"Ben, where are you going!" Ben could hear Y/N scream in his head.

He tried to block her from his thoughts, putting up his shield.

"Are you fucking kidding me! Do you really think that stupid mind shield can keep me out of your head Kylo. Now where are you going?"

Ben tried to manipulate his thoughts to trick her but he knew it was pointless.

"You are going after my brother! Why Ben! You said it yourself if you go to the resistance they will kill you!"

There was a moment of silence as Ben flew out of the loading dock.

"You know what fine, do whatever the fuck you want Ren." She sneered and then she went silent.

Every word Y/N said was a knife in Ben. He was losing her faster than he could have ever imagined. He knew training her in the ways of the Sith could lead to her going dark, but he never thought she would have fallen this far. The amount of power she had within her was unprecedented, never in the history of the Sith or the Jedi for that matter had there ever been a person who had that much power. The only people who had come this close was Darth Vader and maybe the Emperor.

"She is the true savior of the Sith." Snoke's words rung in his head as a constant reminder to the fact that all of this was Ben's fault.

He had gone over to the dark side in the first place, he had almost killed Y/N, and then when they were reunited once more, instead of sending her away, somewhere where she could be safe, he selfishly kept her on the ship. A ship that was filled with people who loved nothing more than to cause misery and pain, to everyone they could find.

"You created me!" He could hear Y/N's words repeating themselves over and over.

As he flew after the retreating Resistance ships, his guilt ate him up inside. One, he knew that the odds of him making it onto a Resistance ship were slim to none. The minute they locked onto his Silencer, they would blow him out of the sky. Two, if by some miracle he made it onto the ship. He would be surrounded by Resistance fighters who would be chomping at the bit to rip him to pieces. But he wasn't scared of them. No, who he was scared of was Poe. Not only would he have to face Poe and beg for him to come back to the Finalizer, but he would have to tell Poe what happened. He would have to face Poe and explain to him how he had broken his promise. Y/N had gotten hurt. And now she had fallen so far into the darkness, that he didn't know if it was possible to get her back. But he had to try. But what scared him the most about going on that ship was something that wouldn't be there. He was not prepared to deal with the absence of his mother. His mother had never given up on him. She always had held out such hope. However, a part of him knew that if he did see her again. He couldn't face her, not after everything he had done.

The closer he got to the ship the more he was filled with fear he was, a feeling that he hated. But he knew that there was no going back. Poe was the only person that could bring Y/N back.

On the resistance ship Commander Dameron who had been demoted by General Leia down to a Captain, pouted as he had been banished from the bridge by Vice Admiral Holdo. All he was trying to do was stall in order to give Finn and Rose enough time to get onto the First Order ship and stop the First Order from being able to track the Resistance ships through hyperspeed.

"I'm just trying to save the Resistance, but she won't listen to me, she's so infuriating. Why did you put her in charge!" Poe said as he paced around the medical bay. He then turned to look at the unconscious General Leia. He sighed sadly as he kneeled down as grabbed her hand. How she had survived the bridge being blown up he would never understand, but he was incredibly grateful that she had. Leia was a mother figure to him, she always had. He admired her more than he could ever express. "What do I do? Tell me what to do?" He pleaded.

Suddenly there was a big commotion out in the hallway and Poe turned to see people running.

Quickly he got up and headed out into the hall.

"What's going on?" He asked but no one answered him.

A blonde haired girl caught his attention as she tried to walk by without being noticed. Quickly he grabbed her arm and pulled her into the med bay.

"Kaydal, what is going on, what is wrong?"

"Poe, I have to..." Kaydal started when Poe quickly pulled her in for a long kiss.

"I'm sorry for being angry with you, I know you were only trying to protect my family and the Resistance. Please." He smiled his charming smile.

Kaydal groaned as she look at Poe. She wasn't the type of person to just give into a guy, she was far to headstrong for that. But Poe, when she was with him, she felt like she would fight across the entire galaxy for him.

"Fine," She sighed. "But you aren't going to like it."

"What is it?"

"Kylo Ren's ship was spotted, he's heading our way."

"What!" Poe growled anger fueling through him. How dare Kylo even come close to this ship. "Blow his ship..." Suddenly the anger disappeared and in its place was a monstrous amount of fear. "He's in his tie fighter. You are sure he is only in a one person fighter."

"Yes Poe," Kaydal started but Poe quickly took off running. "Poe!"

Poe didn't stop until he reached the bridge.

"Do not fire on that ship!" He screamed.

Vice Admiral Holdo rolled her eyes as the flyboy burst into the room. "What are you talking about Dameron."

"My sister is on the Finalizer!" Poe exclaimed.

"Yes, I was informed about what your sister was doing, what does this have to do with the fact that Kylo Ren is heading towards us.

Suddenly a transmission came across. "Permission to board?" Instantly Poe recognized the voice as Kylo Ren. But it didn't sound like the Kylo Ren he had been tortured by just a few months earlier. No this voice was one that Poe had not heard in almost a decade. This was the voice of Ben Solo.

"Let him on the ship!"

"Why in the galaxy would I do that!" Holdo snapped.

"There is something wrong. He wouldn't be coming here, he wouldn't be heading for a ship filled with people whom he knows wants to kill him. Something is wrong!"

"I'm not letting Kylo Ren onto the ship!"

Poe quickly pulled his blaster out pointing it at Holdo. "I'm not asking."

The entire bridge froze as they watched.

"You wouldn't..." Holdo started raising her hands.

"My only family could be in danger, so yes... I would."

Holdo rolled her eyes as she glared at the young man and though she was incredibly angry with him, she did indeed like him. She saw the spark of the resistance, the fire that had once fueled millions of people, but now she feared only resided in a few.

"Let him on the ship." She growled causing Poe to quickly lower his blaster and race towards the loading docks.

"Let her be alive, please, let her be alive." Poe thought as he made his way down the many twists and turns of the base, not even thinking about the path, because he knew it by heart.

By the time he had reached the loading docks, the Silencer was already there waiting. He skidded to a stop for a moment as he tried to compose himself. But the minute he saw Kylo Ren emerge from the ship, he lost it.

"Where is she!" He screamed as he charged as Kylo punching him in the face knocking him to his knees.

"Poe..." Kylo started again.

"Oh, so now you remember who I am!" He said kneeing Kylo in the stomach.

Ben knew he could have easily stopped Poe, all it took was a moment of his hand and he could launch Poe into the wall. But he also knew that he deserved all of this, he knew he had to take it.

"Where is she! Did you leave her on that ship just like you left her on the fucking planet! She wasn't even dead and you just left her there!" Poe said punching Kylo once more.

"I'm sorry." Ben said his face now bleeding.

Poe reached up to hit him again but stopped.

"I'm sorry," Ben repeated again.

Quickly Poe grabbed Ben by his collar and pulled him to his feet.

"What's wrong," He said softer. "Where is Y/N?"

Tears welled up in Ben's eyes as he looked at the floor.

"Ben, please..." Poe pleaded preparing himself for the worst. He could have never even imagined how bad it was. But as Ben told him everything that had happened, Poe felt as though he had failed as her brother.

"I'll kill Hux, I tear him apart, I'll make him suffer..." Poe started as his hands turned to fists tears streaming down his face.

"She already did." Ben replied wiping his tears away.

"God I should have never let her go on that ship." Poe broke running his hands through his hair.

"Poe..." Ben started.

"Why didn't you protect her, why didn't you do something!" Poe screamed wanting to punch Ben again but didn't thinking he had the strength.

"I know I'm so sorry, I should have sent her away, I..." Ben started but he knew that nothing he said could ever be enough.

"What do we do, how do we bring her back." Poe said calming down slightly.

"I don't know, I was hoping bringing you to her might help."

Suddenly Kaydal burst into the room.

"Not now Kaydal!" Poe screamed.

"But Poe..." Kaydal started in a panic as she suddenly felt a hand grasp her shoulder.

"I said not now!" He screamed turning to look at her, but freezing when he saw who was behind her. Ben stayed looking at the ground ashamed.

"Poe," The person behind Kaydal spoke and Ben thought he was dreaming. Quickly he turned to see if the voice he had just heard was real. "Could you please give me a moment alone with my son." Leia said as she stared at her son who looked more broken and distraught then she had ever seen him.

Poe nodded as he wiped his face as he left grabbing onto Kaydal's hand as he went.

"You are just going to leave him with her! Alone!" Kaydal exclaimed.

"He won't hurt her."

"Poe, Kylo killed his own father..." Kaydal started again.

"Trust me Kay, that is not Kylo Ren in that room." He said as they both left the loading dock leaving mother and son alone.

"Ben..." Leia started barely believing her eyes. She had always hoped she would physically see herself again, but she knew it was a very slim possibility.

Ben couldn't even think of what to say as he stared at his mother. He ran through that moment when he watched her die.

He opened his mouth to speak but no words came out, instead he just collapsed to the floor in a flood of sobs.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He cried as his mother came over to him enveloping him in a giant hug holding onto her son as if it was the only thing in the galaxy.

"Shhh," She soothed as he continued to cry.

He couldn't contain his sobs he just cried, almost as if he was a little child again, afraid of the monsters under his bed.

"Benjamin, it's alright."

"No, it's not, I... I failed you." Ben sobbed holding onto his mother tightly.

"Ben..." Leia started pushing her son backwards slightly looking into his tear filled eyes.

Her heart breaking as for the first time in a long time, she saw the resemblance of Han in her son's eyes once more. "You didn't fail me, you have just been lost for a long time, but I new that it wasn't going to be forever. You heart has always been filled with light."

"How... how can you stand to look at me, after everything I have done, how can you still love me."

"Benjamin Owen Solo, you are my son, no matter what you do, I am never going to stop loving you. You have done some horrible things, that can't be changed, but the fact that you are here now, the fact that you came onto a ship full of people who want you dead, in order to save the woman you love, means that you are capable of being saved. In fact I don't feel darkness in you anymore at all."

"It still calls to me." Ben said trying to compose himself.

"It calls to me to, it is never going to stop calling to you. But you just have to have enough strength to ignore it. And not give into it again."

"I don't know if I will have the strength, not without her."

"Tell me what happened." Leia insisted and then Ben told her everything.

"I don't know what to do? How to I save her?"

Leia held her hand in front her mouth tears in her eyes. But she knew she could break not in front of Ben, not as he was already so broken, she had to show him that she was strong.

"I think bringing Poe to her is a good idea, it will remind her of who she is. But also you need to be careful. She is very fragile and she has turned her grief and pain into rage. Which is the most dangerous thing. What Hux did to her, it left her feeling powerless. And now she has realized that she has this incredible power and she can make people do what she wants. Just remember how you felt, how Snoke made you feel, and how the power felt. She feels like that. Remind her that she isn't alone. That there are people who care for her." Leia said. "But please be careful."

Leia pulled her son in for a long embrace again.

"General." Poe started bursting into the room. "I'm sorry to interrupt, but we have a problem on the bridge."

"Ben." Leia started but Ben already was helping her to her feet wrapping his arm around her as he helped her walk to the bridge.

"What's going on?" She asked.

"The medical frigate it's lost all of its fuel." Holdo stated.

"Are there still crew members aboard?" Ben asked and everyone turned to look at him glaring.

"They have started to evacuate, the captain is going to stay on the ship." Holdo said.

"I'm going to destroy that ship." Ben heard Y/N laugh in his head.

"Y/N!" Ben screamed in his head, but she was gone.

"Poe," Ben said grabbing his arm.

"What?"

"She's taking out the ship. Y/N is going to destroy that ship."

"She is what! How do you know!" Poe said looked at Ben shocked.

Suddenly the captain of the medical frigate appeared in a hologram. "Everyone has been evacuated, ma'am. It has been a pleasure to serve under you. Long live the Resistance!" He screamed as he was engulfed in flames and everyone looked out the window to see the ship blow up.

"One down, two left. Long live the Resistance!" Y/N laughed in Ben's head once more.

"We have to go, we have to go now!" Ben exclaimed.

"She didn't that wasn't her call was it?" Poe pleaded he couldn't believe that his sister had just called for the destruction of one of the Resistance ships.

"She just said she was going to take out all of the Resistance ships." Ben whispered making sure that no one else heard him. "We have to leave. We don't have much time."

"But Finn and Rose..." Poe started.

"The Resistance has a day left of fuel. We don't have time to wait for your ex-stormtrooper to save the day. Y/N is going to take out the entire Resistance, and if she does there will be no change of saving her. Please, let's go." Ben begged.

Poe was torn, he had sent Finn and Rose out on a mission against every order he had been given, and he had promised that he would stall until they could jam the Finalizer's ability to track the Resistance's ships through hyperspeed.But he also knew that if he waited, he could lose his sister forever, and with the amount of power Ben had described that she had, if they lost her completely, the Resistance wouldn't stand a chance. Poe turned to look at General Leia, who looked at him with sad eyes.

"Go," She mouthed and Poe nodded as he and Ben took off down the hall.

"How are we going to get there, you're tie fighter only flies one person." Poe requested.

"You're flying my Silencer." Ben insisted.

"What!"

"The First Order won't fire on my ship. You will be able to make it on without any problems."

"And what about you how are you going to get there?" Poe asked.

"I'll take an escape pod."

"I... I don't like this plan."

"Just believe me this will work. When you get on board you just stay in my ship until I get there. If I don't make it onto the ship just get out and request to see the Supreme Leader. She won't let anyone touch you."

Poe liked to take chances, he loved to take risks. But now before him was one risk that he was terrified to take.

"Do you think you can fly a tie-fighter." Ben said a slight hint of teasing in his voice.

Poe snapped out of his worried state and glared at the young man who once again was trying to make him feel like an idiot.

"I can fly anything." Poe exclaimed as he strutted towards the tie fighter.