The Next Morning

Avni stirred in sleep and her eyes gets opened. Her vision gets blurry and again she closed her eyes. She opened it again and found her other side of the bed empty. Her hand moved towards his empty side and caressed it while her eyes filled with tears. She just closed her eyes inhaling a deep breath while the tears escaped from her eyes. Suddenly She got up from the bed with a hope that she can see him and saw his luggage which were gone. She smiled thinking he already arranged everything in his closet back. She quickly went near his closer and opened it a go and saw it's was completely empty and her hope gets crushed within a second.

She stood still wiping her tears and left to start her day. She came down stairs and was looking everywhere. She remember how he planned for the date and realized that every corner of the home were filled with his memories.

Her eyes again became teary and She left to kitchen and went towards fridge to fetch some cold water to calm her down while she saw many sticky notes.

" Don't ever forget to have breakfast... And never ever skip meals... " She read one of the notes.

"Easy recipes to make for breakfast, lunch and dinner " The words were written on a note and there were many notes sticked on it.

"Why are you making things hard for me Neil?" Tears slipped from her eyes but she still smiled thinking how he still cares for her.

Suddenly her phone got rang.

"Is it Neil? " She thought and rushed to the living hall with a smile.

She picked up her phone quickly only to get disappointed again.

Aashish called her and she sighed and wiped her tears, clearing her throat and attended the call.

"Haa papa.. " She tried to sound normal.

" Why don't you come to our home and stay with me for the time being... " He told her while Avni was shocked.

"Neil came home yesterday to say that he is going back Paris because of his work...and my daughter didn't even cared to tell me this" He said in a upset tone while Avni sighed in relief as Neil dealt with him already for now.

"Papa.. Hmm... It's... " She couldn't able to think of any excuses right now.

"Yeahh Yeahh.. He told me that his work came up suddenly.... Like a Unplanned one..and yesterday you were busy with packing his stuffs and that's why you couldn't come.." He told her while Avni again sighed and bit her lips to control her tears.

He made all the excuses for her. She didn't even know that he went to meet her dad yesterday. She was giving a lots of thoughts about how to handle Aashish for now.

"Avni? " He called her seeing her sileng

"Yeahh Papa.. Thats why ... I couldn't come .." Avni buttered him up holding her tears.

"And yeahh... I can't able to come Papa... I have work from tomorrow... " She said and again made some excuses as she don't wanna go there. Atleast not in the state she is currently now.

They had few more conversation and they ended their call.

Avni looked at her phone and found their picture together. That's it all the emotion she held back till the time, bursted out as tears seeing his face.

"I wish...It wasn't this hard.. " She thought and sat with a thud shedding silent tears.

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Two weeks Later

Avni's Pov

Ah!... Another long day... What I need to do today... (Checking through her work schedule) . I have a meeting... Oops!... I have a plan with Saisha... I need to back up... (Scratching her head) . Then... Then... Yeahh that's it...

I heard my phone ringing when I was showering...So I picked up my phone to see a missed call from Riya. And i saw a text too.

"Come home by today 😉".

This girl na.. What's with the emoji? . I rolled my eyes.

Okayy🙄

I replied and left to kicthen after getting ready and picked up my lunchboxes. Yess I cooked, Thanks to Neil's simple receipes. I picked up my bread and butter and left to have my breakfast. She picked up her phone and saw his picture as she still didn't changed her wallpaper.

"Sorry... I don't have much time to treat myself a good breakfast.. " I said to Neil as like he is gonna hear me say and come here and scold me.

I scrolled my Instagram and checked onto Neils account. Ofc we are still following each other. But his last post was about 6 months back. Bruhh that's even before our wedding.
I wondered what he might be doing now and kept my phone aside. I left to my office sighing thinking of another boring day.

Later at evening

I came home early as I skipped planned with Saisha. My body kissed the bed as I feel so tired for no reason. It might be because my mental health is not so in good state. I hugged his pillow which gave me comfort not to feel his absence.

It's not I don't miss anymore that i am living normally. Infact i miss him more, Like very much. I thought I could overcome from him when he leave but I was wrong. I realized it one the very first day he left. When I felt like a lost person on my home. Even when riya stayed with me for a day or more, I still felt his absence.

These distance between us, His absence made me realise how much he mean to me than I thought he was. I underestimated myself. I underestimated my feelings.

Everyday after work, I was hoping I could see him waiting for me in the office but chuckled with a smile everytime I gets disappointed. I won't blame Neil for my disappointment not I blame myself for expecting things.. It's just... It's just.. I don't know how to describe.

I don't know anything about him now Neither he texted me nor I texted him. Sometimes I wonder does he still think of me?.. Or is it really easy for him there?.. Staying away from me?.. Feeling my absence? Or missing me?. I know I may never get answers to these questions.

I still have the same "half - gone " Nail paint that he did for me. I cannot take courage to remove it. I smile thinking that it has his efforts for me and I still remember the day how happy I was. I know this is also short term and the nail paint will be completely gone soon but what about my feelings?

If you ask me whether I regret not confessing to him?... Yes.. Maybe No. I have this fear... What if I confess and he don't like me back. I have never experienced rejection in a relationship. I never know how to deal with a heart break. I thought dealing with regret is easier than a heart break. Because it just me with a regret. Even if we meet in furture, we can talk comfortably. But if it's a heart break, I don't think I can able to face him anymore. I don't have that big heart I guess. I may sound immature.. Very immature because I lack experience there so I don't know how to react or how to deal with it. Yeahh I know... I am making a mistake. May be with this I can learn something.

I still give it lots of thoughts... I was afraid of confessing my love to him... But how do I gain courage to ask him to marry me... What if he rejected me then?... May be It would haven't affected me that much because that time he was complete stranger to me... But now when I asked him to live with me...what if he rejected he then?...How do I reacted to it? ..I wish.. I really wish I would have that courage to confess my love...

Some other day, When I was talking to riya and Ali, we suddenly ended up with a topic where we were talking. "Will you ever kiss someone who you don't like ". Ofcourse Not. How can I kiss someone without even liking. Me and Riya ended up with same thoughts. And that got me into a sudden realization.

Then did Neil liked me just the way I do? . A part of myself felt so happy till the time Ali spoke.

" It will not be same case for everyone right...Like if people gets attracted to each other it might happen...or Friends with Benefits ...there are many more things like that..."

My happiness didn't last a few seconds though. I am damn sure that our relationship is not the kind of relationship that he mentioned. I felt sad, perhaps realizing that it's just a Casual Relationship for Neil or may be he never had feelings for me. If he did, he could have confessed to me. It's not like it was his first time just like me. He could have told me that he loves me if he did have feelings for me.

Pov ends.

Nothing feels heavier than untold words.   And tears were shedding through her eyes, feeling so heavy in her heart.

Her phone rang making her jerk up after being lost onto her thoughts. She sighed and picked up her phone to find Riya calling her.

"Ohh shit!.. I forgot it completely.. " She wiped her tears quickly and got up from the bed and checked herself on the mirror.

"Thank god!... I don't look like I cried.. " She sighed in relief and picked her bag and left.

Later at night

She got from cab after feeling so tired and full because Riya stuffed her with lots of food saying she has lost weight because she is missing Neil. She showered Avni with so much of love in behalf of her friend, Neil.

"This Riya na... I feel like I gonna burst.. " She complained.

" Riya is just like Neil... How can they cook so well?!... Woahh.. You are only physical absent but everything reminds me of you only Neil.. " She chuckled with a sad smile looking on the ground.

She sighed and looked up to find someone standing near her door. She couldn't able to see the face clearly. But it got cleared when she felt the person moving towards her. She just looked at the Person and wondered if it's a dream or reality

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