"No It's not- you don't-"

"NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS IS MY LIFE AND-"

Jongin sighed. They're at it again.

"Baekhyun please. Let's-" He hesitates"I'm tired"

"Jongin you say that everytime. We should-"

"STOP!" Baekhyun flinched at his boyfriend's outburst. "Stop please. I'm tired. Let's just go to sleep yeah?"

It has been three months since that issue has been opened up and since then, the couple would fight at every single thing under the sun. Baekhyun wants it to stop. Jongin is really tired of it.

He jolted when he heard a quiet sob.

"B-baekhyun hyung?"

But before he could even touch the said man he already turned away

Jongin must admit he misses the old "them". Actually the both of them do. They miss their innocent dates. They miss cuddling every night. They miss the old them. The couple they used to be.

--

"Hyung! Hyung! Hyuuung! Baekhyun Hyungg!!!"

Baekhyun turned around upon hearing an excited Jongin.

"Hyung!" And before he knew it he was immediately tackled into a hug that almost caused him to topple backwards. Fortunately, he caught himself just in time.

"What is it Jonginnie? What got you so excited?" He gently asks as he runs his hands through his boyfriend's silky black hair. He was taken aback when Jongin pulls away and waves his phone happily in front of his face.

"It was approved hyung! I got accepted!" The look of confusion Jongin got made him tug his lips downward. He then proceeded to pout.

"You don't remember? I applied for ACE Academy. That dance institution that is based in Paris. And it got accepted hyung! I am so happy!" Jongin was back to his overly excited self while Baekhyun was dumbfounded. "Hyung! I'm going to Paris!"

Baekhyun was quiet. Jongin furrowed his eyebrows when Baekhyun didn't respond immediately.

"Baekhyunnie hyung? Are you not happy for- um with this news?" Jongin asked tentatively to the still quiet male. Bakehyun snapped out of his thoughts.

"Oh I-I'm happy for you Jonginnie! Congrats baby I'm so proud of you!" He tried to sound cheerful but Jongin knew something was wrong through the shake of Baekhyun's voice.

"What's wrong babe?" Jongin finally asks after a few minutes. He held his hyung's shoulder to ease the tense

"It's....um..." Baekhyun said in a quiet voice "It's nothing." Baekhyun looked up and made eye contact with Jongin.

"I don't believe you. C'mon hyung you know you can tell me everything right?" Baekhyun released a deep sigh. He shook his head to dismiss the matter. But Jongin was determined to know what was bugging his lover's mind.

"Hyung? Please tell me. You know I don't like guessing." He cupped baekhyun's face in his large hands.

"Because....you'regoingtoparisandyou'regonnaleaveme." He muttered catching his breath hoping that Jongin did not catch what he just said (that and the heat that was starting to form in his face). He avoided Jongin's tender gaze

"What?" Jongin let out a small laugh. "I could not understand you. Can you speak slowly please?" Baekhyun whined and shook his head removing Jongin's hand from his face

"Aw please hyung? Pleaaaaaase?" Baekhyun lost it. Jongin knew he was a sucker for his aegyo since the younger doesn't usually do it.

"I said" He exhaled "You're going to Paris and you're gonna leave me and I'll be so sad." He pouted "And then one day I'll get the news that you fo-" Jongin kissed him to shut him up from his rambling. He chuckled holding his hyung's cheek widely grinning at the blush that was painted in it.

"Hmmmm" He thoughtfully says putting his finger in his chin then snapped it afterwards as an idea struck him. Baekhyun swore he saw a light bulb above Jongin's head. "How about you come with me to Paris then?" Jongin asked with such hopeful eyes that if something inside baekhyun didn't snap, he would've melted and said yes immediately. Unfortunately that wasn't the case for Baekhyun

"What?! Me?! Come with you?! To Paris?!" He asks wide eyed. Jongin smiled adorably his eyes crinkled nodding cutely.

Jongin clearly saw the dilemma playing out in his lover's face.

"Jongin I....." Baekhyun pulled away after looking at Jongin's hopeful face. "I'll-" Jongin was practically crossing everything he had to cross. "Um I... would you mind if... I say I'll think about it?"

He looked at Jongin and was anguished at his crestfallen face.

"U-uh of course not hyung. I'll give you time to decide."

Baekhyun held his hand.

"But I'll- I'll think about it Jonginnie. There is a big possibility that I might come with you baby." He said somewhat brightly the both of them knew he was faking it.

Jongin does not know why his hyung is hesitating. He was always so supportive of him before. And would go to where Jongin goes. He decides not to push the matter. He masked his frustrated feature with a slight (hurt) smile. Nonetheless, he hugged Baekhyun and rest his forehead in Baekhyun's shoulder. He let out a sigh and a sniff.

"We'll... we'll work this out Hyung. We will I promise." He said as he pressed a tender kiss on the latter's temple.

Baekhyun sniffed as a stray tear fell from his eyes at how broken Jongin sounded. He hugged Jongin closer, tighter. Pressing a kiss to his lips.

--

Baekhyun accidentally spit the coffee.

He stared at the email he received. He was so shocked he can't move. Half an hour passed and baekhyun was still staring at the email. He pinched himself as if to prove he wasn't dreaming.

Mr Byun,

Greetings!

We are happy to inform you that you did an amazing job at the interview. The board has reviewed your biography and performance. You have passed the final stage. Therefore we decided that having you as a part of this management would be a great honor. Thank you for applying!

Welcome to Southeast Northwest!

- The Management

"Baekhyun did it! He really did it. He finally got his dream job. After all those heartbreaking rejection emails, torn application letters, messed up resumes he finally did it. Finally he can make his parents proud. He was so happy he could die.

"IS THIS REAL?! OH MY GOD IS THIS REAL?!" He slapped himself. He winced at the pain then he got up from his seat "OH MY GOD I GOT IN I GOT IN! I'M NOT DREAMING RIGHT?" He pinched himself. "Oh my god I'm not dreaming! I REALLY GOT IN I'M SO HAPPY!!!" He was jumping up and down like a mad man

"Is this the reason why you don't want to come with me to Paris Hyung?"

Baekhyun paused. Terrified, he slowly turned to face Jongin. He thought Jongin would look mad but he's just

Sad

"J-jongin." Baekhyun tried to reach out but Jongin stepped back

"No hyung. It's... it's okay. I understand. It's your dream job right?" He smiled slightly and it broke Baekhyun's heart to a million pieces.

"Jongin I-" Baekhyun tried again but still, Jongin stepped back

"No.  Hyung it's- it's okay I understand. Congratulations. I'm so happy for you." Baekhyun shook his head when saw Jongin's glassy eyes.

"Jongin It's not-"

"Baekhyun hyung you don't need to explain anything. I understand." He smiled at the older male with glassy eyes. Baekhyun stepped forward but Jongin shook his head.

"I'm okay hyung. It's okay." He said taking a step back "I need air" He smiled for the last time and went out the door

"Jongin wait!" But the door was shut

Jongin slumped on the other side of the door he sighed deeply and proceeded to walk away

--

It was already past 10 and Jongin isn't at home yet. Baekhyun was worrying so much he could pee his pants. He was supposed to be happy today but he can't. Not when he's worrying his ass off because of his boyfriend. He clutched his phone looking for the contact number. He was about to press it when he hesitated. What if Jongin is still mad at him? He sighed and locked his phone and put it on the table. He stood up and went to the Kitchen when the door suddenly opened. He paused in his steps.

"Oh you're still awake." Baekhyun turned around and what he saw broke his heart.

Jongin with puffy eyes looking so lost. He wasted no time in walking towards the taller male. He immediately envelopes him in a hug. Jongin, no matter how hard he tried, failed miserably at keeping his tears at bay.

"I'm sorry Jongin. I'm so so sorry." Before he knew it, baekhyun was crying too.

"Hyung I-" He was cut off when Baekhyun put a finger on his lips

"Shhh. Let me talk first okay?" He felt the younger nod against his hair.

"I'm going to be honest with you. I wanted to come with you in Paris." He sniffed. "But Jongin I realized there is more to life than just going to Paris." He exhaled shakily "When you told me three months ago that you got accepted, i was so happy for you. But-" He choked while trying to hold in a sob.

" I wanted you to be proud of me too. In our 3 years together you have showed me what love is. You... you have done so much for me that I... I wanted you to be proud of me too." He pulled away and looked at Jongin.

"For the past 3 years. I have been living under your shadow. For 3 years people know me as Baekhyun Jongin's boyfriend. And I wanted to.. make a name for myself too. I know it sounds so selfish but like what I said I wanted you to be proud of me." He sobs at Jongins chest

"But I'm already proud of you hyung." Was murmured at his ear however baekhyun shook his head.

"When you told me three months ago that you got accepted at ACE, I thought to myself why can't I achieve that too? Why can't I have my dream job?  That's when I decided to give SN a shot and I got accepted. Today. " He pulled away and looked at Jongin

"Jonginnie," He cupped the youngers tear-stained cheek. "As much as I want you to stay. I don't want to hinder your happiness. I love you. And if achieving your dream in Paris will make you happy then I will he happy. I just...." He paused and wiped a tear that fell down Jongin's eye. "I want to thank you for everything. I want to thank you for the three years. Three wonderful years of being together made me so happy Jongin-ah." He sniffed as he wiped his own tears.

"Hyung are-are you breaking up with me?" Baekhyun cried even harder.

"I don't want you to ditch your dream because of me. I don't want you to live your life in Paris lonely because I'm not there. I want you to be happy. To see other people. To meet other people. To date-" Jongin shut him up by kissing his lips

"But you're the only one I love hyung." Baekhyun touched Jongin's chest

"I know. And I love you too. But we have to accept that we need to move on to the next page. That if it's meant to be it will be." Jongin hugged his hyung for all his worth and cried hard

That night, they spent it in Bed. Hugging, cuddling, loving each other. For the last time.

--

Jongin shook his head when he remembered what Baekhyun said about Paris and french people. Today is his first day at ACE and excited is an understatement because Jongin was damn excited he could not stop sending I'm so excited texts to Baekhyun.

Jongin and Baekhyun decided to officially break it off that night. But they won't be those typical exes you see on TV. They remained good friends who supported each other. Especially on Jongin's first days in Paris. Occasionally they would video chat and ask each other how their day had been and it would end with Jongin's I miss you hyung it's so lonely here and Baekhyun's shut up go to sleep. It was hard to let go of what they had for 3 years.Even so, they labeled each other as best friends.

"Fuck I'm late!" Jongin sped his way through the corridors to reach the dance studio when he accidentally knocked over a kid-er a small person

"Oh I'm sorry I'm in a hurry." He helped the boy up and picked up his things.

"Obviously you were not looking at your way." Jongin got no time for this "I'm Kyungsoo by the way. And I'm guessing you're....." He paused looking at the other boy's identification card
"Kim Jongin."

"Alright. I get it. But see you around. It's my first day I'm gonna be late. Bye." He smiled and ran As he was speeding up the hallways not that far away from Kyungsoo, he came to halt in front of a door and turned around he saw Kyungsoo still standing there. The boy caught his eye and waved.

'Good luck' was mouthed to him. He said 'thank you' and looked at the small boy one last time

Maybe living in Paris won't be so lonely after all.