Song for this chapter: Paralyzed by NF

P.S. I don't own the photos I just edit them

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Y/N sat looking around the room completely and utterly confused. The last thing she remembered was being with Master Skywalker and Ben. She gasped when she remembered what Ben had done and what had happened with Snoke. But after that everything was a blank except for the scene she had just witnessed in her head. She had seen Ben kill his father.

Suddenly she looked down and noticed she was strapped into wires everywhere. Panickedly she began to pull them off throwing her legs over the side of the bed. However, when Y/N went to stand she found her legs didn't want to hold her weight and she fell face first onto the ground.

"Y/N!" Y/N heard a voice exclaim. Y/N looked up to see a young girl with her hair in two blonde buns staring at her with such shock.

Y/N sighed as she placed her head on her hand as she looked up at the girl. "Are you going to help me up or am I just going to keep staring at the floor?"

The girl quickly rushed to Y/N's side helping her to her feet.

"Alright, now that I have regained an upright position, tell me, what the hell is going on."

The girl, who introduced herself as Lieutenant Connix explained almost everything about what had happened. She said after Kylo Ren, the name in which Ben was now going by, had left Y/N at the temple thinking she was dead. Luke Skywalker who had not been killed found her and then sent a message to his sister General Organa who came and rescued the young girl. Luke then disappeared. And for 6 years Y/N had laid unconscious.

"6 years!" Y/N exclaimed. "I've been asleep for that long! And Ben..."

"General Organa doesn't talk about him much."

Suddenly Y/N remembered what she had seen.

"Ben's mom, I need to speak with her." Y/N panicked as she started to move forward, but again stumbled.

"Well, first let's get you changed ok," Connix said.

Y/N looked down and saw that she was wearing just a small gown.

"Yes let's do that." Y/N nodded.

Y/N changed into dark green cargo pants and a large grey cloak and a black tank top underneath. The resistance uniform.

Y/N still had trouble walking so she leaned onto Lieutenant Connix as they both walked into the control room. People were buzzing around but when Y/N walked in everyone went silent.

The women Y/N had not seen for a decade turned to look at the young girl she considered family.

"Y/N" Leia said as she stood up.

At that moment all the strength Y/N lacked returned to her as she ran forward into Leia's embrace.

Leia and Han had taken Y/N and her brother under wings after Y/N's brother had joined the fleet. That's how her and Ben had met.

He had been home from training when they met, from the instant he laid eyes on her he felt a connection between them. He could feel how strong the Force was inside of her. Ben had been the one to suggest that she come train with him and Luke.

"Leia, Ben, he... he killed..." Y/N cried.

"I know, I felt it," Leia said her voice cracking. She was the strongest women in the universe, she had lost so much but her light never faltered.

"It was Snoke, it had to be..." Y/N sobbed refusing to believe that Ben was beyond saving.

"You have been through much. And I hate to burden you with more, but we need to be getting on a transport." Leia said.

"Why, what's going on?" Y/N asked.

"The first order knows where we are, they are heading our way," Connix said.

Suddenly Y/N felt a sharp pain slice across her chest and face. She turned around and suddenly she was no longer at the rebel base, but on a snow covered planet staring at the boy she once knew who now was almost unrecognizable.

He stood on one side staring into the distance at a girl who was on the other side of a large chasm.

"Ben!" Y/N called but no sound came out. She watched as Ben stood up angrily and started walking towards Y/N. She began to run towards him but quickly stopped when she saw the burn mark freshly made on his face. "Oh Ben," She sighed as she reached out to grab his shoulder, shocked when she actually felt him. Ben turned to look at what had touched him lightsaber drawn. For a moment he thought he felt an energy he hadn't felt for six years. He shook it off letting the pain of not only his injuries but also the pain of the knowledge that he had now killed two people in his life that he loved. He collapsed to his knees the blood from his many wounds falling onto the white snow.

For the first time in years, he let himself properly cry. Only for a moment though, then he stood up, wiped his eyes, he looked back in the direction of Y/N looking through her. Then he vanished.

Y/N stumbled backward being caught by Leia.

"Y/N! What is it, what did you see." Leia said as she steadied her.

"Ben, he's hurt he..." Y/N started.

"General, we are on our way back." A voice came over the speaker.

Y/N froze as she heard that voice, one she hadn't heard in what seemed like forever.

"Lieutenant Connix please escort her back to the medical wing." Leia interrupted.

"But that's..." Y/N started again when Connix grabbed her and started to escort her out of the room.

"What is going on? Why won't she let me talk to him." Y/N demanded.

"Just hush, I'll tell you in a minute just wait until we get back to the med bay."

"And what about Ben..." Y/N continued when suddenly Connix stopped and turned to her.

"Ok, so I don't mind your calling Kylo by his real name, and I know Leia doesn't mind either, but when you are around the other resistance officers you need to not sound so sympathetic towards him."

"I know he has done terrible things, but Ben is still..."

"400, Kylo Ren has personally killed at least 400 people and tortured countless others, including your brother." Connix stopped her.

Y/N clenched her teeth fighting back the tears. "400," She breathed trying to imagine how the sweet young Ben Solo she once knew was capable of something like that.

"I understand you care for him and clearly you two have some sort of connection that allows you to see him. But you don't want people around here to believe that you are a First Order sympathizer."

Y/N just nodded as they continued to make their way to the med bay.

"Now, about your brother." Connix started as Y/N sat down. "He thinks you died that day at the temple."

"What!" Y/N's head snapped up looking at Connix.

"General Leia knew that if your brother were to ever get captured, which he did, and Kylo read his mind, Snoke would find out and kill you instantly. So she made him believe you died. In fact, everyone on this base thought you died. I am the only one who General Leia trusted to watch over you."

Y/N opened her mouth as if to protest, but she quickly shut it again knowing that Leia had been right.

Just then Leia walked into the med bay.

"General." Lieutenant Connix said saluting her.

"Thank you Kaydel. You have done a wonderful job protecting Y/N. You are free to go back to your communications post."

"Ma'am if I may speak." Leia nodded. "Y/N is still in danger and as her designated protector. I feel obligated to stay with her until she is out of any chance of harm."

Leia smiled as she nodded before she turned to look at Y/N.

"I take it Lieutenant Connix informed you of the situation." Y/N nodded. "Good, and until we figure out what we are going to do now that you are awake we need to keep allowing your brother to believe that you are dead," Leia said.

"How are we going to do that when we are having to evacuate this planet?" Suddenly Y/N got an idea. "No, we can tell my brother."

"I understand that you want to see him, but it's better that he doesn't know if my son were to find out you were alive..." Leia started.

"Ben needs to know I'm alive."

"What!" Connix gasped.

"Listen, you said it, Ben and I have a connection we have since we first met. I can feel him and sometimes I can see him, and I can feel him and sometimes I can see him, and I can see how conflicted he is. Snoke pushed him too far. He can be saved Leia, I can bring him back."

"Y/N, it's not that simple, we have tried reaching out to him, and look where that got us." She sighed. "I thought Han could be the one to save Ben..." Her voice cracked again.

Y/N sighed, she knew she shouldn't be pushing the issue. Han had just been killed not but 20 minutes earlier. But she couldn't give up on Ben. She could feel his pain and his confliction. She could feel his emotions being torn in two, but the more Snoke tried to bring him to the dark side fully the more he pushed him to the light.

"Leia, I can't imagine what you are going through right now, but please, I can do this, I can bring Ben back."

Leia sighed as she looked down. Her heart couldn't handle another loss. Especially not one that would seal her son's fate. But she also knew that she couldn't give up hope. Hope was all she had.

"Leia looked up at Y/N and just nodded, sending Y/N out of the room a plan forming in her head.

"No, she can't!" Connix screamed as she ran after Y/N. "How are you planning on getting to Kylo? You've been unconscious for 6 years, do you even remember how to fly."

"You know who my brother is, you think I don't know how to fly."

Connix suddenly froze looking behind Y/N.

"What?" Y/N started as she turned around to see her brother standing there helmet in hand staring at her shocked.

"Y/N?" Poe Dameron gasped.