삼십사 | CHAPTER 34.
he loves me or not.

Taehyung pushed Jackson out of the room not wanting to talk about anything at the moment.

"Just leave, Wangie." Taehyung slammed the door and knelt down only to cover his face with both his palms and stared crying.

Th brunette choked back a tear and pushed himself harshly on the door. hugging his knees tightly, he buried his face, "Why do I need to make all this difficult?"

"If I can't let him in my life then how did I fall in love?" Taehyung murmured under his breath and started getting frustrated. Throwing his hands in the air he pulled himself up, "Why is this so complicated?"

He rushed to the washroom and stared at himself in the mirror.

Pathetic! he thought and looked away from himself. Disappointed.

"Jeongguk loves you. You told you love him then how can't you trust him? Why can't you let yourself be dependent on him, Kim Taehyung?" the brunette glared at himself in the mirror. The reflection of himself in the mirror made him feel more bad.

"If you can't trust him, you don't love him." Taehyung looked down. Held the basin for support and started crying loudly.

"Bad boy my foot! You are just a coward." Taehyung punched the mirror too hard causing it to crack a little but still didn't break.

The pain in his knuckles was nothing compared to what's going inside him.

He cried for a while standing in front of the mirror. After calming down a bit, he splashed some water on his face and walked out.

He needed to study too. His finals are knocking at the door. The tension, the stress was just too much for him.

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Jeongguk sighed walking back to his dorm. He weakly smiled at the red rose that he bought even if he didn't want to. He debated a lot before just going in and buy it.

He sighed for the second time before walking in the room only to find the other focused on the book.

"Hey." Jeongguk greeted and Taehyung took a brief glance at him before again focussing on his book, "Hey."

Taehyung though didn't turn to see but surely watched the red rose that Jeongguk placed on the nightstand.

The colour of the fresh rose was too vibrant to not notice.

The brunette finally asked after some minutes who that rose belonged to. Did someone propose Jeongguk while he was out? Did he buy it for him?

"Whom is that rose for, Gguk?"

Jeongguk looked over his shoulder and gave him a small yet sweet smile, "That rose. Someone asked out."

Jeongguk lied.

He just wanted to see the other's reaction and it was quite priceless.

"Eh. Boy or girl?" Taehyung widened his eyes and now turned his whole body sideways to face Jeongguk who was smiling at the frown tugged on the brunette's face.

"It's a boy." Jeongguk lied once again.

"How dare he? Like we didn't officially break up. Look at his audacity! He asked you out knowing you are Kim Taehyung's boyfriend." Taehyung crossed his arms around his chest and pouted.

"You jealous?" Jeongguk asked.

Taehyung stayed silent before hanging his head low. after about a minute or so he again looked up and made a intense eye contact with the other.

"About the 'I love you' I said, that's probably not true. If I can't don't want you around, then how can I love you?" Taehyung clarified and Jeongguk nodded, "Honestly felt this coming, babe."

"Good." Taehyung commented and the other picked the rose from the nightstand.

"He loves me." Jeongguk said pulling one petal off the rose before reaching for the other, "He loves me not."

"He loves me." Jeongguk continued while the brunette just stared at the text book but hardly he read a word cause his whole focus was on Jeongguk talking to the rose.

The raven head continued and it took him a while to pick all the petals from the rose.

"He loves me.."

"He loves me not..."

"He loves me!" Jeongguk pulled the last petal and smiled so widely.

The rose was killed for the second time so mercilessly but still Jeongguk was smiling.

Taehyung on the other hand stared at the notebook and will never admit that he smiled hearing it.

"I do not, asshole."

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probably the book will have some more chapters than i planned and might get a little longer. hope you guys don't mind :)