Ben woke up with a groan, the collision of the two ships had sent everyone flying and had knocked Ben out. He looked around the room trying to compose his thoughts for a moment, fires were burning all around the room and the bodies of the fallen guards were sprawled everywhere. The two absences that he did notice were Snoke was missing and so was Y/N. His eyes quickly landed however, on Rey who was kneeling next to Poe's body.

"He's alive!" She gasped. "But barely, we have to get him off of this ship?"

"Where did Y/N go?" Ben pleaded as he checked the room again but she wasn't there.

"I don't know, Ben please you have to come with me."

"I can't leave her." Ben inisted.

"What about Poe?" She asked.

Ben hesitated for a moment before he looked at Rey seriously.

"There's an escape pod in the throne room, you can take him and get back to the Resistance." He said as he picked up Poe walking with Rey behind the throne.

"What about Snoke?" Rey asked as she loaded Poe into the escape pod.

"I... I don't know," Ben said. "Right now you just need to focus on helping the Resistance, if Phasma is still alive she is going to go after the Resistance, they won't stand a chance."

"Ben you need to be there to, you won't make it off of this ship!" Rey pleaded.

"I have to find Y/N, I can't leave her, not again." Ben said.

Rey looked at Ben sadly, but a part of her knew that he was going to be alright. She could feel the light in him.

She reached her hand out for his which he took. "May the force be with you." She said and he just nodded tears welling up in his eyes.

Rey then shut the door to the escape pod as it jetesen out. Looking back she could see the silhouette of Ben running away.

"Where is she?" Ben thought as he ran out into the hallway. He tried to focus his energy on her but when he did he was hit with a massive wave of grief, so strong it stopped him in his tracks. He gasped for air as he looked around trying to figure out where she had went.

Suddenly the whole ship shook again and he could hear a scream echoing in the distance.

"Y/N!" He screamed as he took off towards where he thought the sound was coming.

The closer he got to the sound the stronger the feeling of grief got. When it had finally reached a level to which Ben didn't know if he could stand it, he turned to see that he was standing in front of his bedroom door, or what was left of the bedroom door as it had been split in two with a saber blade. Through the half door he could see that the room was destroyed furniture was flipped over, there were burn marks all over the wall. He could smell the burning of the sheets on the bed as well. But his eyes were quickly drawn away from all the destruction when he saw Y/N kneeling on the floor the lightsaber pointed at her chest.

"Y/N!" Ben screamed as he burst through the door.

"Don't," Y/N sobbed as she froze him in his tracks. "I have to do this, I have to... it will be better for everyone." She sobbed harder breaking the hold on Ben.

"No, it won't Y/N I need you." Ben pleaded as he knelt down next to her.

"No you don't, no one does not after everything I have done." Her hands were shaking as she held onto the lightsaber she had had custom made.

"Y/N, please don't do this,"

"I killed him Ben, I killed my brother." She sobbed leaning forward enough that Ben reached in and grabbed the saber from her.

"No, you didn't. He's alive, Rey's taking him back to the Resistance."

"The resistance..." Y/N started. "There isn't going to be a Resistance anymore, I have already killed most of them and I gave Phasma the orders to finish everyone off."

"Then let's go, let's get out of here we can help stop that from happening, together."

"Ben I can't leave, I can't do this anymore, everything that I have done." She sobbed.

"Y/N I know how awful that feeling of guilt is, believe me I know, but the fact that you feel that guilt means that you are good."

"I'm not good, how can you say that I am good, after everything that I said to you."

"That wasn't..." Ben started.

"Yes, that was me! I wasn't controlled by the power I wasn't controlled by Snoke it was all me. I chose to kill all of those people, I chose to say those horrible horrible things to you. I loved the power I loved the ability to make people afraid."

"Y/N..."

"No!" Y/N cried as she stood up. "I can't...I can't live with this."

"You can't kill yourself." Ben said standing up as well, the lightsaber still in his hand.

"Then you do it." She looking at him pleading.

Ben stumbled backwards looking at her with tears in his eyes. "No."

"You know that it is the only thing that we can do, so just do it." She said and Ben was immediately reminded of his vision.

"Don't make me please." Ben begged.

"It's the only choice we have, we have to protect the light. I am the biggest danger to the light and good."

"I won't," Ben said.

"Ben, the amount of power that I have is uncontrollable, if I snap again there will be no bringing me back. I could kill more people or worse I could kill you." Y/N sobbed. "Please."

"Y/N," Ben said tears streaming down his face.

"You have seen this vision haven't you. You have seen you killing me haven't you."

Ben nodded sadly.

"Then you know that it is the only way. The Force is telling you to do it so do it!" She screamed as she charged at him. "Please." She said as she placed the end of the lightsaber to her chest.

"No!" Ben screamed as he threw the lightsaber to the side grabbing Y/N by her shoulders. "Giving up and killing yourself will not help anyone! You have to fight, you have to help people, you have to become better. I became better for you, I found for you. Please fight for me. I cannot lose you, I won't lose you. So I don't give a fuck what the Force says is your future or my future. I couldn't kill you when you were at your worst. Do you really think I could kill you now!"

"Ben," Y/N sobbed.

"I know you are hurt I know that things got so fucked up so fast. But please just let me help you and we can get through this together." Ben slowly placed his hand on her cheek and the minute their skin made contact, Y/N was flooded with the memories of the good times with Ben. The first time they kissed, the first time they trained together, the first time they slept together.

Y/N let out a loud sob as she collapsed into Ben's arms.

"I"m sorry, I'm so sorry." She sobbed as Ben enveloped her into his arms.

"I love you." Ben cried as he kissed the side of her head.

"Help me, please, help me get better." She begged.

"Of course I will, I'm going to be by your side til the end." He said as he leaned into kiss her placing his hand on her waist causing her to wince. "What?" He said as he pulled his hand away to reveal blood. "Fuck Y/N we need to..." He started panicked.

"We don't have time. We need to go," She said as she grabbed his hand and they ran down the hallway towards the loading dock. When they got there however they found that it was destroyed almost no ships were left.

"Shit," Y/N said as she looked around. Her eyes spotted a lone Tie-Fighter. "There," She said pointing it out.

Ben turned to look where Y/N was pointing. "Y/N that's a Tie-Fighter, it only flies one person." Ben said seriously.

"Yeah, and you are taking it!" Y/N inisisted.

"What?" Ben said turning to look at Y/N.

"Ben you need to get off of this ship. It's the only way that the Resistance is going to survive."

"No, I literally just said I would be by your side." Ben insisted.

"There is only one ship Ben, We don't have time to argue!"

"I'm not leaving you here."

"Ben, I have time, I will find a way back to you. The Resistance needs you now! Please go." Y/N begged.

Ben looked at her for a moment before he pulled her in for a long kiss.

"Everytime we are separated something bad happens." He said as he broke from the kiss.

Y/N sighed as she leaned her forehead on his.

"No matter what happens you promise me that you will stay on the side of the light. Snoke is still out there probably hunting down Luke as we speak. If Snoke survives he's going to come after you again. You have to be strong enough even without me."

"Y/N I'm not doing this without you."

"Ben don't," Y/N sighed. "I will be with you even if I'm not and you know that. I'm not saying this is goodbye, it's just a bump in the road. Now you have to go."

Ben quickly wrapped his arm around her non injured side pulling her in for a long kiss again.

"You do everything you can to get your way back to me." Ben said leaning his forehead on hers once more.

"Ben you need to go!" Y/N insisted as she pushed him back. Ben loaded into the ship looking back at Y/N. "I've always hated watching you leave." She sighed tears in her eyes.

As Ben blasted off Y/N let the pain from her side finally hit her as she collapsed to her knees.

She stayed there for a moment refusing to use her power to heal herself.

"Ma'am," she heard a voice say and she couldn't help but role her eyes.

"How the fuck..." Y/N thought as she turned to see a burned and bruised Phasma.

"Are you alright ma'am what happened?" Phasma asked.

"They got away, they all got away, they attacked me. What happened to you?" Y/N insisted trying her best to put on the role of the Supreme Leader once more.

"FN 2187 is stronger than I imagined, we fought, he got the upper hand and he got away. I'm very sorry, I will accept whatever punishment you deem fit." Phasma sighed kneeling down ready to face her punishment.

"We will deal with that later. What is being done about the Resistance?"

"They are on the planet Crait, we already have people there ready to attack."

"I want to go down there, onto the planet." Y/N insisted.

"Ma'am you are injured, I don't know if..." Phasma started.

"I'm not negotiating this, I'm going down there." Y/N snapped.

"We have a few ships that are still operable I will have one prepared and ready to go, but ma'am you really need to get your side fixed."

"I'm fine!" Y/N roared. "I want to get on that planet, now!"

"On it ma'am." Phasma stated as she went off to go get a ship.

Y/N hated the fact that she still had to pretend to be the Supreme Leader, but she knew that if she was going to help the Resistance, she had to play the part.

"Y/N are you ok?" She could hear Ben's voice her in head.

She couldn't respond, she couldn't bring herself to use the Force, not again, she had to completely cut herself off of that world. She couldn't risk falling into the darkness again.

"I can read your thoughts even if you aren't trying to communicate with me. You are not going to fall into the dark again. I'm not going to let you." Ben insisted.

"Ma'am, we have a ship ready." Phasma stated.

"Y/N please don't do anything to get yourself hurt. Just make your way back to me."

"Alright, let's go." Y/N said turning towards Phasma once more.

It only took them but a moment to get down to the planet's service by the time they had gotten there the fight had already begun.

"The Resistance is bunkered down within the cave. We are bringing in one of the cannons to break the wall."

Y/N fought back the urge to stop the attack, but she knew the only way she was going to help the Resistance is if she still had the First Order's trust.

"Good," Y/N responded as she watched the Resistance flew out in hunks of junk

"Please tell me you aren't in one of those?" She thought hoping that Ben was listening but she got no response.

She watched as the scene unfolded. She could see the speeders fighting against the First Order fleet. Suddenly a luxury yacht flew into the First's Order's range firing on the First Order.

General Leia couldn't believe her eyes as she saw the ship fly in. It was a ship that she hadn't seen since Ben was born.

"I heard the distress call. Sorry I'm late." She heard the smug voice of Lando Calrissian come through the transmission causing her to smile.

"Ma'am should we focus our forces on the yacht? Or..." One of the crew heads on the First Order ship asked Y/N.

"I..." Y/N started.

"Focus on the speeders that are heading towards the beam?"

Y/N watched as the speeders flew towards the beam of the canon that was about to hit the wall splitting it open.

While all the other speeders broke off one kept heading towards the beam. Even the yacht had flown off.

"Ben, tell me that's not you." Y/N pleaded in her head.

The closer and closer that the speeder got towards the beam the more nervous Y/N got.

"Ben, please."

"Ma'am we are ready to fire." Phasma said but Y/N couldn't hear her, her focus was only on the speeder which still was heading dangerously close to the beam.

"Ben!" Y/N screamed in her head.

The beam was fully loaded and ready to fire.

"Stop!" Y/N screamed out loud as another ship blocked the other ship just in time as the beam blasted out.

The front of the barricade now showed a giant hole.

"Ma'am? What do you want us to do now? Shall we go in after them, they have nowhere to run."

"We..." Y/N started when suddenly she felt a presence.

Both her and Ben turned to the side as they felt the presence of Luke Skywalker.

"Luke..." Leia said.

Ben and Y/N felt rage build up inside of them.

"Leia," Luke smiled sadly then he turned to look towards Ben. "Ben."

Ben wanted so badly to scream at him to yell and fight. But as Luke made his way over to Leia, Ben's anger subsided.

"I know what you are going to say," Leia started. "I changed my hair." She smiled causing Luke and Ben to laugh.

Luke leaned forward kissing Leia's forehead before he turned to look at Ben.

"Ben, I am so sorry. I know you blame me for everything that has happened. And you have every right to. But I never was doing it out of malice or anger, it was purely a decision made out of fear. And now I know that if I had just believed in you, if I had just taught you and made sure that you didn't feel abandoned, Snoke's hold on you wouldn't have mattered because you would have had someone who believed there was good in you."

"I did have someone who believed there was good in me, but that wasn't enough. I was so far gone by that night, seeing you only triggered my turn, I would have turned no matter what."

As Uncle and Nephew faced each other, neither one saying a word, the last 6 years that had been filled with such disdain and distrust between the two, seemed to be washed away.

"How do I help her. How do we rescue her? I feel like I just got her back and now she is gone again?" The padawan asked his master seeking his guidance once more.

"No one is ever really gone." Luke sighed as he walked towards the break in the wall.

No one said a word as he walked out onto the battlefield.

"Are we just going to let him go out there and get slaughtered?" Someone asked.

"What is he doing?" Another piped in.

"He's giving us time to find a way out." Leia smiled sadly.

Back on the First Order ship, Y/N watched with clenched teeth as she watched her old master walk out of the bunker.

"Ma'am?" Phasma asked.

"I'm going down there, no one does anything until I give the ok, is that understood!" Y/N screamed.

Everyone saluted and Y/N made her way down onto the sandy service of the planet.

"Luke," Y/N sighed once she faced him.

"Y/N, what are you doing?" Luke sighed sadly.

"I have..." Y/N voice was cracking but she knew she couldn't break down. The First Order would have her head if she did. "I have to, it's the only way I can make sure to keep the Resistance safe is if I pretend to still be in charge of the First Order."

"Is that it, or do you not want to face what you have done." Luke said knowing what was really going on in the young woman's heart.

"I almost killed my brother. He's barely hanging on. I slaughtered hundreds of people without one moment of hesitation. How do I live with that?" Y/N said trying her hardest not to break.

"Your realization does not have to be an ending for you Y/N, it can be a beginning. You can use your connection to the Force to help people, to do good, just like I taught you."

"No, I won't even use the Force again, I need to distance myself as far from it as I can. I can't risk going dark again."

Luke sighed as he looked at the once powerful girl he had trained and now found a frightened young girl.

"We can't stand here forever, the First Order is going to get suspicious. They aren't going to let both of us leave, and I can't kill you."

Both stood in silence for a moment before Luke thought of an idea.

"That just might work?" Y/N said out loud as Luke communicated the plan through the Force.

Meanwhile Ben and what was left of the Resistance had made their way towards the end of the tunnel, on the other side Rey was waiting with the millennium falcon ready. He was about to start to move the rocks when suddenly he felt a change in Y/N's energy.

"Ben," Leia asked but he was already focusing all of his energy on Y/N.

"I'm sorry Ben." Ben heard Y/N say when suddenly she charged at Luke lightsaber on.

"Y/n what are you doing?" Ben asked as he watched Luke dodge Y/N's strikes.

"You don't have to do this?" Luke insisted.

"Everything that has happened is your fault!" Y/N screamed charging at Luke once more.

"I'm sorry Ben." Ben heard Luke say as he lunged forward plunging his lightsaber through Y/N's stomach.

"No!" Ben screamed shattering all of the rocks turning them into dust.