[A/N] VERY IMPORTANT: some of you might have read this chapter since it's got stuck with the previous one but i changed it! 

I have a new story! It's NIAM with side LARRY,..featuring Punk!Liam and Punk!Louis

It's called, "Hi! I'm Niall Malik!" 

Pretty please check them out on my profile?? ILYSM!

____________________________________________________________

 Chapter 10- Maybe I'll Get Drunk Again,....To Feel A Little Love,....

Everything I felt that night was just numbness and complete emptiness. My body was working with the flow, just like a machine in a factory. I was in the bath tub with my baby Nialler, washing his dirty blond hair with the baby hair shampoo as he plays with his toys. I carefully wash away the bubble suds kissed his wet hair softly. The news hit me like a ton of bricks and I was still trying to believe it. I was discharge from the hospital this morning and I was on auto-pilot since then. I still haven't told Liam what the doctor told me,...... I was too scared. Of what? I have no idea. Niall noticed I was quiet, so he turned around and smiled widely at me, with his cerulean eyes shining with happiness. It's been nearly a week since I had a bubble bath with Niall, and I have to admit, I missed it a hell lot. Niall noticed I wasn't returning his smile and immediately stood up so that he was at eye-level with me. Niall put his small hands on my cheeks and wiped away a stray tear that I didn't even realized shedding. Hi wiped is slowly and pressed a sloppy kiss on my nose.

“Why Papa sad? Papa need cwuddle?” Niall asked innocently. Surprised by his small yet meaningful gesture, I just nodded, not trusting my voice. Niall wrapped his small arms around my neck and buries his face in my neck. Involuntarily, I started sobbing.

“No,...Papa no cry. Niall fweel sad. Papa big boy so no cry. Niall small so Niall cry,” Nill mumbled in my neck which makes me cry even harder. Nialla and I spent a few more minutes cuddling, with the sole purpose of calming me.

After bathing, dressing Niall in his Pj’s, I told Niall to go and play with his brothers. Niall tried to drag me with him but I refused. He gave me Ben and told me that that I can cuddle with Ben if I fell sad and ran off. I went in Liam's study room, gathering all my courage to tell him the bad news. Liam was on his work desk, marking his students' papers, sipping a cuppa, with his sexy spectacles on. He had his back to me, as he hunched in concentration and sighing at the papers wearing nothing but a fitting tank top. Now he knows how a lecturer feels when students sends crap papers. I really have no idea how Liam even consider teaching. I placed both of my hands on his shoulders and starts rubbing it, giving a massage on his stiff shoulder. He was shocked by the contact at first, but soon, relaxed and leaned back. I leaned down to his muscular neck and pressed my lips onto it and Liam shuddered under my lips. I started to press open-mouth kisses along his neck and Liam tilted his head to give me more access. My lips arrived at Liam's weak spot, Liam let out a moan as I began sucking at the spot right under his ear.

“Ahhhh Zayn, I'm trying to work here babe,” Liam moaned.

“What? M'not doing anything. I miss my sexy husband,” I mumbled on his skin, breathing hot breath.

“Zayn babe,...Your supposed to be resting,” Liam's eyes were still close in pure bliss as I kept my attention on his weak spot.

“Then come rest with me,....I missed you babe,” I walked around and straddled him on the chair. Luckily, his chair is one of those huge office chairs that can swivel and hold a lot of weight. Before Liam could say anything, I crashed my lips onto his and he kissed me back just as fast. The kiss turned into a full on snogging pretty quickly and my hands were roaming all around Liam's body, memorizing it, savoring every bumps of his muscle and the stubble on his cheeks. Liam's hands went under my shirt, tracing the bumps of my abs, and caressing my nipple with his thumb. I groaned loudly when Liam pulled away.

“Sorry babe, I don't want the kids to walk in on us snogging,” Liam chuckled, giving my lips one last peck.

“I'm so having my way with you tonight,” I groaned and got off him “I'm gonna go play Power Rangers with the boys,”

Liam managed to give my bum one last squeeze before I got out of his room.

I totally forgot what I was supposed to tell him.....

“Okay guys, that's enough for tonight,” I told the three musketeers on my back, using me as an Animal Zoid (those huge animal-robots in Power Rangers are called Zoids) as I lay on my stomach in the living room. I series of groans left their mouths and Niall even turned to slap my bum.

“Awww,..... but Papa!” Louis whined cutely “Five more minutes?”

“Nope, sorry Boo. Bedtime,”

“Four more minutes?”

“Nope,”

“Three more minute?”

“Na-da” I chuckled. This is what happen when Louis William learns how to count. We can't even lie to him anymore about how many spoons of sugar we put in his hot coco and how much sweets he can have or how much cookies he can have.

“Two more minutes?”

“No can do,”

“One more minute?” He asks in a tiny voice. Hazza and Nialler burst out giggling.

“Sorry bubs. It's bedtime and you, Mr. Louis William Payne-Malik, have kindergarten tomorrow. Have you done your homework?”

“Yes Papa,” He groans and got up from behind me.

“Papa! Papa! What my name?! My name!” Niall asked loudly while bouncing on my back giddly. He loves it when people says his full name.

“Niall James Stinky,” I chuckled.

“No! No Papa!” Niall shook his head.

“Yes Niall, that is your name,” I teased.

“No, no, no, no! Not my name!” Hazza burst out laughing, and so did Louis. Niall scrunched up his nose like he always do when he didn't like something.

“Okay baby, your name is Niall James Javvad Payne-Malik,” I pronounce his name softly. Niall has two middle name, combining both Liam's and I's middle name which somehow, fits him perfectly.

“Yeah!” Niall cheered as he got off me and helped Louis picking up the toys scattered on the floor.

“Me Papa! Me!” Hazza small voice cheered.

“Hazza Stinky Kitty,” I teased.

“No! Wong Papa! Wong!” he giggles.

“Harold Edward Payne-Malik,” I told him softly. He got off me and I pull myself off the floor and kiss his cute button nose. Harry turned around and helped his brothers with the toys.

I watched as they clumsily picked up the toys from the floor and place them into the huge toy chest, and cleaning up the coffee table from their coloring utensils and coloring books. I carried both Niall and Harry in my arms, with Louis following suit. I put Niall in his bed and told him to wait. He picked up Ben and start talking to it. I went into Louis' and Harry's shared bedroom and placed them in their respective beds.

“Papa?” Harry called me.

“Yes bub?”

“Sing! Sing!” He claps his hands together.

“Yeah Papa! Sing for us!” Louis joined.

“Okay, okay!”

“I remember your bare feet down the hallway
I remember your little laugh
Race cars on the kitchen floor, plastic dinosaurs
I love you to the moon and back

I remember your blue eyes looking into mine
Like we had our own secret club
I remember you dancing before bed time
Then jumping on me, waking me up

I can still feel you hold my hand, little man
And even the moment I knew
You fought it hard like an army guy
Remember I leaned in and whispered to you

Come on baby with me we're gonna fly away from here
Come on baby with me we're gonna fly away from here

I remember your bare feet down the hallway
I love you to the moon and back ”

I finished the song softly and noticed that Harry was already asleep and Louis is on his way.

“Sleep tight, I love you,” I kissed both of their forehead, turned of the lamp but leaving the night lamp on and closed the door. I went into Niall's room and saw that he was still talking to Ben.

“Hey bud, time for bed,” Niall looked up to me once he heard my voice with his baby-blue eyes and smiled. He placed Ben next to him and snuggled into his bed, patting at his green blanket as a sign for me to drape it over him. I picked up the green blanket and wrapped his small body with it.

“Papa,....sleep with Niall?” Niall asked, his eyes widen with hope.

“Sorry bub. I would love to, but I think your bed is too small,” It is true, I would love to sleep with Niall but since his bed/crib is too small, I have to turn down that offer.

“Sing Swoft Kitty?”

“That, I can,” I smiled. Niall reached out for my hand and I let him play with my fingers while I sing.

“Soft kitty,

Warm kitty,

Little ball of fur....

Happy kitty,

Sleepy kitty,

Purr, purr, purr.......

Big kitty,

Small kitty,

Little ball of fur,

Singing kitty,

Dancing kitty,

Sleep, sleep, sleep,......”

“Sleep tight bub. I love you so much,” I kissed his small fingers and pried my hands from his grip.

I went back to Liam's study room and saw that he had finished marking those silly papers. He was stacking the papers and shoving a few other papers back into his satchel. Playing with our sons really had taken my minds of thing. Especially that particular thing. I really don't have the energy nor the courage to tell Liam. Not right now anyway. I leaned on the doorframe, just watching his every move. I wonder,....I wonder how much time-

“Shit! Zayn! Are you trying to give me a heart attack?!” Liam put a hand on his chest, where his heart is.

“Sorry babe,” I walked up to him and wrapped my arms around him. “You're a very sexy thing to look at,”

“Only to look at?” Liam smirked.

“Cheeky, I like it,” I lifted him up and carried him bridal style to our room. “And I have to say, this sexy thing is getting havier!”

“Shut up Zayn!” Liam chuckled and buried his face in my neck.

We were in the middle of a hot snogging session, only in our boxers, when Liam decides to ruin the moment.

“You're not going to work tomorrow,” He mumbled against my lips, and I pulled away.

“What? Why babe?”

“Zayn, you just got out of the hospital. Take a break. Plus, I have something planned for us,” Liam, who is currently straddling me, mumbled against my neck as he leaves love bites around my neck. I moaned in pleasure and everything that I was about to protest, flew out of the window. I miss Liam and his touches. I need him! My dominant side took over and I immediately rolled us so that Liam was under me. I stared at him hungrily and tore away his boxers. I tackled his lips and grind my body aginst him. Liam is mine tonight.

“Come on Papa, give it to me,” Liam moaned.

(A/N: Sorry guys, I can't write smut :P )

The next morning, I woke up at 5.30 in the morning with Liam snoring softly on my chest. Last night was absolutely amazing. Liam was submissive even though I was a bit, or very hard with him. That's what you get after 2 weeks worth of sexual frustration. I looked over at my phone on the bedside table and it was blinking and vibrating. I slowly reached over to it, making sure that I didn't wake up Liam. I recieved a text from my boss.

Zayn,

We need you at the station today, there is a lead on the De Vont case.

Can you make it?

I replied a short yes and slowly slid out under Liam and got dressed.

Maybe work will get my mind of it.

I kissed Liam's, Niall's, Harry's and Louis' foreheads before I left the house.

It was a little after six when I got home. Just in time for dinner and bathing with Niall, I thought to myself, feeling proud that I managed to finish my job early so I can get home to my family. I was finally ready to tell Liam. I knew it was bad, for both of us, and the kids for me to keep this as a secret. When I was about to turn the doorknob, the door flew open by itself.

“El?” I was a bit weird to see her unexpectedly.

“Zayn! You're back!” El walked out of the door and give me a hug. “Go inside, someone is not happy with you,” she whispered into my ear. She gave me an apologetic smile and left. I quickly went inside and saw Liam on the sofa, dressed up quite fancy, his eyes were red, as if he had just finished crying.

“Hey babe are-”

“Where the fuck have you been!” Liam yelled, standing up from the sofa. Liam was never the kind to curse, so this really is unexpected.

“At work,..”

“Work?! The fuck Zayn?! I've been waiting for you at the restaurant for almost two hours! Looking like freaking moron! Why the hell didn't you picked up your phone?!” Liam kept yelling. My phone? It was on silent all day. I fist it out of my back pocket to see it has 24 missed calls and 12 texts, all from Liam.

“I-I,..”

“I told YOU that I had something planned for US!” Liam yelled, louder. Shit! I forgot!

“You forgot didn't you? You just fuck me and leave me the next morning! To work! And th next time your sick, you would be looking for me for an easy sex! Is that it Zayn?! Huh?!”

“The fuck Liam?! I-I would never do that! What makes you think that way Liam! I LOVE YOU!” I was beginning to yell to. I literally felt the pain when Liam shot me those false accusation.

“I strictly told NOT to go to work today! And I TOLD you I had PLANS for us today! Was that so hard to understand?! Am I really not that important to you!?”

“Fuck Liam! You're not my fucking father so DO NOT talk to me like I'm a child!!” I yelled back. Both of us was breathing vigorously and our face was deep shade of crimson.

“You know what Zee? You should go to work 24/7!! If that is what you want!! And leave us to fucking worry about your health!! Worried to death that you might not come home!” Liam was now full on crying with big fat tears rolling down his cheeks. “Don't even bother to come home early!!”

Worried about my health? Liam doesn't even have a fucking clue on what he is talking about.

“You know what? Maybe I should have stayed at work. I don't need this shit from you,” I snarled at him and storm out of the house.

I drove for thirty minutes until I saw the rather familiar neon light banner. “Brad Club & Bar”. I was quite the alcoholic when I was a teenager, and Liam had helped me got over it,..... Screw Liam! I need this! I parked my car nearby and walked into club,...

I love you so much Li, why can't you see that?

__________________________________________________ 

REMEMBER to VOTE and leave and awesome COMMENT! 

AND check out my new NIAM story! Hi I'm Niall Malik!