(Ravine POV)

I was throwing up in the toilet with Craig and Gwen assisting me because I am so goddamn drunk right now. Sylvia and Dad are watching me by the door with a worried look on their faces.

"Would you mind telling me what the hell happened?" Dad asked with an angry tone.

"That's not the way to go about the situation. He must have been going through something. Can't you see that it's Troy's death that is causing him to be like this?" Sylvia said.

"You know what? Maybe mom's right." I said. "I suck at everything, that's why I will never ever be loved."

"That's not true, Vinny! We are here for you. We love you. What are you talking about?" Gwen said as she brushed my hair that's covering my face to the side.

"No, she's right, you know. Maybe that's why dad left me with her because he could never accept me for who I am, maybe that's why Craig cheated on me because he could never really love a faggot like me, and now, the only thing that's important to me which is to give Troy's death some justice, I can't even do. I suck. Janet's right, I am a worthless faggot." I sobbed.

I began talking about the people around me in third person and as I looked at their faces, they are filled with pain and misery. Craig was looking down and could not make any eye contact with me as soon as I mentioned how he cheated on me. Dad was tearing up a little as well as Sylvia while Gwen was just busy rubbing my shoulder as a way of comforting me.

"In a way, I kind of envy Troy because he doesn't have to suffer anymore. He doesn't have to put up with the burden of being a faggot anymore. It might be a weird thing to say but sometimes, I see his death as a form of luck, instead of tragedy." I said.

"I think it would be for the best if you guys leave for a while." Craig said to dad and Sylvia.

"He's right. Maybe we should talk to him when his mind is in a better place." Sylvia said to Dad and he complied, leaving the three of us alone.

It's so funny how I am still able to perceive what's happening, no matter how drunk I am.

"You too, Gwen! It's alright, I'll take care of him."  Craig reassured her. Gwen looked at me one last time before nodding her head and following Craig's orders.

"Come on, Ravine! I'll give you a bath for a while." Craig said before stripping my clothes off and putting me gently on a chair. As soon as I sat still, he filled the empty basin with warm water and he soaked a small towel in it before washing my back and my front with it.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked.

"Because I care about you." He said. As soon as I was fully washed, he took some nightclothes from the drawer and helped me put on my pajamas. Once I was ready for bed, I hopped on top of it and under the covers I went as my dad used to say when he would tuck me in at night when I was a kid.  

Craig laid beside me and without any second guessing, I straddled him and began kissing him aggressively.

"Ravine! What the hell are you doing?!!" He said as he was caught off guard. I nibbled on his neck and he moaned involuntarily. I began sneaking my hand inside his shirt and rubbing his bare chest sensually.

"Ravine, stop!"

"Isn't this what you want from me? This is what you have been waiting for, right?" I asked. "You fucked Kendall because I didn't want to do it with you back then so now, I'm giving you exactly what you wanted but all of a sudden, you're allergic to sex, is that it? Make it make sense, you idiot!" I said to him, with me still on his lap.

"Not this way, Ravine! I wouldn't take advantage of you just because you're drunk. I'm not that type of guy." He said.

I sat there dumbfounded and as I realized my mistake, I quickly got off him and laid next to him, with my back facing him.

"I told you I will change for you." He whispered before wrapping his arms around my waist, and putting us in a spooning position. It has been a long time since I felt safe like this. Craig is the only person who is able to pull this softness and vulnerability inside of me. I totally forgot how it was like to be in his arms and now that I experienced it again, I can honestly say that it is the best feeling ever.

With that in mind, I quickly fell asleep in his loving embrace.