haeryung's point of view

i let out a sigh as i put the white lily that i bought earlier on the dull-look grave.

"hi, mom.", i mumbled with a sad smile plastered on my face and my eyes already tearing up.

yoongi was sitting beside me while holding my left hand as namjoon sat beside my other side and holding my right hand. both of them gave me a light squint on my hands, trying to flow some energy into me.

i turned to my both side and granted them a weak smile. i turned my attention back on mom's grave.

"we came to visit you, mom.", i said as i tried to contained my tears from coming out.

i gulped before granted a sad smile again toward the non-living grave and wished,

"happy birthday, mom."

i heard namjoon's sniff right beside me but i didnt turn to look at him as i know exactly what he was feeling. yoongi's grip on my hand got tighten than before, maybe he also tried to contain his feeling and i dont mind it.

"we brought you a present. its our family frame. its cute, isnt it?", i said with a cracked voice as tears already flowing out from my puffy eyes but a smile still didnt fade from my face.

"i-its not cute at all. mom, i told them that green color suit you better but namjoon said pink suited you more. pink got no swag- i mean, youre my mom and youre swag so green suit you more-"

"shes my mom too, you know.", namjoon suddenly cut yoongi's words off and wiped his tears too before gave him a stern look.

yoongi huffed then argued with namjoon while wiped his tears, "geez, you got no quality to be in swag generation family. so back off."

namjoon gasped then argued back, "excuse me, at least i got more jams than you, lazy ass grandpa."

yoongi chuckled then replied, "duh, you can buy jams in the supermarket. they are everywhere. but you cant buy swag. no-uh."

"you-"

"can you guys stop? we are visiting mom right now, in case if both of you forgot.", i said with a sigh then started plucking some dead grasses out from mom's grave.

both yoongi and namjoon sighed later then they also helped me clean the grave.

"i miss you, mom.", yoongi muttered while caressed the grave with a weak smile.

"i miss you too, mom.", namjoon mumbled while also caressing the grave with a sad smile.

a smile plastered on my face then i wiped my tears away and said, "we all miss you, mom. i miss you. dad miss you. yoongi and namjoon miss you. we all miss you, mom."

both yoongi and namjoon nodded in sync when they heard me.

after a few minutes of sparing times talking with mom, three of us stood up and bid a goodbye toward mom.

"see you next time, mom. hope you have a great and nice time up there.", i said with a weak smile before turning my back and walked away with the boys after they done bidding a goodbye to mom.

we walked toward dad's car and saw he was leaning on the car while arms crossed on his chest.

"dad. we're done.", i claimed as i gave him a sincere smile.

dad turned to look at three of us then gave us a wide smile before replied, "okay. wait for me here. im going to visit her for a minutes."

we nodded, understand that dad need a private moment with mom right now. dad smiled then walked pass us and towards the way where we came just now.

"arhh~ im sleepy. im going to sleep in the car. dont disturb me.", yoongi suddenly exclaimed as he opened the car's back door and went in.

i turned to look at namjoon and i saw he also wanted to hop in to the car but stopped when he saw i was standing on the same spot.

"haeryung-ah, arent you cold? lets wait in the car.", namjoon said while looked at me.

i shook my head lightly before granted him a small smile, "i think.. um i want to walk around a bit. tell dad that i will be back home before night."

namjoon sighed then nodded and gave me a smile, "be careful."

i nodded and turned around. i let out a sigh before started walking around the neighborhood.

fortunately, my house is not that far from this place. it is in different district but still it is close since my house was at the end of my district's road.

the busy road and the chirping birds couldnt take my attention even a bit. my thoughts were full with mom and our family memories. i thought of how times passed by without we even realise it. how precious times are and how regret we will be if we didnt spend it very well.

my vision started getting blurry as I clenched my heart to avoid myself from screaming out loud until my lungs burst and shout how much i miss mom and how regret am i cuz i didnt get to tell her how much i love her, how much i adore her, how much i need her, how much i want her right by my side now, how much-

a tear finally escaped from my already wet eyes. i quickly wiped it.

i just kept walking and walking as i dont even know nor care where my legs dragged me to. i kept walking while looked down on the ground. tears already threatened to come out more and more, from my eyes. i tried to contain it but failed again as a drop and few drops later started to flow again from my eyes and fell on the ground.

as i was walking while silently tearing up. i sighed and wiped my tears when i suddenly bumped onto someone and both of us whined hurt when our shoulders made contact with each other.

"i-im sorryㅡ", both of us apologized at the same time and both of us quickly looked up as we recognized each other voices.

"jimin?"

"haeryung!"

i smiled at jimin as he also recognized me. i looked down at him and saw a lot of snacks in a plastic bag that he held in his hands.

"um, you seems busy. sorry for stopping you. go ahead.", i said with a small smile then was about to walk away when i suddenly felt a grip on my arm.

i turned back and made eyes contact with jimin again.

"me and taehyung are playing over at jungkook's house. so um if youre not busy, why dont you come over too?", jimin offered as he showed me his pretty eyesmiles.

"err..", i was debating whether to join them or not since it feels like i might interrupt their meeting but when i was about to decline jimin's offer, he already pulled me and dragged me away.

"lets go before they scold me for being late.", jimin said while pulling me with him.

w-waitㅡ

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i tried to catch my breath as we finally stopped walking.

"jimin, you really shouldntㅡ", when i was about to scold him suddenly he dragged me again and i mentally cursed.

we came for a second stop and i looked up while still catching my breath. i just realised that we are now standing right infront of jungkook's house.

"jimin, wait-"

i was too late when jimin already slammed the door's house opened and he dragged me in.

"guys! im back!", jimin shouted out loud while searching for the boys.

my eyes also wandered around the house searching for the boys- especially jungkook. jimin's eyes stopped exactly on two figures that were sitting right infront of the tv. i chuckled softly when i saw the two boys were bickering about the game station that they were playing.

"yah, taetae! youre cheating!"

"whut? im not! and you dont call your hyung by yah!"

"idc and yes you are!"

"im not!"

"you are!!"

"kook! dont hit me! im trying to concentrate here!"

"you cheater! im not gonna let you win!"

i tried to contained my laugh as long as possible as jimin already shook his head in disbelief.

"this idiots- do they even notice that we are here?", jimin said then chuckled lightly.

i just shrugged as i stared at jungkook as he still trying to make taehyung lose in the game.

i didnt know that he has this childish side of him before. its so cute.

jimin gave me a signal to wait here which i did. then i saw he walked towards the bickering boys.

"yah! i said im back!", jimin said out loud trying so hard to gained his friends attention.

both of the boys flinched when both of them spotted jimin right beside them. taehyung and jungkook's eyes lightened up as they eyed the plastic bag that jimin held in his hands.

"welcome back, jiminnie!", taehyung echoed as he tried to snatch the plastic bag from jimin's hand but failed when jimin was much faster as he held the plastic bag up in the air.

when jimin saw taehyung's pouty lips, he totally surrendered as taehyung look like an idiot ugly duck from jimin's point of view.

"here, this is yours tae.", jimin said after he sat down beside them and gave taehyung some snacks that he ordered earlier.

taehyung gladly accepted as he grabbed his snack sheepishly. jimin took a glance at jungkook as he already anticipating for his snacks.

"sorry jungkook. yours already sold out.", jimin exclaimed as he tried his best not to laugh when he saw jungkook's smile slowly faded away, maybe disappointed. he hid jungkook's snacks behind his back.

then jimin suddenly took a glance at me and smiled before he turned back to look at jungkook.

"but.. that one is available for you.", jimin said as he pointed at my direction with a smirk.

my eyes widen and both jungkook and taehyung turned their head towards me in sync. i fluttered when my eyes met jungkook's.

"noona!", jungkook shouted with wide eyes opened, shocked but in split seconds, he already look extremely happy.

"haeryung! why are you here- no, i mean come join us!", taehyung also seemed excited as jungkook and he already gestured me to join them.

i walked toward them and granted them an awkward smile. jungkook looked up with his smiley face as he motioned me to sit beside him. i shyly nodded before i took a seat beside jungkook. he took me by surprise when he suddenly interlocked our fingers together as i sat closer, beside him.

"so, noona! how did you end up here? why didn't you tell me that youre coming?? have you eat? want me to grab some snacks for you? or do you perhaps want to cook?", jungkook bombed me with random questions and i just could laugh in the inside when i witnessed his behavior.

"yah, kookie. cant you at least calm your ass down? haeryung didnt even has the time to answer all your questions.", jimin interrupted and basically saved me from jungkook's questions.

i just laughed as jungkook's cheeks already flushed in red when he realised his mistake.

"its okay. well, im just walking around and i accidentally bumped on jimin. so he brought me here.", i explained as all the boys eyes were on me.

"oh~ so where did you go before you spent your times on walking?", taehyung asked as he shut down the play station that they played earlier.

i sadly smile when i heard taehyung's question. the boys realised about the change on my face so they asked.

"noona, are you okay?", jungkook asked with a concern expression on his face.

i just nodded lightly before inhaled some oxygen. the atmosphere around me suddenly changed to a tense one.

"actually.. i just came back from visiting my mother's grave. its her birthday today.", i told them and as i thought, i just ruined the moment. the boys look apologetic especially jungkook.

"b-but hey im okay! its nothing.", i tried to pretend that im fine and faked a smile.

fortunately, they bought it and the atmosphere was back to normal. but jungkook's eyes are still on me.

"haeryung, haeryung! wanna play the game with me? im bored playing with the same person.", taehyung exclaimed as he pursed his lip toward jungkook.

i giggled and nodded, "sure."

taehyung's eyes lightened up and he quickly gave me the controller and got ready in his spot. i laughed while I watched him.

"but please note that im used of playing this game since i already play it for few times with my brothers.", i said softly as taehyung just replied my words with a smirk.

"we will see.", he muttered then with that, our game has officially started.

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