Y/N and Ben were on the floor Y/N was on top of Ben his shirt was next to them along with his gloves. Y/N kissed down his chest as one hand stayed intertwined with his. Suddenly there was a loud bang on the door again.

"Are you fucking kidding me." Ben growled causing Y/N to giggle as she rolled off of him. "Head into..."

"The bathroom, I know, you know maybe I should just set up a little home in there." She laughed causing Ben to smile.

As Ben made his way to the door his smile fading. The doors opened and Ben was taken aback to find Hux standing there with a plate of food a smile on his face.

"What are you doing here?" Ben snapped. But he quickly began to think of Y/N. "Find somewhere in the bathroom to hide." He thought.

"Ben it's a bathroom, there is no place to hide." She retorted. "If Hux comes looking we can both fight him, we have lightsabers he doesn't."

"Y/N we can't kill the leader of the First Order, we will have an army of stormtroopers on us faster than we could even get out of this room."

"I saw a stormtrooper carrying this tray of food and I when I questioned him on where he was going he told me he was taking it to you room. Which struck me as odd considering Snoke gave the instruction that we are suppose to eat in his corridors."

Ben rolled his eyes, the worst part of the day was when he had to go sit in awkward silence and eat his dinner with Snoke and Hux.

"I'm training, I wanted to have my dinner brought to my room that way I could train longer." Ben lied.

"Oh is that what you are doing, training." Hux snapped thrusting the tray of food at Ben.

Ben glared at Hux. "Yes, now if you could please excuse me."

"Now why are you trying to hurry me out of your room so quickly. Would it be because you are hiding something Ren."

Y/N gulped as Hux made his way towards the bathroom.

"No I'm trying to get you out of my room because I don't like you Hux, and you don't like me so if you wouldn't mind get the fuck out!" Ben snapped as he pushed his hand out causing Hux to go flying out of the room the door shutting quickly behind him.

Ben sighed and he was about to tell Y/N to come out when he suddenly felt a presence.

"I'd rather not do this now." He heard Rey sigh annoyed.

"Yeah me too." Ben sighed.

"Why did you hate your father," Rey started as she turned causing Ben to turn to meet her gaze. "Do you have something, a towel or something you could put on." She said once she saw that Ben wasn't wearing a shirt.

Y/N lost it she had to bite her lip to keep herself from laughing out loud.

"Stop it," Ben thought trying not to smile.

"Why did you hate your father, give me an honest answer," Rey demanded and Y/N could feel the grief rising in Ben once again. "You had a father who loved you, who gave a damn about you."

"I didn't hate him." Ben inisted.

"Then why."

"Why what," Ben demanded. "Why what, say it."

"Ben," Y/N thought as she fought the urge to walk out of the bathroom and comfort him.

"Why did you..." Rey cried, her words hitching in her throat, as both Rey and Ben remembered that night. "Why did you kill him. I don't understand."

"No, you're parents threw you away like garbage." Ben said replacing the hurt with spite.

"They didn't!" Rey snapped.

"They did, but you can't stop needing them. It's your greatest weakness," Ben replied remembering what Snoke had told him. "Looking for them everywhere, in Han Solo now in Skywalker. Did he tell you what happened that night." He said gritting his teeth.

"Yes," She insisted but Ben could almost hear what Luke had told her. A lie.

"Ben, what happened that night?" Y/N thought.

"He could sense my power," Ben continued the rage building as he ignored Y/N right now he could only think about convincing Rey to not trust Luke, he didn't want her to make the same mistakes he had. "As he senses yours and he feared it."

Rey hesitated for a moment before she spoke. "Liar," She said but Ben could see that she somewhat believed him.

"Ben," Y/N started again but this time Ben blocked her from his mind as he took a step towards Rey. "Let the past die. Kill it if you have to." He growled. "That's the only way to become what you were meant to be." Ben said repeating exactly what Snoke had said that night at the temple.

When Y/N heard this, she felt a wave of sadness rush over her. Kylo Ren was trying to take Rey under his care just as Snoke had to Ben. Kylo was during everything in his power to convince Rey that the only way she could survive in the world was with him and if she turned against everyone she cared about. The more she heard the more she felt like she was losing Ben.

Kylo and Rey stared at each other for a moment before Rey turned away and the connection was broken.

Y/N slid to the floor unable to process. How could Ben go from one moment making out with her on his bedroom floor and telling her that he loved her, to turning into Kylo Ren, no worse than Kylo Ren turning into Snoke. Her heart literally hurt as she sat there, waiting for Ben to tell her to come out. She waited and waited in agonizing silence just wishing Ben would open his mind to her again letting her know how he was feeling, what he was thinking, because at that moment she feared the worst.

"Let the past die, kill it if you have to. That's the only way to become what you were meant to be." She was Ben's past, and according to Snoke, she was the only thing stopping him from becoming what he was meant to be, a new Vader.

She continued to wait. The longer the time went on the more tears began to form in her eyes until she began to sob. Placing her hand over her mouth to tried her hardest to hold in the fact that she wanted to scream. Slowly she pulled herself up opening the door. She expecting to find Kylo Ren waiting for her lightsaber in hand, but what she found instead was so much worse. The room was empty. Kylo's shirt was gone off the floor and his lightsaber was also gone. On the bed lay a scrap of paper.

Quickly Y/N walked over to it and picked it up.

"I need to clear my head." Was all the note said.

Y/N clenched her teeth fighting back another sob.

"He's going to get Snoke." She thought. "He's too far gone, I've lost him."

She had promised to stay on the ship until she left with Ben, she had promised Leia she would bring her son back. But maybe Ben was right. Everyone who cared about Ben apart from her was dead, everyone else at the resistance would kill him the minute he stepped foot on the ship. Maybe she wasn't the one who was supposed to save him, maybe her connection with him wasn't as strong as she thought.

"Rey," She choked back another sob. It had to be Rey, Ben could see her, from the first time he could see her and she could talk with him and he listened. There was no anger from Ben when it came to Rey. He wasn't reaching for a lightsaber the minute he saw her. Unlike the way he reacted with Y/N. Rey is meant to bring Ben Solo back, Rey was meant to be the one to save the day.

"I'm just a plot point in someone else's story." Y/N thought sobbing again.

Y/N let herself cry for another moment before she wiped her tears and crumbled the piece of paper.

She needed to get off the ship.

Quickly she reached down and grabbed Ben's old lightsaber. She hoped she wouldn't have to use it, however she wasn't going to risk not having it.

She looked around the room she had only been there for a few hours, but the moments she had spent with Ben would stay with her for a lifetime. As she walked to the door she hesitated for a moment, thinking maybe this wasn't good idea, maybe she should just wait and see what would happen when Ben came back. Then however, she thought of how Ben looked at Rey, the longing look that she thought he only had for her, she saw in Ben's eyes when he looked at Rey.

Taking a deep breath, she wiped her eyes, straightened out her outfit and walked out of the room, pretending that she belonged on the ship.

As she walked down the corridor, trying to remember how to get back to the loading dock, she past stormtroopers who she feared would remember her, but none of them did. However, as the twists and turns became more endless, Y/N knew that she had gotten lost.

"Can I help you find something?" She heard a metallic voice say behind her and her hand instantly flew to the saber she had clipped to her side. "Ma'am?" The voice questioned again.

Y/N gulped as she turned around to find the shining silver suit staring back at her. She prayed that Phasma wouldn't remember.

"You," Phasma growled.

"Shit," Y/N thought as she quickly turned around and started running back down the hall.