Ben and Y/n sat on the edge of the bed. Ben could see the bruises on her neck from his hands forming. He hated himself more than he ever had.

"Y/N" Ben started but Y/N just turned to look away. Ben sighed as a tear fell down his face. Quickly he wiped it away. "We need to figure out how to get you out of here and back to the Resistance."

"I'm not going anywhere." Y/N sighed.

"What?" Ben said looking at Y/N.

"Ben, I came here to bring you back, I made a promise to myself and your mother that I wouldn't leave this ship without you with me."

"Y/N I can't leave." Ben sighed.

"So we wait, we wait and we take Snoke down together, and then we leave together."

"You can't stay on this ship it's not safe." Ben insisted.

"And I can't leave because it's too dangerous." Y/N said firmly turning to look towards Ben again. "So we are at an impasse."

"You aren't staying." Ben snapped.

"What are you going to do, choke me again." Y/N snapped.

Ben felt like he had been slapped but he knew he deserved it.

"You need to go to the med bay to get sewn up. I'm going to take a shower."

"I'll get someone to get you clothes," Ben said.

"Alright," Y/N snapped as she turned away walking toward the bathroom. Suddenly she turned back around. "Ben, I have been in love with you since we were 19. We are connected we always have been. So I'm not giving up on you. But you can't let Kylo Ren get in the way. I came here to bring Ben Solo back. And I'm not leaving until I do so." She said then she went into the bathroom and then slammed the door.

Ben sighed as he ran his hands through his hair.

Groaning he stood up and grabbed his gloves as he headed towards the med bay.

He couldn't stop thinking about how royally he had fucked up.

"Be better." He kept saying in his head. "Be better for her."

"Master Ren." The med droid said breaking Ben's concentration. "Are you alright sir, you look flushed."

"I'm fine," He snapped. "Let's just get this over with."

He sat down as the med droid began to stitch up the cut on his face. He couldn't stop thinking about the look in Y/N's eyes. The fear, the anger but also the unconditional love."

"I have been in love with you since we were 19." He could hear her say which caused him to smile.

Suddenly he turned and found Rey sitting across from him. His eyes went wide as she looked at him.

Quickly she brought out her blaster pointing at Ben and firing.

Ben felt the beam go straight through his abdomen causing him to flince but when he looked down he found no wound. Looking back up he found that Rey was gone as well. Quickly Ben stood up looking around the room.

"What the fuck." He thought before quickly sliding out into the hallway. He looked down the corridor and found nothing but stormtroopers busying themselves as not to catch his attention. However when he turned to look the other way he found Rey looking back at him once more.

Instantly he brought his hand up focusing all of his energy on her.

"You will bring Luke Skywalker to me." He snapped but he had no affect on her. He rolled his eyes realizing his stupidity as he dropped his hand. "You're not doing this the effort would kill you." He looked at her again trying to rationalize how he was seeing her standing in the Finalizer. "Can you see my surroundings?" He questioned.

"You're going to pay for what you did." She snapped.

"I can't see yours?" Ben said trying to ignore the sting that came with what Rey had said. "Just you," He insisted my sense of anger gone from his voice. Rey's presence had almost a calming effect on him. "No, this is something else." He said his mind running a hundred miles a minute. But his thoughts had drifted away from Rey instead he was thinking about Y/N thinking about the times he had seen Y/N and thought it was a dream, had it been?"

Suddenly Rey turned to look over her shoulder and Ben could feel a presence join them, though he could not see who it was. However, he instantly could recognize the energy.

"Luke," He said the anger returning. And just like that Rey was gone leaving Ben standing alone in the corridor once more.

Taking a deep breath he quickly put up the shield in his head knowing Snoke would have felt the disturbance.

Suddenly a stormtrooper walked by trying to get by as quickly as possible without Kylo noticing .

Ben quickly grabbed him by the arm.

"I need some women's clothes brought to my room as soon as possible. And don't let anyone know you are doing this." Ben said.

"I won't let anyone know." The stormtrooper repented back monotone.

"Good, thank you." Ben said and the stormtrooper looked at Kylo Ren shocked. "Shit," Ben thought as he quickly pretended to be angry throwing the trooper into the wall. "I said as soon as possible now go!" He screamed as he stormed off back towards his room.

"You will pay for what you did." He could hear Rey's voice in his head scream at him.

Little did she know that he was paying for it. Every moment he relieved the night on the bridge in his head.

Before he even realized he was standing outside of his door.

He reached out to put the numbers for they keypad. But he hesitated. He knew what awaited him in that room. Y/N loved him and was going to fight for him something he had wanted ever since Snoke had first started to get into his head. She believed that he could still be a good person. But he also knew that when he saw her he would see the bruises he caused he would be reminded of the fact that he couldn't be saved. History was repeating itself, he was turning into his grandfather.

"No one is beyond saving." He heard his father say. But at this point he didn't think there was anyone that could save him.

Quickly he punched in the numbers and the door opened to reveal Y/N standing in a towel arms crossed over her chest.

"Y/N" He gasped as he quickly shut the door..

"How long have you been able to see and talk with Rey." Y/N said smiling.

"I uh... how did you..." Ben stammered.

Y/N laughed as dried her hair with another towel. "Ben don't get so freaked out. We're connected remember. I can see things you see, so imagine how shocked i was when I'm standing in the shower and suddenly I'm in the halls of the Finalizer.

"I didn't, I didn't see you." Ben said leaning against the doorway.

"I'm not surprised, you haven't seen me a lot of the times when I was with you."

"In the medbay, that was actually you, and I... " Ben said remembering how their encounter that day had ended.

"And in the elevator, and in the forest." She said fixing her towel.

Suddenly there was a banging on the door.

"Get back in the bathroom." Ben snapped quietly.

Y/N quickly disappeared back into the bathroom as Ben opened the door.

There stood the stormtrooper clothes in hand.

"You will forget this ever happened." Ben snapped.

"I will forget, this ever happened."

"Good now I will be eating in my room tonight so instruct someone to bring me my dinner." Ben snapped shutting the door once more carrying the clothes quickly setting them on the bed. "You can come out."

Y/N strode out once more this time she was wearing Ben's black bathrobe.

Ben gulped when he saw her looking her up at down. He had never seen her look more beautiful her brown curls cascading down her back.

"Why Benjamin Solo are you gawking." Y/N teased.

Ben quickly locked eyes with her, her smile melted his heart.

"What do you mean you were in the forest with me, what forest?" Ben asked.

Y/N sighed sadly as she grabbed the clothes off the bed.

"Can you turn around." She asked.

"What?" Ben questioned.

"I need to change." She said quickly.

"Oh, yes." Ben said quickly turning around.

"That night, the night you killed..." Y/N started her voice cracking. "After your fight with Rey, I was there, with you." She said as she pulled on the black turtleneck.

"The presence I felt, it was you?" Ben gasped almost turning around but he quickly stopped. He remembered feeling someone with him someone who was calming him.

"I knew you knew I was there, you just weren't ready to see me yet." She sighed pulling on the black leggings. "Alright you can turn around she said as she pulled her hair up wrapping it into a bun.

As he turned around Ben looked at her and a twinge of sadness ran over him. Dressed like that Y/N looked like she could easily be a part of the First Order and he hated it. He hated the fact that she could even be associated with the people he had come to hate.

"Y/N, why are you here now, why are we connected again now, it's been 6 years."

"Ben that night at the temple," Y/N started causing Ben to wince the memories of that night rushing at him. "The rocks didn't kill me, I was in a coma for the last 6 years. Until I saw you Ben, I saw the conflict inside you, the hurt, but also the hope. That night you killed your father, I woke up and all I knew was that I had to save you." Y/N said.

Ben collapsed to the ground staring at the floor feeling so ashamed unable to look at Y/N. "I'm not worth saving Y/N." He cried.

"Ben," She said kneeling in front of him. "Kylo Ren has killed hundreds of people including his own father. He has hurt and tortured countless others including my brother. Kylo Ren has betrayed every person he has ever loved in order to serve the Lord Commander Snoke, who created him. But throughout all of that Ben Solo has been there, trying, desperately trying to break free. But Snoke convinced you that Ben Solo was nothing that he shouldn't even exist, that you are nothing. But Ben you aren't nothing. You have always been and will always be my everything." She said pulling him in for a loving kiss.

Ben broke away looking at her with such love.

"I love you," Ben sighed as he placed his hand on her cheek.

"I know." Y/N said smiling as Ben wrapped his arms around her and pulled her in for another long kiss.