and stopped him.

"No no no baby. You can't eat that if the kitty licked it." I said grabbing the cone out of his hands. He pouted.

"Why not?" He was on the verge of tears now. I felt bad.

"Because it'll make you sick okay? Here, have mine." I handed him mine, I had set on the table. He pouted.

"You don't 'ave one now." He said sadly. I sat next to him.

"We'll share okay?"

He smiled and took a lick, then handed it to me. We did this back and forth until it was finished.

I cleaned his mouth with tissue, when there was a loud knocking on the door. I ran over and answered it. Cynthia looked me up and down and made a face.

"What are you doing here still??" She asked. I completely forgot. She still didn't know about me and John being married. All the media knew was that me and John were dating.

"I um, live here now." I said.

"Where's Julian? I went over to pick him up at school and I was informed he never even showed!" She yelled. I held my hands up for her to calm down. Julian peeking from behind the sofa. He looked adorable.

"Ah! There he is! My baby!" She ran over and picked him up. I swallowed and watched as she grabbed his things and walked back over to me.

"Lucy!" Julian yelled. Cyn looked confused.

"He means his kitten. John gave it to him as a gift." I smiled handing Julian the little feline. Cyn shook her head.

"No. I'm afraid he can't accept it. Julian, give her the kitty."

I bit my lip and watched as Julian pouted. "Noo. He's mine! Daddy gave her to me!"

"Now!" She yelled. He began to cry as he handed Lucy to me. I sighed.

"Come on, just let him keep the kit..."

"I said no. Who do you think you are?? Taking over like you own everyone and everything?? This is my son. Not yours! Remember that for next time. All ye are is a bad influence! Ye dress like a little whore, in a mini dress and heels to take him out? You and John buy him lavish gifts just to make yourselves look like the good parents. Ye know nothing about bein a mother. So fuck off my son and let his real mother take care of him. You and John don't deserve a child of your own." She glared at me. I felt heartbroken as Julian stared at Lucy sadly. I sniffled and was about to speak when John came from around the corner, looking pissed off.

"Take Julian Lucy. Me and Cynthia need to have a chat out here." He said angrily. He wiped my tear and gave me a small kiss, then kissed Julian on the cheek.

"Can I have Lucy now?" Julian asked. I nodded and sat him down on the sofa again. Lucy purring in his lap. I leaned against the front door and listened as the arguing began. Hearing John telling Cynthia to fuck off was music to my ears.

.....