"Ben," Y/N said staring at the catatonic Ben who was just staring at her shocked.

"You're..." Ben gulped "You're pregnant." He said a smile suddenly appearing on his face.

"Oh don't smile about it." Y/N snapped. "We aren't keeping it."

Ben's face fell. "What do you mean we aren't keeping it, this isn't some stray animal you found Y/N, this is our baby."

"Ben do you actually think we could raise it. I mean come on us!"

"What does that mean!" Ben snapped angrily.

"Oh yeah Y/N Dameron the Supreme Leader of the First Order and the great Kylo Ren as parents yeah that will work." Y/N sneered.

"Y/N."

"This kid will be the child of the two most powerful Sith masters the universe has seen and you actually think this kid stands a chance!"

"We won't let them..."

"Do you think when Snoke finds out that I'm pregnant there is any force in the world that is going to be able to stop him from getting his hands on this kid."

Ben sighed running his fingers through his hair.

"I will figure out how to deal with it." Y/N said as she sat back down on the bed.

"Wait a fucking minute, this kid is just as mine as it is yours, don't I get a say in what happens to it!" He screamed.

Y/N laughed as she stood up angrily.

"No you don't Ben I'm sorry. You don't get a say because there isn't going to be a thing growing inside of you that is going to kill you when you give birth to it!"

"What?" Ben gasped as he froze.

Y/N bent forward placing her head in her hands growling before standing back up glaring at Ben.

"Your mother and your uncle's birth killed your grandmother. Your birth about killed your mother. I don't stand a chance." Y/N said her voice cracking.

"You... you don't know that..." Ben said but now he was completely terrified and conflicted. He had never thought that losing Y/N was going to have to be something he had to worry about again.

"There has never been a child born to two force parents Ben! I'm going to be ripped to shreds." She said her voice cracking again this time tears rolling down her face.

Ben took a step towards her.

"Don't you even dare!" Y/N snapped causing Ben to freeze in place.

"Y/N, please."

"Just go, please just leave." Y/N said the anger subsiding instead turning into hurt.

Ben nodded defeated as he gave Y/N one last longing look before he left. Y/N followed him shutting the door and locking it before she slowly made her way back to the bed curling up as she cried.

Ben heard the door lock and he sighed placing his forehead on the door. As he turned around he could see that everyone around him was staring and he quickly dropped his head making his way to the one place he knew he wouldn't be bothered.

"Solo!" He heard a voice call behind him but he tried to ignore it. "Ben!" The voice called stopping him in his tracks. Slowly he turned around to see FN 2187 or Finn as he was now apparently going by.

While Ben had been working with Finn for a few months it was still hard for Ben to trust him. Once a traitor always a traitor, but his mother seemed to like him well enough and so did Rey.

"What do you want!" Ben snapped bawling his hands up into fists.

"We are flying out soon, we have intel as to where Snoke might be hiding out..."

"I'm not going," Ben growled.

Finn froze looking at him shocked, but at the same time, he always had a feeling that Ben couldn't suppress Kylo for long. "What do you mean you aren't going?"

"I'm not flying out, I'm staying here, it's as simple as that." Ben said as he started to walk away again.

"Now wait a second." Finn said angrily as he grabbed Ben's arm. "We need you why aren't you flying out."

Ben finally had enough and threw Finn into the side of the wall using the force

There were gasps from the people around him and then he could hear the whispers starting.

"I knew it, he's going to kill us all."

"He's still a monster."

Ben took off in a jog trying to get away. When he reached the flight deck he ran straight for the millenium falcon.

As he sat in the cockpit, he reached to start the ship but the minute he did he froze. Remembering a moment from his childhood.

"Daddy, do you have to go." Ben whined as he sat in the seat next to his father as Chewie leaned in the doorway.

"Ben, yes I do and I need you to get off the ship." Han said grumbling still a little annoyed about the fight Leia and him had just had.

"But you are always gone." Ben whined again this time a hint of sadness in his voice.

Han sighed as he turned to young boy sitting next to him looking up at his father with tears in his eyes.

"Is it because you and mommy got in a fight, is that why you are leaving."

Han closed his eyes "Shit,"

The boy sat looking at his father waiting for an answer.

"You heard that huh?" Han asked.

Ben just nodded.

"Listen Ben, I love your mother very much, and no I'm not leaving because of the fight. We got in a fight because I am leaving. I have a lot of stuff I have to get done with work which means I'm very busy."

"You and mommy are always busy." Ben sniffed

Han looked at the sad boy he knew that he was struggling. Han and Leia tried their best to be good parents to Ben, but it was difficult because both of them had jobs that required so much of their attention.

"Hey, I know that we haven't really been around much, but you know that we love you."

Ben just nodded but in his head he could hear voices telling him otherwise.

"When I get back how about we go flying." Han said and he watched the little boys face transform from his sad face into an excited smiled.

"Really!" Ben smiled.

The memory quickly faded and Ben crumbled forward against the control panel sobbing.

"She's pregnant, but she doesn't want to keep our child." Ben thought as he placed his head in his hands.

"But what if she's right, what if keeping this baby means that she dies. I don't think I can survive that."

Ben could feel himself starting to shake. For the first time in his life he was absolutely terrified. And the feeling of being utterly alone began to creep back in his head.

He tried to reach out for Y/N's energy, trying to read her thoughts, even though he knew he might not like what she was thinking. But there was nothing there. She had finally done it, she had finally closed herself off completely from the force and from him.

"Ben," He heard a small voice say. He quickly turned around to see Rey standing behind him.

She looked different from the frighten scavenger he had met almost a year earlier. No longer were her clothes ratted and her hair wasn't messy. She stood now with a sense of confidence.

Ben quickly dropped his head again unable to look at her.

"What's going on. You threw Finn into a wall?" She gasped slowly inching forward.

"He was getting on my nerves." Ben scoffed but there was no anger in his voice. Just sadness.

"What's wrong? What happened?"

"Nothing I'm just tired of..." But Ben couldn't even lie. He knew Rey could feel the shift in his energy. That's when he broke down he broke down and told her everything. Everything that had happened everything he had been feeling. Everything.

"I fucked up I fucked up really bad but all I was trying to do was protect her. But all I did was push her away. And now i'm alone again." He said wiping his face.

"Oh Ben," Rey sighed. "You aren't alone."

"I..." Ben said as he broke down again.

Rey quickly pulled Ben into a hug but the minute she did both saw a vision of what the future held.

Ben was facing Snoke by himself and Rey was in the millenium falcon fighting off the First Order as they attacked the city.

Ben could hear Y/N screaming in his head and he could feel her energy fading.

Ben quickly backed away from Rey as the two looked at each other terrified.

"What did that mean?" Rey asked.

Ben froze as he ran scenarios through his head, but none of them were good.

"You have to help us, if the First Order is getting closer to an attack, and Snoke is also preparing to attack we have to have you lead us. You know both the First Order and Snoke better than most. We need you."

Ben sighed as he ran his fingers through his hair.

"Think about Y/N and think about your child."

"I am thinking about Y/N, I know how much she is going to hate me. And continue to hate me if I continue fighting against the First Order and if I continue to go after Snoke."

"Well she's not going to have the ability to hate you if she is dead." Rey snapped causing Ben to glare at her. "I'm sorry I don't mean to be harsh but come on Ben, do you know what would happen if the First Order let alone Snoke found out that Y/N is pregnant."

"I know, I know."

"So then we need to do everything in our power to make sure neither does, and in order to do that we have to defeat them both."

Ben sighed again knowing that Rey was right.

"Fine." Ben said as he followed Rey out of the ship.

He tried to pretend like everything was normal. He tried to pretend that he didn't just want to run away and not have to face his problems. He tried to pretend that when he went to his room and found the door locked day after day, that it didn't tear him up inside. He tried to pretend that his focus was on the missions he was set out on and not Y/N and the baby. But he knew he wasn't fooling anyone. Especially his mother.

So when he heard someone come onto the Millenium Falcon one night when he was sleeping he wasn't surprised.

"Ben," He heard a voice sigh as he sat up from the seat he had made a makeshift bed out of.

"Hi mom."

Leia sighed sadly as she sat down next to her son

"I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix this." Ben broke

Leia put her arm around his shoulder rubbing his back as he leaned forward placing his head in his hands.

"Just give it time."

"It's been 2 weeks! She's going to end up having the kid without me, or she's not..."

"What do you mean?"

"She's terrified. She talked about how horrible parents we would both be, and how the child is going to kill her when she gives birth to it. And the more she talked about it the more I started to get afraid."

"Ben, being a parent is one of the scariest experiences in the world. But I promise you two will not be bad parents. There is nothing to worried about."

"What if she dies. I don't I can't..." Ben started breaking down.

"Ben," Leia tried to sooth.

"And now she won't talk to me, and I have tried to distract myself from the fact that my own wife doesn't want me around."

"Ben, Y/N loves you, you know she does. She is just angry, but she will cool down I promise. But in the meantime, I'm suspending you from flying."

"What!" Ben gasped looking at his mother.

"Ben you just said your head isn't on straight, I can't have you out there flying when you can't focus on the missions that is a risk not only to yourself but to the rest of your fleet."

"So then what am I supposed to do with myself. All day mother you can't..."

"I am the General of this Resistance and you will do ask you are told!" Leia snapped silencing her son. "What you can do however is help strategize with me and you can help Rey as much as you can while staying on the base. Until everything gets sorted out and then I will let you fly on small missions. But nothing that could get you killed because you are not going to let that baby grow up without a father. Is that understood?"

Ben looked at his mother shocked. "Yes ma'am." He finally said when suddenly he felt a change in energy. "Something is wrong." He started when suddenly he took off running.

"You're child will be mine" A voice snickered and Y/N woke with a start.

She groaned as she sat up. The past few weeks Y/N had had a lot of trouble sleeping and she knew exactly what the cause was, the empty space in the bed.

She could feel the tears welling up inside of her again, it felt as though she had been crying for two weeks straight.

Suddenly she heard the sound of the door opening. Quickly she turned to look and see a shadow standing in the now open doorway.

"Who is that?" She asked. "Ben is that you?" However she received no response. "Ben I don't want to talk to you, you know that." She sighed her voice cracking as she laid down her back towards the person. She had just about started to cry when suddenly she heard the sound of something metal hitting the floor.

Quickly she sat up turning to look at the figure who was no longer in the doorway.

"Ben?" She asked quickly when suddenly someone punched on her wrapping their hands around her neck.

"You were supposed to be the one to lead the First Order to victory, I backed you up. And you betrayed everyone you betrayed us all." The voice said and Y/N recognized it as Phasma.

"Don't..." Y/N tried to say but Phasma was choking her so hard she couldn't even make a sound.

"But you know what, you're absence hasn't stopped the First Order, it has only made us stronger. So strong that we are ready to completely wipe out all of the Resistance. Before they will even have time to prepare, we will be here ready and to completely destroy everyone. Starting with your precious Benjamin."

Y/N could feel her consciousness slipping and she knew she had to do something. However without her Force connection she knew there was no way she could overpower Phasma.

"You can't give back into the Force." Her mind was telling her even though she could feel herself starting to shut down.

"Goodbye Supreme Leader." Phasma laughed as Y/N started to slip into darkness

"No!" A voice yelled and suddenly Y/N felt the pressure around her neck disappear and she began coughing and gasping slowly regaining consciousness.

"Take her down to the prisons!" Another voice yelled.

"Y/N" The first voice said, and Y/N slowly began to realize that it was Ben. "Are you alright?"

"Ben?" She asked.

"I'm taking her to the Medbay." Ben said and suddenly Y/N felt herself lifted.

"Ben, I'm fine." Y/N groaned her vision slowly returning.

"We need to make sure the baby is ok." Ben insisted hurrying out of the room.

Y/N rolled her eyes.

"Are you sure you are ok?" Ben asked.

"Ben," She sighed annoyed.

"How... how have you been?"

"Really you want to talk about that right now?" Y/N snapped.

Ben went silent until they reached Medbay.

"She is fine she is just going to be sore for a few days." The droid said.

"And the baby." Ben inisted.

"We are going to take a sonogram, to make sure." Slowly the droid began to lift up Y/N shirt revealing her slightly swollen stomach. "This may feel cold." Then the droid held its hand over Y/N's stomach.

"I don't want to do this?" Y/N started.

"Just shut up," Ben snapped.

"Ben I'm serious I don't..." But suddenly the sound of not one but two heartbeats.

"Is that..." Ben gasped. 

"Two heartbeats?" Y/N gasped tears in her eyes.

"It looks like the babies are absolutely fine."

"Babies?" Ben said still in absolute shock.

"Master and Mrs. Solo, you are having twins."