Its been three days since he's last called and five since our first date.. I haven't spoken to him since he kissed me goodnight on my porch. Not because he was a bad kisser or because I couldn't see myself being with him, but because I did.

When he kissed me I saw everything I've ever wanted. Early morning coffee dates, watching the sunrise on the beach, driving to nowhere in particular, fancy dinners that neither of us can afford, eating ice cream along the boardwalk as the sun sets. Ryder Daniels has the power to make me fall head over heels for him, but it will only end in disaster because I can never experience any of those things.

Who could fall in love with a girl like me?

***

It was precisely four in the afternoon when I made the decision to forget all about him and it was nearly an hour later when he left me a voicemail telling me he was picking me up at seven. I wanted to call him back. I wanted to tell him this is for his own own good, that my life is to messed up, but somehow I knew saying no to him would be impossible.

So here I am at 6:55 standing by the window waiting for the one guy who has made me feel alive for the first time in my life. I have no idea what to expect but I have so many mixed feelings about this. I see him walk up to the door and knock. I hesitate to even open it, but like on the phone I know I can't resist the temptation that is Ryder Daniels.

"Wow." He says as soon as I open the door.

"Hi." I whisper, suddenly feeling shy. Not once in the three months I've known him have I felt shy about being this close to him.

"Why have you been ignoring me?" That's one of the things I was beginning to love about him; he's always so blatantly honest.

"I don't know." I look down not able to handle the intensity of his stare.

"Sophie what changed? Is it because we went out on a date? Is it because I kissed you? For three months we spent hours together at the club and then after our first date you just ignore me? What did I do?" He reaches for both of my hands. I can hear the pain in his voice and it makes me feel even worse.

"I'm no good for you." I pull my hands out out of his.

"No good for me?" He puts a finger under my chin and forces me to look at him. "Sophie you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Whatever is keeping you from giving me your heart I don't care because you already have mine."

I swear the world stops spinning.

"Sophia Renee Dawson I'm in love with you."

Well damn there's no turning back now.